BivianneWhat I hated about people was when they did something bad, but they wouldn't do anything to correct them. Or at least, apologize.It's not that difficult to get what I want from Yeshua. We're best friends. She should know me by now. I can get angry but I don't know how to hold grudges especially with people I value.But I'm not one to take this lightly. After all, his future depends on it. No take-backs. It cannot be changed.But after thinking about it, I realized that he only did that for me. Which is, I still don't really agree to this day no matter what explanation he makes.My mom's anger will be temporary. He will hurt me if I don't become valedictorian but that will be gone too. She'll just probably be stricter afterwards. But it won't affect my future. I just have to work harder for my dreams.I just sighed. Knowing Yeshua, she's probably sulking right now. He must be feeling what I said again. She likes that. He doesn't care what others say, but it's a different stor
BivianneOxem and I's relationship became a secret. At least from mom and the people who can tell her. We became careful around our teachers as well, especially since almost all of them are acquaintances of mom.Apart from his cousins, only our classmates know. It's not like they really care about what's happening with our lives. And I know they have no intention of telling mom, unless they know her personally.Anyway, our situation is not that difficult especially since Mang Kiko is our accomplice. He promised me not to tell mom about our relationship. But in exchange for that, we need to go out with Yeshua. Because somehow, he doesn't want to lie to mom. He needs to tell her half the truth.Yeshua agreed to such a set up especially whenever Oxem and I wanted to eat outside. But that's not why we're okay. We haven't talked about what happened yet. Whenever the three of us are together, we only talk to Oxem.I feel bad for Oxem. I know he wants to congratulate us both but he can't do
BivianneI sighed as I stared at Oxem's photos with his cousins at the beach. Like I said, it looks like he's really enjoying it there for me. Little by little he sends pictures.Even the food they eat is brought by him. Suddenly my stomach churned especially when I saw different seafoods. I was hungry for mussels and crabs.Wish you were here.My heart softened after reading the message from Oxem. I also wish I'm with him. I look forward to all our adventures. It's a beach vacation I want to do with him.You know that you sounded cliche, right?I know. Sometimes I'm just surprised by how cliche and old fashioned I am.I smiled. Don't worry. I still love you even though you're old fashioned.He didn't reply right away so I went back to writing lessons. Maybe they were still having fun there so I thought he would be able to answer later.You realized that you just confessed to me again, right? And really in the text?I frowned. You already know that. Why are you still surprised?I di
BivianneMonths went by like a blur. We are back to school again. Yeshua and I had the opportunity to tour our new school for the next four years. And luckily, we're classmates. I have nothing to lose from his hyper-an.But I guess it's also okay. At least, I already knew someone on the first day of class. But it will also mean that my potential rival will be in the same class with me. Not that she cares about that. And when we were young, we were really rivals."Are you going somewhere else?" she asked."No more. Are you hungry? We haven't had lunch yet.""Because I was supposed to go somewhere. If you're hungry, you can have lunch first.""It's okay. Are you long?”He shook his head. "I'm just for a moment. I'll sign up in the futsal team. Do you want it too?”I glared at him. "Here you go again.""What?" He laughed softly. “I'm asking a genuine question. No coercion. I just remembered how much fun you had the last time we played. I just thought I could finally convince you.""Actua
BivianneAs I expected, both Oxem and I were busy at school. We rarely see each other but we have video calls every night. We often say nothing to each other. We just had our phones on while we were doing something.But even if I'm busy, I can do it. The tasks are not that heavy, especially because we are only first years. Yeshua and I always went to school together. Every time I have lunch and even every time I study in the library.Just like today where I'm reading for our subject later. That's all, Yeshua has a manga and that's what he's reading. As far as I remember, it's a Japanese comics. Because he likes watching anime."Yesh," I called him."Hmm?" He did not take his eyes off what he was reading."I want to join your team."“Okay.”It was a few seconds before he looked at me warningly. He even slightly hit the reading on the table so it made a noise. Some students looked at me but immediately apologized."Did I hear correctly? Will you join? You? In futsal?”I'm just tired. "Y
BivianneToday's our first official match. Since he is only an intrams, the only one we can compete with is the other department. This morning, our first team is against educ. Later in the afternoon it was against engineering.We were just watching the previous game. We are already dressed and just waiting for it to be over. When it was almost over, the coach called us to warm up. We only kick the ball on one side because of the crowd.After we finished warming up, I was surprised when someone covered my eyes. I immediately grabbed the hand that covered me and smiled."Oxem, come on. If I didn't know your hand, I might have elbowed you earlier."He laughed softly before removing his hands. “Good then. If someone else covers your eyes, kick them immediately."I hugged him. "What about your morning? Don't you have school?""It's also intrams at our school so there are no classes. They said we will just support our classmates who will play.""Hey, why are you here? Are you in my class?”
BivianneIntramurals are only one week. That's why the days go by so quickly. Our department is one of the ones that entered the semi-finals against the IT department. Today is the last day of intramurals, so the finals will be held tomorrow afternoon.Whoever wins today will be the opponent of the CSER department or the College of Sports, Exercise and Recreation.Honestly, I don't expect us to win against CSER later. The only thing that motivates me right now is that somehow, we have a chance to be 2nd place. It's not bad anymore.But we've seen IT play before and they're really good too. They are the ones who made everything difficult at CSER in the past few days. And we will surely have a hard time too."Can Oxem come?" Yeshua asked."He said he's going to the finals later," I answered. "Today is the finals of his classmates so he is there to support."He gasped. "He supported the others but he didn't go to you who he was courting.""Nevermind. We will win today so he can watch lat
"I shouldn’t have hoped too much. If I didn’t do that, I wouldn’t be this disappointed now. If I didn’t expect earlier, I wouldn’t be this down now.I tried convincing myself that everything's okay. Remember what Oxem said? This is my dream. It has nothing to do with my studies, so I shouldn’t be afraid. But those words from mom earlier just covered that up.She doesn’t want a half-baked result, let alone a failing outcome. We lost to CSER. There’s no retaking it. I’m still a loser. I’ll surely be punished when she finds out. And she might find out soon.“Hey.” Yeshua and Oxem approached me immediately after the game. They both looked concerned. Even though Yeshua was exhausted, she managed to check on me.Actually, we’re all exhausted. We gave our all. I almost stumbled chasing the ball earlier. But all that was a waste of effort. We didn’t even manage to take the lead. That’s how strong the opponent is. Or this is how weak our team is.“I’m okay,” I convinced them. “I just need some