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Chapter 58
I watched Zee, taking in her facial expression. There was no hint of amusement, this sounded serious, as in the serious that I was not ready to follow through. I was scared of what she would say. I wanted to avoid any talk of anything negative or bad right now, I was not ready for it. I had to decline her offer, not because I hated or disliked talking to Zee. It was because I had a feeling, than negative nagging feeling that I always felt when I knew that I was going to be roped into a conversation or a talk that would involve me opening out, and pouring out my emotions. I did not want that. "Zee, I do not want any of that, not right now at least. Please." I was trying to walk away, when she quickly grabbed my arm, stopping me from advancing in anything, like walking away from her. But I felt there was a deeper reason, like me avoiding any talk of anything personal.
"No, Alexis. Please. We need to talk about this. You can not run or escape from this."
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"I do not know what you want me to say Zee." But I knew exactly what she wanted me to say and I knew exactly what I wanted to say. I wanted to say something, anything that had some type of substance. I wanted to say something that represented how I felt inside. I mean I knew what she wanted, but I was not sure if exactly that, that I could give it to her. I was still conflicted as to how and why I did that. I was in such a trance like state that it did not even cross my life who or what that I would be living behind. But regardless, what was done was done. Now all I could do was fathom how and if that gun contained the real bullets, then what? What would happen then? And what would I do then? I would have left everyone and everything I love, I would have left all of them behind. Godness, I can not even think about something like that, it was almost too much and too hard to bear."I know that you know what you want to say, Alexis. I know how you feel. Truly, I do. But if
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I could tell undoubtedly and undeniably there was a lingering side to her story. And I would be lying if I said that I was not desperate to know more about it. "I have not told you this," Zee continued with her head hanging low. It then occurred to me that whatever the SIM took from her also, that it must have been hard for her too. As in really hard, because I have never seen her as sad as this, ever before. Except obviously with Jordon. But, no matter how we or she felt about him. About Jordon, there was no lie that Jordon was a traitor, he may not have deserved to die. And that image of him dying would always haunt me. I mean it always did, it would come consistently like clockwork in my dreams. But right now, I had to push myself back on to the line of being able to comfort her, comfort Zee. She needed it. I placed a gentle hand on hers and squeezed. I could tell that gave her the ample strength that she needed to push on, she needed this as much as anything else. "But, when we
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I saw a break in what she was about to say, and I took that as an opportunity to ask this question. "Zee. Would you say that you loved him?"She looked at me, peering in to my eyes as if there was nothing else that she could do. "Love is complicated, Alexis. It is not as easy and clean cut as you think or believe it is. There are many things that you have to take account of. It is not that straightforward."I could tell that she was trying to skirt around the question and the topic, there was never a proper time that I thought that if someone did not love someone then it would not have been clear. I knew for a fact, that she loved him, and I knew for a fact that it was clear. She did not have to tell me, I knew it already. "I do not think it is that complicated Zee. It is either you loved him or not.""So what if I did? Would that change anything? Will my whole life be destroyed and altered and turned around because I love him.""What? No, that is not wha
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My mind flashed back to me and Zee. In that hotel room, wrapped and covered in each other's arms, as I gave her encouragement that I knew at that time, more than anything that she needed. I guess I needed to tap into that side again, that side that was caring, intuitive and compassionate. She has been here for me, for as long as I could even begin to remember. She needed me, now. More than ever. "Zee. Zee. Look at me." But her eyes still remained glued to her hands. Slowly and gently, I took her hand apart, and guided it towards me, so that she would have no choice but to be forced to look at my face. As her eyes leveled upwards to my own, I smiled gently at her. "That is better, now I can see your beautiful, smiling face. Zee, you need to understand something, it is not always that you can have been this brave, confident, strong, independent woman that I know that you are. You need to have break downs, like me. Like I have all the time." I smiled jokingly at her, which she gave bac
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I mirrored back what he said. I stopped and spun him around, so that he was facing me. Isaiah's smiling face peered back up at mine. "Your finance. Fully and wholly yours, Isaiah. Always and forever. And there is nothing and nobody that could change that." Before I could get another sound or word in, he dragged me down to his level, putting me in his lap, and trapping my lips with his. As he hands trailed down and through my waist, and my entire body. It felt like I was on fire, his touch and everything about him invoked and lit something in me that I could not swallow down, I leaned closer in him, breathing him in, until he was all I could sense and feel. Before he could pull away again, I dragged him down one. Deepening the kiss even further. "Alexis." My name came out as more of a moan than anything else, and I pulled him further in. Hearing my name in his name drove me haywire. It made me think and feel things that I knew were not appropriate to even say out loud. As muc
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So we made our way to the table and sat down at our individual places, still wrapped up in the aura and air of ultimate freedom, peace, and happiness. There was never a moment that passed that made me believed that in all of everything that there was never a time for me and Isiaih, there was never a time that the both of us did not want each others' presence. The aroma from the food waft and the scent resided in my senses. Godness, I forgot how well that Zee could cook. Before Isaiah could say anything else, I already had a fork that was suspended in the air with rounds of spaghetti on it. The aim was to head into my mouth, but before I could fully slide it in, I looked up, only to see Isaiah staring back at me with an amused expression on his face, looking down at the feed of pasta in my hand. I laughed, placing the fork down, and looked back up at him. "What?"Still smiling, he shrugged. "Please, no, by all means, eat. I know how hungry you must be." We shared a knowing loo
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I took a deep exhale out, releasing all the pent up emotions that I seemed to be harboring nad storing deep within me. I had to tell him, I knew that. And I was going to, I was going to tell him. I gave him a small smile. "Isaiah, you know how much I love you, right? And you know how much I care about you, and I want you always, right by my side without fail-"Abruptly, he stopped my ranting, giving me a small brief smile. "I know." He grabbed my hand, and squeezed it tighter. "I know, Alexis. Please let me in, tell me everything. I want you to open up."I nodded, gifting him another small smile. "It is not very different to things encompassing and surrounding that, you know. I wanted you more than I wanted anyone else, there was never a situation or issue that I have ever had, that you were not there, guiding me through, helping me and being there for me. And without that, without you, and without your support it was hard to even function. I could not separate my feel
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His eyes glazed a darker haze, as I could see clearly almost as clear as the bright blue sky during a warm, sunny day, I could see that he wanted me. As in he wanted every part of me, I could see the whole thing behind his eyes, and it made me feel as if he needed more, more than anything. And I would be lying if I said that I did not need him as well, I needed him more than I could even manage to say, I needed him as much as I could fathom to say. It was time, I was ready. I was ready to take that deep plunge. But behind all that hazy darkness, there was some doubt still lingering behind it, I mean it was soft, hazy but it was there. It was there, I knew it was, and I needed to reassure him, I needed to reassure him that aside of everything that he was the one, that he was the one that I wanted.So this was the only thing that I knew that I had to do, I held his face, with both hands clasped around his face. I was confident in it, I mean, I had to be, if I was not, eve
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