MarlonI hear everything that Cíntia and Nancy talk about, I pretend to be asleep, but I'm listening to everything. Realizing that caution must be exercised, I would have to find a way to get out of here. I didn't have a cell phone, I couldn't use the phone in this place.Soon, a nurse comes in and looks at me, with a smile.“I see that you seem calm now. I'll let you go, but you'll behave. He is well?I nod my head positively, I couldn't even speak, because I had a mask on, like the muzzle of a wild animal.She gently removes the mask, sees that I don't react and continues to release me little by little with care and fear. I remain silent, I had no strength. My head hurt, my body felt like it had broken down."She's here because she's more of a warrior"... I remember what Mike told me. Sasha, my love, I wonder if she went through this. What I let you do to her. Every suffering of mine, I thought of her.(....)I am escorted to the hospital garden. I was quiet and cold, due to the med
I walked in the basement corridors, accompanied by Leo. He followed me, wanted to know what I was up to. He would also be useful to me, because of the people I met in this hospital, he seemed the healthiest, with the most mental stability. He didn't have any serious mental disorder, unlike many, he was here because he was homosexual, because his family didn't accept him the way he was.I went straight to Sasha's room, I needed to see her and talk to her. Find out how she was. I arrive in the room and look at her through the door, she is sitting with the carnations.“ Did you get the card?“ Yes.“ He is sure? Don't you want me to come in with you?“ No.I use Cíntia's card to open the door, as I suspected, the door opens, Mike is outside waiting for me.I walked carefully, so as not to scare her as she was concentrating on the blackheads.“ Sasha....She looks at me, but then ignores me and continues playing with the blackheads. I move closer and call her again.“ It is me!She stops
Sasha9 amLying in bed, I still couldn't believe Marlon was here. I thought he had left me, I thought it was a hallucination. How I've missed you all this time.“ Sasha...Says an employee opening the door, looking as if she doesn't have many friends, as always. This place was so sad and dark that everyone ended up frustrated and grumpy. I got up from the bed and left the room.“ Playtime... “ He told me.I walked to the cafeteria, along the way I came across patients who looked like the living dead, it was depressing and contagious. I asked myself what harm I did to be here, did some voices tell me to do something I shouldn't have done? I am schizophrenic, but I was on medication and had a normal life. What happened with me?“ Sasha! “ Said a friend of mine, pulling me by the arm. She was an elderly lady, her name was Hilda.We walked together to the cafeteria, received the plates with food and sat down at the table.“ There's a sparkle in your eyes.I smiled and looked away.“ Marl
MarlonAlmost asleep on the bed in my room, I hear footsteps towards my room. I was dying of sleep, as I was awake all night. The door opens and a security guard enters the room. He looked at me suspiciously.“ Navid, did you ever see someone in uniform the night before?“ No.I see him looking me up and down, suspicious. He looks at my face, as if it were familiar, I notice that his eyes are fixed on my arms, which have many tattoos. I took a deep breath, remaining calm and calm, as if I didn't even know what he was talking about.“ Is there a problem, Mr. Charles? “ Cíntia asks, finding it strange.“ No, my colleagues and I just suspect that there is an infiltrator... someone impersonated us last night.“Then keep looking and leave the patient alone.” He ordered.“ Yes ma'am. “ He looked at me again and left.She came closer to me and sat down next to me. She put her hand on my arm.“ Don't worry, no one will hurt you anymore....I looked at her and said nothing, disguising the cont
MidnightMarlonI'm underground heading towards Sasha's room, I get there and I don't see her. I get distressed and start looking in other rooms, where was she? Did they punish her and she's in the punishment room? What happened? I start to call her in distress, but there is no response. The corridor was full of patients circulating like the living dead, I see a patient with long hair, her back was turned. I come closer, I grab her shoulder and she looks at me and I get scared. She had no eyes, her eye socket was inflamed and pink. She murmured, didn't even speak, so I walked away and continued walking.“ Sasha! “ I say entering a room, I am relieved to see her sitting on the bed, combing the hair of an elderly woman. She looks at me and smiles, runs to me and hugs me. I can't respond to her hug, because since that night, I haven't felt comfortable with hugs or my torso being touched by anyone other than myself.“ Marlon! “ She hugs me and then gives me a kiss on the mouth, short but
Sasha"He's amazing" I repeated that several times, to myself. Still sitting on the floor, I thought about the moments that one day I was able to make him happy.On the days when I couldn't be a threat... I almost killed him and I don't even know why! That scar... What did I do? How does he still want me in his life?“ Sasha..I look and see Hilda looking at me worriedly. Marlon had already left.“ I almost killed...“ But he didn't kill him, he's still alive, as you saw...“ I'm afraid, afraid of what I'm capable of doing! I thought I knew myself.... “ He said."You don't deserve anyone""Another being touched you"I hear the voices and ignore them, standing up and clutching my hands in my pajamas until my fingers hurt.“ Think about the opportunity you have to get out of here... “ Said Hilda“ I almost killed him...“ I've done a lot of bad things, but I think I deserve to leave here!I looked at her and shook my head.“ Your love looks so beautiful! He's just like you said.“ He de
2 days laterNancy"There are several ways to silence someone... a slap on the face, speaking louder, silence... they silenced me, turning their backs on me without looking back, without knowing how I felt"Navid, I was in the cafeteria, I took advantage of him leaving to go into his room. I see drawings on the walls, he really liked to draw. His drawings were childish for his age, but there was something interesting about them. The wall was colorful and even added charm to the room. I approach the drawing that has a sun, with yellow and red rays. Why would he draw red rays? I asked myself. Next to it was a drawing of a tree with red apples in the middle of the night.I close my eyes and I can imagine Navid next to me, imagining what his hands would do if they touched me. I couldn't stop thinking about him, not what was happening to me.I hear footsteps that make me open my eyes, I turn around and see Cíntia. She looks at me, confused and embarrassed.“Looking for Navid?” I intimidate
SashaIn the darkness, there is always a light. Even in a place as dark and obscure as this, there were illuminated places, lights from above. Lights from a place I used to stay and because I tried to escape, I stayed here, but there was a door. In the middle of all this, the dark, the suffering, the insanity there was a door. A door where I could see the light coming from beneath it, I knew that this was not light from the place where I was, but from outside. I was in front of the door, staring and thinking what could be behind it, pressing my hands to my robe. I felt an agony that I couldn't even explain, the place, the place left me like that, afraid of today and tomorrow. Marlon hadn't come to see me for three days, I missed him and I wanted to talk so much about this door. I never understood why I was here, until I saw Marlon's scar, but I know he will only leave here with me. He won't leave without me, Marlon, when he has something on his mind, doesn't give up, it wouldn't be fa