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James

Lily stayed the night at my place, but I didn't touch her at all while we were together, including when we were in the same room. I gave her the advice that we should put off getting together until we could verify that she was not carrying a child for another man and that she did not have a child on the way. Because I will strongly encourage her to terminate the pregnancy and have an abortion if she becomes pregnant in the event that she does.

Even though she was in a bad mood, she went ahead and did as I asked even though she was upset.

However, I was in so much pain that I was unable to approach her because it would have been too painful for me to do so. Because of this, I was unable to talk to her. The thought of her having sexual relations with another man was ingrained so deeply in my mind that it was impossible for me to shake it. The reality that this is the situation illustrates how profoundly I feel about her.

After some reflection, I came to the conclusion that the wro