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Hope.

I have not seen Jude in a week which is weird but fine by me he is usually in my face three times a day maybe his father spoke to him after seeing me leave his room, it's Saturday today I am spending the day with my Boyfriend I haven't seen him also in a while we have been texting back forth.The guilt in my heart gripping me by force Tony is a good guy we have been together for years , he's always been supportive and kind to me.

He deserves better than what I had given with a plan in mind I plan a picnic for us, preparing Ham and cheese sandwiches, snacks and soda. I need us to just spend time talk about things hopefully I have courage enough to let him know what really happened with Jude will

He believe me. Mama May and I have already moved most things to our new house I come to the Millers to help her as I have done for years.

Taking the Honda I drive to Tony's place it takes me about thirty minutes to get to his place. When I get there I see his car is not in the driveway I d