A Week Later
' just fucking' that word has been planted in my head since last week and the more it expands the more I feel like I'm gonna die. I don't wanna believe it anyway but when I get angry and something pops on my head whether good or bad it remains printed in it for a long time. arggggghhh. I know this is a lie, Remi loves me, doesn't he okay maybe this loneliness is having an effect on me . it's been hours since Remi's gone to work like 7 hours ago and I've been and still jobless . I do not feel like watching that damn tv or feel like stuffing my face with food . An idea just pop into my head
I ring up Dave and he comes in almost immediately. I tell him to take me to Remi . really like Canada is really really beautiful , a little cold but then I love cold things until I start to cough and stuff and eventually have a cold . The car comes to an halt infront of a very very huge building
" woah " this is rad. like how many stories are in this beautiful baby. it says 'Grey and sons' on top of it in a very huge lettering. I walk inside straight for the receptionist.
" hi good afternoon, how may I help you "" I want to see Remi "
"okay... do you have an appointment? " she says slowly
" I am his girlfriend ". no you're not! that little voice in my head said of course I know that idiot " I need to see him " "uh okay .... I'll just ring him up for you " the look on her face says yay another one yet again" excuse me... drop the call first ... um how many girls come here a lot ... you know "
" like six girls just last week you won't beli-- " ." okay! what floor is he in "
"fiftieth
" good. please do not ring him " I slip her a tip before dashing into the elevator. okay ... so six girls have come-- first I never knew receptionists collect bribe. second Remi needs a new receptionist. third GOD what was I thinking to have come here in the first place. I should have just walked out.
Remi owes me I do not in anyway deprive him of sex. no, even though he now comes home with his shirt dry-cleaned almost everyday, no everyday . like three or four days ago I found a baby napkin in his pocket. but then we are just best friends with benefits right?? huh. the elevator stops.
I step out of it and barge into the only room there like an idiot. I stop in my tracks. why is a baby crawling on the floor and a clearly exhausted Remi on the couch sleeping in a corner of the office. more like a sitting room.
It has everything a tv, couches, well not everything but just ne the necessities. he looks like he's been doing two jobs at the same time. GOD how on Earth does he come home all smiley smiley .
I pick up the baby and almost get knocked out by air like I am choking on it. the baby is a direct carbon copy of Remi like .... I don't know what to say is it the same striking blue eyes , or the black silky hair, cute smile and a dimple??.
The baby giggles and it cling more on to me when I try to put her down. she wraps a hand barely around my neck and place it's head on my chest murmuring some incorehent words. GOD this is the most utmost betrayal ever.
" Elle?? " I did not even notice him waking up
. " you have a baby?? "I choke out a cry" Elle ... I... --- "
" and you did not dim it fit to tell me ?? GOD we are best friends for crying out loud and you're having sex with me ?? you did not trust me enough?? "
" No. Elle I... I -- " he run a hand through his hair in fustration
" do not talk to me I hate you now!! take your baby back " I give the girl back to him but she would not budge, she starts to cry she cling on to me harder .
" she is the reason you come home from work all satisfied and happy right? . do you even care about me? love me? trust me? oh, no I forgot you do not! and don't you dare lay a hand on me or the baby!! "
I clean my tear stained face as I walk out into the elevator .
" bye " the receptionist greet as I walk out.
I get out into the car and before I know it we are at the house. GOD my shirt is as wet as... I've never ever in my life taken care of a baby before like how old is she LORD help me." you hungry?? huh? milk.. yeah ". I grabbed a bottle of milk from the fridge, a cup and a spoon all in one hand. GOD parents are coping.
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Just immediately, as soon as the baby fall asleep on my chest Remi comes in bag in hand, hair disheveled, tie untied. he looks relieved.
" you thought I was going to throw the baby off a cliff?? "
" no, nothing like that. I'm just happy she loves you she does not like people at all "I look away when we make eye contact
" what's her name? "
" Elizabeth, Lizzy for short "
that's my third name. no! who knows if that's her mother's name too " what'd she eat to sleep "." my breast " I lie
" oh, okay "
he doesn't even look bothered at all he just drop his bag and take off his jacket. I make my way to the room gently, lay her there, stay for a while before prying her fingers off of me and walking out.geez I'm as famished as shit who knew taking care of a baby was as exhausting as that. there's food on the table untouched, delivered just now 😋😋😋😍 I grab my portion, large as usual and eat
" hmm " I groan silently. " ugh why does this food have to be so delicious "
" Elle .... we need to talk ". he grabs a seat in front of me when I don't respond " I'm sorry "
" don't talk to me I hate you now "
" you don't hate me you're just angry--- "
" angry?? angry about the part that you did not trust me enough or atall to let me know that one of your baby Mama's pregnant? that you have a child outside?. angry about the part that you have sex with me and doubt me when I give myself to you or angry about the part that you lied to me that I am the first woman you ever had sex with without a condom? --- Remi my whole life I have obeyed you. when you chase guys off me, that I did not get a boyfriend when my friends were having theirs, when they had their first man. but I realize now that you were just keeping me for yourself. Remi I never fucking complained when I see you with those hoes in your bed or around you . yet Remi you see the whole of me inside out I never kept anything from you. but you--- "
I stop yelling when Lizzy start to cry. Sish that gal is loud. I make my way to the sitting room to let him deal with her himself. I am not laying a hand on that thing again.
5 min later
I can't ignore the cries anymore. I stand up and make my way to the room
" Elle .... I think she needs you ". he sounds desperate. Lizzy stop when she sees me. she quiet down entirely when I carry her and she doze off immediately I put her on my chest. okay.... I walk out into the room just opposite the one we sleep in together I lay gently on my back with the baby on my chest maybe I could use some sleep too
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Lizzy giggle as Remi throw her up in the air repeatedly, already dressed in his work clothes so handsome... he literally get away with anything. my eyes feel better well a little. I had cried myself to sleep last night. it's so painful, he knows every damn thing about me. I thought I knew all about him except that he has a freaking real baby and he lied to me.
I was so happy when he told me I was the first girl he had ever had sex with without a condom. sex! I wish we made love cause I love him very much but he doesn't. just looks out for me like a five year old. I am .
It's just that I cannot control my need and want around him. last night had been the only night we did not have sex because we were fighting. the thought still bring tears to my eyes I can't just help it damn him and his handsomeness and his big, big cock and the fucking effect it has on me
I had dry-cleaned Lizzy yesterday clothes so I just wrapped her in a blanket when she fell asleep again after waking me up for food. so I just mashed the pizza left from dinner and fed it to her. now we are on our way to Remi's office to get Lizzy's stuff. food, toys, everything. I never said anything about keeping the baby but since I am always bored at home alone what else am I supposed to do we alight from the car straight into Remi's office . Remi has Dave watch over Lizzy for a while, while we enter the company. turns out Dave loves children and Lizzy likes him too. she was all smiles when Dave carried her outside, baring her gums at him. I love that kid. and I have realized that I have no right whatsoever to be angry at Remi because he is a man and besides we are not even dating so I need to respect his decisions but the issue of trust now I have trust issues. so I am never trusting anybody in my life a
Lizzy and Johnson have been watching TV since morning. watching cartoon and she has been quiet and peaceful since only blabbing and giggling when she gets excited. why did I not think of that before at the house, maybe then I wouldn't have to spend all day house cleaning but then Lizzy isn't a fan of music so what else was I supposed to do. who even hates music... okay maybe my mood swings sometimes. I don't know why but lately my mood swings have just been getting out of hand but not with Lizzy. Everytime I see her that foolishness of anger just dissolves to the ground . Aunt Mary has been out for like an hour or so while Remi's gone to his meeting. only GOD knows if he's gone to another of his baby Mama's. sish I need to take a break from all this shit. I climb off the dinning stool and make my way to the parlour. cartoon i
I enter the house after waving off Cody and after giving him a peck on the cheek. I love that he is tolerant, sweet, nice, and everything. I wonder why he didn't get to come as my best friend. then all my worries would be over. Lizzy and Johnson are watching a late night cartoon movie but they are already dozing off. aunt Mary emerges from the kitchen" did you enjoy yourself?? "" yeah good evening aunt "" so you enjoyed yourself so much you forgot to call me to tell you were going to be back home late "" I'm sorry I forgot my phone home " I lied" oh really? and Natalie didn't have a phone you could use ? "" aunt! I said I'm sorry " I whine walking over to where she's standing, hugging her. aunt takes hugging seriously" okay. but next time you call me okay? "" k ". I rolled my eyes " um.. aunt Natalie is coming over to pick me up tomorrow is that okay ? "" su
" it's so annoying " I whine" Elle she's just a baby "" yeah an annoying baby "" Elle! "" it's just that I take care of that girl 24/7 and I deserve to be called mama "" look she's eventually going to call you mama "" I'm going to keep quiet now " I said after a while. we're outside her door" least I forget the boys decided to join us "" so they invited themselves uh ? "" yep it's so gonna be fun. we're gonna play truth or dare. dirty "" I like it "I can't blame her for not informing me earlier I've been boring her on why Lizzy wouldn't call me mama. and to be frank she's a very good listener. Aria wouldn't even let me finish. she'll just tell me to let it go just like that. straight . I'm never leaving this place. we entered the house and there are all the boys and a girl in the kitchen eating snacks 
" no water " Natalie says also laughing.everyone was also laughing. Cody's face is red even burning from afar " please let him i think he's going to pass out anytime from now " I plead on his behalf" fine ". Natalie say and I go to the kitchen to help him" here " I sau grabbing a loaf of bread from the counter giving it to him " I heard bread helps neutralizes the em... stuff "he eats up half way not stopping at all. I smile. I fill in water into a cup and give it to him. he gulps it down before letting himself calm down" thanks "" you might also want to brush your teeth in case it still burns that also helps too "" I'm okay thank you "when we walk back to the sitting room Matt beats Cody on his back" take heart bro "its my turn woooo. I pick up a card after much hesitation. my heart skips a bea
One hour laterThe game went on like that, funny where Matt had to eventually run naked down the stairs to borrow a pair of hose from a neighbor down the stairs and even funnier when Cody had to lap dance on Natalie.Gross when Brianna had to suck Derek's dick. She's always had the most stupidest dares ever and she did it. Derek didn't even come. I wonder whyWhich on Earth would be given a free blow job and not come. Heart warming when Natalie had to say a message to the person she hates the most which was obviously CodyAnd more more funnier when everyone threw whatever they wanted to at me according to the dare.Natalie threw hot sauce, cooked macaroni. I hate that girl. Cody poured water on me, making me soak all over.So I had to cross my hands all over my chest the entire time. Someone even threw ice cream on me. Such an idiotic person.
" Then waht am I going to wear? "" Wear this " he shove his cloth to me -- out of choice- just kidding, I collect the cloth" Thanks " I smile at him before opening the door and stepping back into the bathroom.I shove the cloth against my nose, inhaling all the manly scent .geez .I quickly put it on to avoid suspicion. Men can be.... Well a lot of things.I get out of the bathroom out to the sitting room. Everybody is sitting on the chair separately with blanket on their bodies.Natalie and Matt are sitting to get her all lovey doving themselves cause Natalie is resting on Matt's shoulder and Matt is allowing itI'm sure Matt's holding her under the blanket or each other. Geez what's my business.But then I'm thinking, I should be a matchmaker. I already matched two people together now. Probably I should match Cody and Derek together.😁😁😁😁 That is stupid. I smile t my self hoping into
Inno time we get to my house. Cody's really fun true, it's like his duty to make me happy all day. I wave him off with a thank you and open the door. " Elle? " Cody call and I turn with a hmm. In one swift fast motion, his mouth is covered in mine so quickly. He press me against the door keeping his distance . Caught up, partly I encircle his neck with my arms, pushing my fingers into his hair. He leans in closer, that our bodies are touching not even a piece of paper can be wedged in between us. So he wanted me accept him. Remi wouldn't even care if I idid or not. Here is one gentleman. One of his hand cup my neck and the other my waist. I can feel his enormous hard on pressing against ma belly. But he's not left out. I'm raging horny. We let go to gasp for air, our faces inches apart.