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CHAPTER 25
"W-wait, what? What the hell are you even saying?" I asked Jinx with my widened eyes because of shock.
I could not believe he said that! Like, what the fucking hell?! He likes me and he was slowly falling in love with me? Is he even joking? Well, if he is, it was not funny. And I will never laugh at that if ever.
"I hate fooling around, you know.." he sighed and lifted his weight, he then stood up in front of me straightly like a soldier in a training. "I am just fooling myself, and you, Astra."
"What do you mean? You are just joking back then? That you do not even care at me and you are just playing around me?"
He chuckled and shook his head. "Of course, no. What I mean is, I should not fool myself to deny that I do not have feelings towards you. It was just that, I am afraid of rejection and also, you might not like me, like the feelings are not even mutuals."
My heart beats started pacing. So, he was really serious with that? That he likes
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