As I woke up from my deep sleep, I could feel light pouring into my eyes. I heard beeping and the sound of people talking in the background. "She's awake. Oh thank god" said a deep voice. I sat up and rubbed my eyes to see Ryan standing at the foot of my bed talking with my manager Vicky. "Darling you're awake" Vicky said as she smiled at me and sat down her huge binder on a chair. Ryan walked over to me and took my hand in his "you've been sleeping for a good whole day." My eyes widened "a day?!" I sounded raspy. He smiled at me and I could tell he hasn't shaved for a while because of the beard forming on his face. His shirt was wrinkled and his pants weren't sitting on him properly. "I want to go home" I sat up and started touching all the wires all over me."Hold on, I'll get a nurse" he said as he jogged out of the room. Vicky looked at me and smiled "glad you're okay Mads. Everyone was so worried! I postponed your photo shoots for next week so you have a good week of rest"
As we were driving up a hill to get to my old childhood home for thanksgiving, everything started to fall into place. We drove past a small building with a crooked sign and a broken basketball net in the front "I went to elementary school there" I said while pointing out the window. Ryan slowed the car a little bit and looked out the window "looks dank" he said. I laughed at his idiotic comment "it was VERY dank" "I can't believe you're from here. No offense but this town looks creepy" he muttered. I shrugged knowing he was right. There were no streetlights and the stores were a mile apart. The houses looked like sheds and the trees were overgrown and covered with snow. The town looked...sad. "It looks sad" I said. He nodded "well I'm just glad I can get you back to a city where you belong after this"I smiled and took his hand in mine "and I'm grateful for that" He turned to me and smiled "happy thanksgiving, honey" he leaned over and pecked me quickly before returning to driv
He held my hand and stroked it "I remember my dad coming into my room at around 4:30 in the morning saying my mom died in the hospital. We jumped in the car with our pajamas on and sped down there just she was being taken off of her machines. I just can't get the image of my frail, pale, and skinny mother out of my head till this day" I stroked his hair as I listened "her pain is gone baby. she's at peace now." He shook his head "I wish I knew where she was. I just want my mom back" his voice cracked at the end and I could feel the arm of my sweater become wet. At this point I myself could not hold back my tears. This beautiful broken man just wanted his mother back and was sitting in my apartment at 4 in the morning, crying in my arms and I couldn't help but cry too. I wanted to cry with him.I hugged him to me tighter and kissed his forehead. "She'll always be here with you. Always. Always. Always" He nodded and held me tighter as he silently wept. Eventually we made it to my c
December 31stI looked at my red lipstick from the other side of the mirror and liked what I saw. I managed to get my hair to a pin straight form instead of the usual frizzy madness. New Years Eve was one of those days that made me happy and yet depressed. I couldn't believe my brother wasn't home yet but at the same time, I was unbelievably grateful for my boyfriend. I pulled on a black shimmery dress without ruining my hair and looked in my full length mirror. I felt like I gained weight and needed to hit the gym more often if I wanted to keep my modeling job. I hopped into my car and drove down to Ryan's place for his annual New Years Eve party which happened to host his father and his wife along with his brother and sister Nancy.I got a phone call from him and eagerly picked up. "Ready to spend the last few hours of this year with me?" He laughed through the phone. "Always ready. And ready for the months of the new year. I can't believe it" He sighed "me neither. Dad's her
January 23rd; interview day I felt nervous. Extremely nervous. I didn't want to sit in front of a camera and an interviewer and then embarrass myself. Ryan was used to these things and he gave me a more than decent pep talk last night which ended up with some great sex and me driving back home with my pants halfway down my legs. I stood in front of my floor length mirror with two different dresses in my hands. I had literally tried on 4 different dresses and 3 different hair styles. I settled with a black and white knee length dress with some black heels. I left my hair curled and put on some eyeliner, mascara, and pink lipgloss. I got a phone call from Ryan and I happily picked up the phone. "Hello?" I chirped. "Hey babe. Do you want me to pick you up?" He asked.I smiled as I pulled a bottle of water out of my fridge "sure, if you want, maybe we can have a little fun later" He laughed "now I have to change my pants" I laughed and covered my mouth "you're so freaking disgust
When I dropped Ry off at the airport, my heart felt heavy. He turned to me and smiled before going off. "Hey, stay safe remember? I'll call you when I land. Okay?" He said while holding my hands. I nodded and smiled slowly "okay. Have a safe trip Ry. I'll miss you" He smiled and hugged me "I'll miss you even more. I love you, okay?" I nodded and hugged him back "I love you too. Call me please. I'll be freaking out until then" He laughed "I will, don't worry. Get some sleep. It's still early." I nodded "bye Ry" He smiled and let go of my hands "bye Mads. See you in 2" I waved goodbye and turned around, walking back to my car.I sped back home from the airport and climbed under my covers. The sheets still smelled like him, as creepy as it sounded. I pulled the covers over me and laid my head down. I felt a tear slip down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. Ryan was right, 2 weeks would fly by. It's just that I didn't have my valentine to spend Valentine's Day with. I checke
Waking up sore wasn't fun, but waking up next to a hot guy definitely is.I looked over to my side and Ryan's arm was draped over my stomach as he lightly snored into his pillow. Poor baby probably didn't get any sleep. I lightly removed his arm from me and walked into the bathroom. My cheeks were flushed and I still had the garter on. I took it off and folded it onto the counter. I clipped my hair off to the side and hopped Into his large shower.When I got out, he was still sound asleep. I changed into a tee shirt and put on a pair of shorts. I looked out the window to see the entire city blanketed in snow. It was still snowing, but not as bad as before. I checked the weather forecast on my phone and sure enough, it said to stay off the roads for today. I walked Into the kitchen and made some waffles with a fruit salad.I set myself a plate and put some aside for Ryan. I poured myself a cup of tea and sat down to have my breakfast. I plugged my phone into the auxiliary cord and
"Happy birthday!" I heard someone shouting as I rubbed my eyes. I sat up in bed and slowly opened my eyes. Ry was standing in front of the bed with a big smile on his face. Wearing Adidas sweatpants and a tee shirt. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" He shouted. "What time is it?" I asked sleepily. He frowned and crossed his arms "7:30" I laughed and fell back into bed "give me until 10" I mumbled as I started to close my eyes again. He laughed and ran over to my bedside "oh no you won't! I have a private gallery showing for us at 9. Get up!" He said while shaking my shoulder. I shook my head and he started to tickle me. I laughed and writhed under his hands "okay okay I'm up!" I screamed. He stopped and helped me out of bed "go brush your teeth birthday girl" he said while making a face.I smacked his shoulder "shut up. I've been up for like 2 minutes" He smiled "and you still manage to look as beautiful as ever" I smiled "aw you're such a charmer. I'm going to shower" He laughed "wear som