The first thing I noticed was the pain. Uncomfortable, continuously pounding-under-my-skin pain. My lower lip hurt badly, so did my shoulder after last night’s unfolding activities. I could feel I had been more flexible than the stitched had allowed, I just hadn’t felt the discomfort. Maybe because of the satisfaction I had felt, or maybe it had been overshadowed by another pain.
Again, I was awake before Jake. I was actually relieved, I still had to take in the situation and the fact that we had slept in the same bed. This was again different from the other nights. This was a king sized bed after all. A lot of different in the last three days, I seriously had to get a little normal– I stopped myself when I thought back on the new normal situation.
I laid my eyes on him, he looked so peaceful when he was asleep. I hadn’t noticed that before. The constant worrying line between his eyebrows was gone.
I got up, found some painkillers, and fo
This morning Jake wasn’t holding me when I woke up. He had his back turned towards me, there were only a couple of inches between us, but we didn’t touch. I laid for a couple of minutes, just thinking while I bent and stretched my right knee under the covers to get the rigidness to disappear. This was the worst part of being a vampire hunter. Searching for leads in all the places you could think of, just to hope you luckily encountered something unusual. It was like a needle in a haystack. I hated it, but when you first found the lead it was completely different, and that compensated a lot. There was no telling of how long it could take to find something suspicious. Why didn’t vampires had to eat more often? They would be easier to trace if they ate a lot more, but it was a horrible thought of mine. How could I wish they would eat more, kill more? Just to make my job easier? I felt a little bad about my thoughts and myself. Wasn’t three to four lives enough a year? For each
After that, everything just went back to normal. The new seriously uncomfortable normal and the Angry Jake, angrier than ever before. He didn’t look at me or talk to me unless it was absolutely necessary. I did the same, but I was thinking of a way to tell him what I couldn’t say when he had asked me. Every time I thought on some way to tell him how I felt like it just sounded wrong in my head, it could be misunderstood, or it could hurt him. I didn’t want to hurt him any more than he already was. The guilt rose in me for each day that passed. He was the one hurt, and I was the one that demanded some air.A headache sneaked in on me the more I speculated. I was beginning to take painkillers several times a day. If it wasn’t for my lip, then it was for my shoulder, and if it were neither of them, it was for my headache. I didn’t sleep very comfortably. We both laid close to the edge on each side of the king sized bed, as far away from each other a
“A beer.” I snapped at the bartender. I was still incandescent with rage. But the truth was that I didn’t want to feel anything but the rage right now. Hoping it could keep away all the demons of guilt that were ready to take a hold on me. Yell at Val. Hurt Val. Make her cry. Being an asshole to her. They already had the names engraved on them. Rage. Hold on to the rage. And the rage told me to blame her. Like it had made me yell at her, and hurt her, and made her cry. I couldn’t stand the image of her with tears running down her cheeks. I closed my eyes and shook my head as if I could shake away the image. How did it get this far? Why did it have to be this level of complicated? Why couldn’t she just fucking tell me what she fucking needed? I mean how hard is that? Use words for God’s sake. It was like she did it on purpose. Always just giving me that face instead of a proper answer. It was like the highest level of frustrating she could manage, just for the fun of pissing me off.
The door got banged open, and I jumped two feet from the bed, Jake stumbled inside. “Jake? Where the fuck have you been? I’ve been worried sick about you.” The first sentence after I surprisingly exclaimed his name was pure relief, the second was harsh. I got up, but when I started to walk across the room, I noticed something was off. His balance was hell and his eyes blurry. A reek of alcohol hit my nose. “Are you… drunk?” I gasped in shock, but before he could answer I had to stabilize him, otherwise he would have gone down on his face. “Yeah, I think so.” He chuckled with a stupid smile on his face. I got him guided to the bed. He was swaying a lot, and I had trouble keeping him upright. Jesus Christ! I didn’t think he was even capable of getting himself undressed, so I started to take off his jacket. “Come here, Val.” He grabbed my waist and pulled me backward down to sit on his lap as I had turned around to hang up his jacket. I dropped it on the
The most disgusting sound ever woke me up. It was still dark outside. It took a couple of seconds before the memories of yesterday flushed over me. Our fight, Jake that took off and came home dead drunk several hours later. My head felt heavy and throbbing from all the crying. Jake was in the bathroom puking his guts out. I got up and knocked on the door. “You okay in there?” I asked gently. “No.” He groaned before he started puking again. I felt sorry for him, but on the other hand, he had what was coming to him. This was the karma kicking him in the ass because he made me worried. I smiled but immediately felt guilty. He was in a really bad shape. Poor him. “Ugh, I’m never drinking again.” He complained. I found a glass of water and some aspirins for him, for when he was feeling good enough to pull his head out of the toilet. I looked at the clock when I crawled back in bed and turned on the TV, it was 3:27 a.m. There was absolutely nothing
One part of me really longed to fuck her again, but the other part was too tired and too drained. I still had a hangover, but it was definitely better than earlier. The clawing demons had begun waking up inside of me again. They had been momentarily numbed by the alcohol and the major hangover. She was in the shower. I really needed her, just her presence and closeness. Should I ask if I could join her? No, I don’t have to, couples showered together. I took off all my clothes and opened the door to the bathroom. I pulled the shower curtain aside, she was standing beside the running water with shampoo in her hair. I stepped in under the running water like it was something I did every day. With her. Her eyes had widened and stared, and she had frozen for a second when I had pulled the shower curtain aside, now she closed them again and continued. Well, she didn’t kick me out, so it must be okay with her, though she looked… reticent? Reserved? I felt lik
I saw he was trying to fight the anger more than ever when we woke up. Some place deep inside I knew the anger wasn’t aimed directly at me, I was just the only one there to take it out on. It didn’t make it easier, but it made it more bearable somehow. Jake was the one fetching milk today and I checked the news on the laptop in the meantime. Before I was finished, he returned. “You got anything?” He hinted towards the laptop. “Nope, nothing so far.” He sat down across the table from me, poured a bowl of cereal, and started to read in his folklore book while he ate. “Haven’t you read it like five hundred times now?” I asked in a light tone. “Yeah probably, but I might have missed something.” He smiled at me, it looked slightly strained. I finished reading the news and found the locked folder again. It was really starting to bother me. What was in it? Maybe it was just porn, I couldn’t help but laugh inwardly of that joke.
“Jake? Jake! Take a look at this.” Val suddenly burst out and wavered me over to her with frantic arms. I was slightly perplexed but did as she said. She had a document open on the screen. I leaned in over her shoulder to read. I got more and more shocked and confused the more I read. Where the fuck did this come from? When I read the note from my dad at the bottom of the document, it was like a knife stabbed my heart and got twisted around. “Where did you find this?” I demanded, but even my voice was affected by the shock. “It-it was in a locked folder. I finally cracked the password.” She explained. It made less and less sense. A locked folder? “Seriously?” I asked her, and she just nodded. I felt something replace the shock. It started pounding in my veins. Started in my heart, that still felt stabbed and twisted, and slowly spread throughout my whole body. “This is… gold!” She exclaimed. No, this is a betrayal. Why would he keep th