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My chest felt a lot heavier than usual as I made my way out of Jaden's house and into the open and further down their pavement and towards my motor bike. I began to take deep breath in a bit to figure out what could be wrong. I knew the sadness of finally deciding to give up on Jaden was going to get to me but I didn't think it was going to restrict my air flow this bad and all of a sudden too.
I climbed on to my bike but got hit by a gigantic wave that almost knocked me off to the floor. I thought about calling Jaden for help but remembered he was wasted and sleeping it off right where I left him a while ago.
Dragging myself back to his house doesn't seem like a good idea either so I pulled out my phone and called the only person I knew would come for me even if I was in the middle of a freaking tsunami.
I managed to climb back down as i dropped to the floor, my back laying flat against the ground, both my hands clutch tightly
Jaden's POV*It was 7:30am when I glance at my watch yet again for the seventh time in a roll. The doctor was only in there for like thirty minutes before he left and Simon and his mom went in to check on him while I stayed back by the hallway, not sure if Ryder wanted to see me.I was afraid my presence by his bedside earlier was what triggered his reaction the first time and can't have him react the same way again. Waiting outside for now seem like the best move until am sure it's totally safe to go in again.I kept fidgeting the whole time. Just pacing around and thinking about all the damn reasons why he wouldn't want to see me.When the door crack open and I saw Mrs. Steward face, I almost ran for it. I asked her if he wanted to see me but she said no, she seem rather in a hurry so she didn't pay much attention to anything I had to say. She simply told me, she was heading home to prepare his meal before she quickly rushed down the
Jaden's POVIs it just me or everyone else only think about sleeping and hiding away when they are sad and depressed, because ever since I got home from the hospital, I have been locked up here in my room just sleeping my sorrow away while shutting the world out like it doesn't exist.What is there to think about even . I just feel this great big void in my life that keeps drilling a really painful hole in my chest over and over again. It's even worst because nothing else seem to make sense any more so I can't even focus on the pain either. I'm just here wishing my thought away. It's like pretty much all the colors in my sky is either grey or plain black. I just feel completely and totally lost. Completely lost in this darkness of my own thought.Ryder hates me and that's fact. He really does and that hurt more than you can even imagine.Groaning out in frustration, i snuggle closer to my pillow and buried my face deep into it, getting all the
*Everything seem to be moving in slower motion as I began to walk towards my team mates with the sole intention of telling them the truth. I rather have all of them hate and judge me for my sexuality and be free than allow myself put up with Tia's manipulation for another day.I know am not perfect. I never said I was perfect because no one is fucking perfect. People just like to hide their flaws and put up a fake appearances to get people approval but that's besides the point am making right now.We all make mistakes and learn from it and I wouldn't call mine a mistake. I fell in love and it doesn't matter who this heart of mine has chosen to love and it's not something to be ashamed of. I admit i was scared of what everyone would think of me but not anymore.The world can judge me if they want but am done judging myself. I'm done listening to the voices that says, I don't fit into their idea of what love is suppose to be or how love is suppose to
*"How long Jaden? Just tell me how long you have been screwing him behind my back" Jasmine more than yelled at me yet again and I had to put a safe distance between us before she tries to hit me again. She looks like she is going to hit me again and I can't promise not to tie her to a chair if she does."Calm the fuck down alright?, it's true Ryder and I have kissed around a few times but we haven't been fucking If that's what you are referring to. I mean, it's true I love him but_""_You love him?" Her voice cut me off mid sentence. "Are you even listening to yourself right now? How can you say, you love him when you know I was the one that liked him first. I mean, everything was going so well between us until you probably seduced him or something and then got him to dump me like i was nothing and now, you stand here to claim to love him and have kissed around a few fucking times?, how long have you been laughing behind my back at my cluelessness" Her li
Ryder's POV*It's really painful how Jaden never ever consider making the right decision when it comes to me or himself because if he is, then his decision won't always be about others. Putting their happiness first, maintaining his perfect image for them, just so they can love and accept him.He'd throw everything good in his life away for their comfort even if it causes him so much pain and discomfort. That's exactly how much he is willing to get hurt for the people who doesn't give a fuck about him, so they can see the perfect boy that's Jaden Cole. The star boy who is the basketball captain. The one who can get any girl with his charming smile. Heck, he even got Tia to show off he is really good at it.Why am I saying all these?,I'm hurt alright. I have been hurt deeply and i'm not talking about the pain in my flesh. I'm talking about the one in my heart. The one caused by a certain boy named Jaden Cole. He is the reason that is making me vent
Ryder's POV*"Oh my gosh Ryder. You won't believe it but dude, you needed to see Jaden's face when he walked up to everyone that day, right after practice and told us the truth. I thought he was joking at first but when I saw how serious he was looking, I just knew, oh I freaking knew right there and than that,dude was serious and even worst, he was totally whipped" Noah narrated between laughs and everyone just nod and burst out laughing as well, causing Jaden to more than growl under his breath.Currently, the scene in my room is not one the doctor or nurses might want to see but am totally grateful for. Everyone from the basketball team that is friends with me, are all cramped up inside my room and taking up all the space.Nathan and Oliver are squeezed into the small sofa by the corner while Jaden sat beside me on the bed. Cooper stood not far from the entrance, as he leaned causally against the wall, while Noah on the other hand, stood i
Ryder's POV*I sat down on the bed with my feet dangling over to the floor. A man dressed in a white lab coat that was obviously my doctor stood before me, with both his brows kneaded deep in concentration as he stared down at the clipboard in his hands, while murmuring incoherent words under his breath.Counting from one to ten in my head, I cleared my throat slightly, gaining his attention at last. Raising a single brow at him, I carefully folded my arms across my chest, careful not to press heavily on the tender scar around there."Am I free to leave or not doctor" I hope he says yes because I need to get out of here before tomorrow. The final tournament is holding tomorrow and I don't want to miss it. I have to be there for my team and a particular golden hair captain of course. I just need to get the doctor's approval and get out of here for good.He stared at me for a split second with twitching eyeballs before nodding at me. "According to t
Jaden's POV*Tonight is the day we all been training our butt off for. Winning tonight game can leave us with a future to look forward to, especially for people like me hoping to get a scholarship to college and loosing would mean looking for another means to survive through college but just like coach Mike said earlier. Loosing tonight game doesn't mean we are failures, it simply means we should put in more work and come back better but I doubt there would be another chance like this one for me.This is my last year of high school and also my only chance to make something out of it. My parent already did their best saving up enough money to carry us through highschool and even though Jasmine doesn't know it yet, we only have enough to send one of us to college and that's why I need this scholarship, that way Jasmine will have enough funds to go through college without stress.I only found out recently and telling her about it won't change anything