ASHANTI
“I want to eat ice cream.” I raised my brow at what Kristoff told me. We are cuddling on the couch while watching the closing ceremonies of Asian Games, and then, there he is, pouting at me and hugging my body tightly.
It was such an awful sight, to be honest. Kristoff and pouting should never be used in one sentence.
“But it’s the middle of the night,” I replied and he pouted even more.
I almost scoffed when I saw his face like that. Is he kidding me? Why is he acting like this right now? It was as if he is a baby or what.
Truthfully, he was like this for the past few days. It’s too extreme to the point that I think he’s the pregnant one. He’s the one with raging hormones and not me.
It’s too funny to even think about his expressions when he tells me that he likes pizza, ice cream, twin bananas, dragon fruits and what so ever.
I’ve searche
ASHANTI“I can’t take it anymore,” I told Kristoff as we were in the labor room. This morning, I had several Braxton-Hicks that made Kristoff panic. The contractions had been intensified from then up to now.“Baby, just hold on a little longer.” I don’t know who Kristoff is telling that—me or the baby.He gripped onto my hand as before planting a kiss on my sweaty forehead.I’ve known how painful it is to give birth but the ones I have read never really made me feel this way. This is—by far—the worst pain in my life. I have never even imagined feeling this excruciating pain.Dr. Johnson, my OB, with a nurse came towards us. The nurse explained that the doctor will be checking my cervical dilatation.“You’re fully dilated now, Mrs. Marx. You can push now.” Dr. Johnson told me and encouraged me to bear down.Kristoff was holdi
ASHANTII woke with the alarm clock blasting on my bedside table. I immediately sat up and rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand. I looked at the watch and it’s already six in the morning—an hour earlier than the usual time I wake up.I walked down to the kitchen to cook breakfast. I am not really the best person to cook but I’m trying to practice. At least for my husband and I…I prepared what I needed for the fried rice and the sides. I know what to do. I’ve watched several cooking shoes lately and I believe I am going to really get better at this. I just need practice, like what Lora, our helper, and my mom tell me all the time.“Practice never betrays you,” is what my mother has been telling me. Even when I was just starting to design clothes, it has been my motto. No one was born a genius or skillful, anyway.I was on the final egg—the last egg stan
WORK AND LOVE“Wow! You are early, Ashanti.” Min greeted me as I entered the office.I smiled at her and nodded. “Kristoff wanted us to leave the house together so, I had to come early,” I replied as I placed my things on my table.She just gave me a smile and I know there is a meaning behind it.Minerva Crescent is one of my closest people in the office. She had been my person to run to, other than Genevieve, my best friend, when I am facing problems in any aspect of my life. She pretty much knows everything about me and I know that I, too, know things about her life as well.There isn’t any awkward boss-subordinate relationship between us because one, we are of the same age and, two, I don’t look at her as a subordinate. She is a friend. She’s someone reliable.I looked at the pile of folders on my table. There are about twenty of those in my estimation.“Th
ANNIVERSARY FIGHTSilence enveloped the car when we started driving. Only the noise from the stereo was heard in the whole car.“So…where do you want to eat?” Kristoff asked as he turned the car.I looked straight at the road. “Wherever you want,” I replied safely.I can tell that he is looking at me. I can tell at my peripheral view. And hell, I am distracted and over the roof uneasy.“Is there something bothering you?” He should’ve noticed my uneasiness.But yes, you are bothering me. I looked at him, against my will because looking at him will only distract me more, and shook my head. “No. Nothing. Just office stuff,” I replied as calm as I could.He nodded and seemed to believe. I do hope so. “What is up for your fashion show?” he asked.“We are still planning it. Hopefully, everything will be final by the end of the
THE GIRL IN THE RESTAURANTAnd I am talking to Kristoff again, right here, right now. Maybe his unpredictable attitude caused every bit of my pissed emotion to turn a hundred and eighty degrees.Sure, he doesn’t love me. That I have reiterated all throughout. But I am thankful that he is there for me whenever I need him. And he remembers important dates even more than me.I thought I was the one who’s in love with him. Why is he the one remembering the important dates?Kristoff looked at me as he caught me staring at him. “What?” he asked me as he took a bite on his food.I shook my head. I want to tell him everything that I am feeling now. But no. What if he doesn’t like me back? What if he doesn’t love me back? I guess I couldn’t bear hearing that.He gave me a confused look. “You are getting weirder every day,” he told me.I looked at him. “Why?
ASDFGHJKLKristoff didn’t talk to me for about five minutes. He just stared at me. I am still into tears and I think the people around are looking our way now. They are probably thinking that we are quarreling right now. But no, I am quarreling with myself.I don’t know why I hate it that I can’t do anything about the fashion show right now. I wish I could do something.I wish everything would fall back into place like what Kristoff said. I wish all the problems can just resolve on their own.Kristoff sighed. “Will you stop crying, Ashanti?” he asked as he passed me a tissue.I looked at him with my tearful eyes. “I’m sorry, I can’t help it.” I took the tissue he gave me and wiped my tears.He smiled at me. “Come on! We should be happy tonight right? Don’t cry like a baby.” He smiled wider.And trust me how I had to control my feelings
SICKI woke up the next morning feeling heavy and sick. Maybe I am really sick because I couldn’t stand up when I tried to. I can’t even move my body.Kristoff walked to my room. We don’t share one room. But our rooms are next to each other.He called me and said some things I couldn’t decipher anymore. He keeps talking but I don’t think I know what he was talking about.Is he speaking in Chinese? I don’t know.My head hurts like hell and I can’t move and it’s cold and maybe I need his hug and…. Wait. What did I just think of?I need his hug?Oh no. Please, Ashanti. Get a hold of yourself.I closed my eyes and went to sleep again.Sorry, Kristoff. I can’t understand you right now. Everything is blurring and fading away.***I woke up with a heavy feeling on my hand. I looked at the window
THIS LADYLora, our helper, peered on the door while Kristoff and I are laughing together over that funny stuff he was talking about.“Kristoff, there is a visitor downstairs,” she told him. She then turned to me with the eyes of a concerned mother. I smiled at her, assuring her that I am fine now.Kristoff suddenly stayed still, frozen and I don’t know how to describe his facial expression. Was he nervous upon hearing that?I looked at him as he sighed to collect his cool. I know there is something wrong.“What’s wrong?” I finally found my guts to ask.He shook his head as he stood up and walked down stairs. I watched him as he hesitantly moved to the door. He is not like this.There is something wrong. I don’t really like it when he is acting this way. It’s like he doesn’t want to share his problems. Doesn’t he know that it’s making me craz