I don't like being told what to do.
Bradley had told me the truth, but I didn't listen, just because I didn't like hearing the truth. As bitter as his words were, it was also the truth. Shame washes over me like a wave and I keep asking the goddess for forgiveness.
I marked my mate last night. You can see the mark on her neck. It's scary, what I have done, and despite the shame and guilt I felt for my actions, there was also this feeling of happiness knowing that I have a claim on her.
She was upset when she found out, and Lyles was forced to cheer her up.
Nothing was hidden under the sun anymore. She knows everything, knows us for who we truly her, hates us and it is all my fault.
But that isn't the reigning news in the rumour mill. Rumour has it that Alpha Davidson had scragged his mate just to be with me. They said she was tortured before death, but I don't believe it. That is why I am dressing up to confirm the truth myself.
A knock is heard on the door. I zip up before saying, "Yes, come in".
It's Lyles. 'You shouldn't be with Davidson now that he is not stable. I saw her body myself".
"I have known Davidson for years now and I know he is stable enough not to hurt me. You? Not so much."
"Crinka, I am serious. What you really should be doing right now is explaining to the pack that mark on her neck".
"I marked my mate. Is that a problem? What is wrong with you Lyles? What is wrong with everybody? I can fuck their opinions but you Lyles? Don't you want to see me happy?"
"I want you to be happy Crinka, but not in this manner".
'Then in what manner Lyles? In what manner? How is marking my mate a crime? I have tried my best for the pack yet nobody, not even a single soul, wants to try their best for me. Why? Where did I go wrong Lyles? Where?"
"Marking her. You shouldn't have marked her Crinka. The female wanted nothing to do with you yet you forcefully claimed her as yours. Look, I am done cleaning your sorry arse. the sooner you start owning up to your responsibilities the better for you. Have a nice day. Goodbye."
I want to cry. I didn't sign up for any of this. Why did the goddess punish me with a female? I only wanted a male who would love me as much as I would love him, but instead of a loving male, I get a female who wants nothing to do with me. Maybe mates are not for me. This is my fate, and I will accept it, no matter the pain it is putting me through.
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Davidson's pack is quiet when I arrive and I figure they are mourning Luna's death. If what I am hearing is true, then David would be forced to step down and let someone else take over.
The packed house is large, hosting about five hundred wolves. Davidson was doing a great job taking care of these wolves.
I pass by a group of old women on my way to David's chambers. One stopped me. A human female. She was weeping while the rest were wailing.
"She was pregnant my lady, She was pregnant".
It was a shame really, but what has happened has happened, nothing can change it. I felt sorry for the deceased but more sorry for Davidson. Losing a mate would change everything for him. I offer no words of comfort to the crying woman, before leaving for his chambers.
"You shouldn't be here".
"That's a little too late isn't it?"
Her body is in a corner of the room. Her neck is at an awkward angle. Her intestines are put on display. The placenta is the only thing connecting her and her baby. The umbilical cord is broken in two.
I gasp. "David, what have you done?"
"The right thing?"
'How can killing be the right thing? The right thing would have been to sort out your differences not kill her".
"The baby is not even mine". He says coolly.
"Still. You shouldn't have done this David. You could have at least waited for the baby to be born to confirm the paternity".
"She burnt my mark Cersei. She doesn't even want anything to do with me. Any man would have done to her what I did."
"Any man? Can you hear yourself, David? Only monsters do something like this. This is wrong."
"I did nothing wrong my love. I only wanted us to be together".
"I have a mate David, I can't be with you".
I am crying now. David encases me in his bloody arms and tries to wipe my tears. I stop him.
"Leave him and be with me. We can leave from here, just the two of us".
He doesn't understand the gravity of what he has just done, or maybe he doesn't want to. Either way, this was the aftereffect of his mate's death on him. Loss of sanity.
"David, why can't you understand? You just killed your mate. You are a murderer David, I can't run away with a murderer."
He releases me.
"Don't you love me anymore Cersei? I never touched her for once Cersei. The only thing we shared was a slippery kiss. That was all I swear".
Only David would think a kiss is slippery.
"I love you David. I still do but...".
"Then we don't have a problem".
I wish he would just understand. Why is he refusing to? Why?"
'We don't exist anymore David. We died the day she died. Goodbye David. Take care of yourself".
I shouldn't have left him alone, but I can't let my feelings for the bastard override my decisions. My best friend is gone and I know he is never coming back.
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It has been three weeks since David stepped down forcefully and six weeks since I have held the Icelander hostage. Each day doesn't pass where Lyles is pestering me to let him go.
So I decided to visit the devil himself.
I don't like what I find when I am in his cell.
An unchained and naked Icelander is massaging Sarai's breasts. She releases a breathy moan and I start to cry.
'How could you?" I remove my shoe and throw it at her. She ducks and steps away from him.
"For your information, I have no interest in you. In the past two weeks I have been here, your men didn't hesitate to please me. Your prisoner has just been a bonus".
I cry harder, taking off the other shoe, but it hits the Icelander instead. He doesn't flinch. I lunge. Sarai ducks out of the way.
I start hitting him. Blows after blows kick after kick. He is bleeding and so am I.
"Crinka stop!".
I am in my world, so I don't stop. Lyles holds my arms and I scream, "Let me go. Let go of me!".
I am held down by Lukas and Leo is driving Sarai out of the cell. They don't ask questions. Questions don't need to be asked.
Lyles descends on the goddamned Icelander and I end up being the one begging him to stop.
"Lyles, stop!".
Lyles doesn't listen to me, giving more damage to the Icelander than I had done.
What Lyles doesn't know is, each time he hurts this rogue, he is hurting me in return.
My body aches all over and I am being released. I clutch my chest in pain. I shouldn't be hurting, but having his scent on me, within me, made his pain my pain and his blows my blows.
"Lyles," My voice is a broken whisper. "Please stop".
He stops. Everybody is breathing hard but his are laboured. His wounds have reopened and he is bleeding like there is no tomorrow.
"Are you okay?", Lyles asks me, but I don't answer him. My gaze is on the Icelander.
"Fuck shit. I didn't even know she was your mate".
"How did he end up unchained?" I ask Leo before the bastard starts laughing.
"So what's it like Alpha? To have a female as your mate?"
He is mocking me. He is so mocking me.
"Leave us". My voice is demanding.
"Crinka, you can't be serious. This guy is mentally unstable" Leo and Lukas have left but an unwilling Lyles still stands. "Lyles, I will handle this okay? Just go".
"If you need me, Scream". Lyles yells
"She won't be needing you bastard", the prisoner snarls before leaving. I stand up.
"You knew she was my mate didn't you?"
"If I did, it doesn't matter. I have something you don't have and can never have".
"What is that?"
"A dick". To prove his point, he presses his front against my back. His dick pokes me in the back.
"By the way, the name is Sia".
My mind is blank, my body is cold and my heart is broken. I did what I thought was right and let her go. Lyles has left the pack, and whatever Bradley said made no sense to me.Whatever he says or do can't mend my broken heart.She burnt my mark, I broke the bond and I am the only one suffering, while she gets to live a fulfilled life.And me in my utmost stupidity violates the laws of the land by letting a prisoner go without justice being served.I let Sia go. There was no use keeping him here, and the worst thing? The bastard refused to leave, taking care of the pack that I had abandoned.If not for Bradley and his words of wisdom, I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from stepping down.The pack has welcomed Sia warmly and I hae a feeling it is because he is an Icelander.'Nothing is going to make her come back. So the sooner you get up and start acting like an alpha, the better for you and the pack".I sniff. "What are you still doing in my pack? Shouldn't you have left like a
"It was Davidson right?""The bite wasn't too deep. Your skin is a little burnt, by tomorrow you will be fine"."It was Davidson right?" I ask again, reaching up to feel my bandaged neck. I don't remember much after I was bitten, but I know I have been in pain since the incident. Something tells me it is because Sia has already marked me with his stuff, but Lyles says it is because his bite was venomous."Tell me something Crinka, you have been with him for years. You saw the bite yourself. Does his mark look like this?""I don't know". I say ashamed. "He has never really bitten me before. An attempt, but nothing more than that"."Exactly. So let's just assume it was not Davidson".I will ask Sia instead since Lyles is of no help. "Since you won't admit it was Davidson, tell me Lyles, who saved me?""Ask border patrol. How does it feel letting your pack members see you naked?"."Shut up," I say slapping his arm. I am surprised I can even do that. "That sounds so wrong coming out of you
"Do you have any idea what you have just done?" he yells, before thrusting a finger to Bradley. "And you! How could you let her accept it? I thought you were smarter than this Bradley, I didn't know you were just as dumb"."I just had ear surgery Lyles, all this yelling is making me sick".We are in the gym, and by we, I mean me, Bradley, Leo's mate, Lyles, Lukas and Sia who just walked in. Apparently, everybody is getting their ears bitten off by Lyles. His yelling these days is getting out of hand, and I think it is something serious. I'd talk to him about it, maybe after the challenge, that is if I am still alive, not that I am planning on dying or anything, but the chances of me walking out of there alive is slim, given my current condition which I didn't give a second thought when I accepted the challenge."Give the poor guy a break Lyles. He is just a child".It is too late to tell Sia to stop talking. He talks fast when he wants to, and slow when he is mocking you. And he just m
Sleepy Joe was alpha, no scratch that,Sleepy Joe is alpha.Lyles couldn't believe it himself, but it was true. His father IS now alpha.Any well behaved son would be happy, proud even, but not Lyles. His father didn't deserve to be alpha, but winning the challenge, and killing his own niece proved otherwise. The pack wasn't interested in burying Crinka, no their self interest was celebrating their new alpha., The prisoner that Crinka had imprisoned were released, and Sleepy Joe demanded a new and better clubhouse. Was sure to cost a fortune, but Lyles knew, it wasn't going to matter, given his father was now alpha. It was really a great day for the pack, but not for Lyles. He had called the pack doctors in hopes of bringing her back, but none showed up. They were probably enjoying themselves at Sleepy Joe's coronation.So Lyles had done what he could. He removed up to five bullets, and had just pulled out the sixth one. He had cleaned her up and bandaged her wounds. She was as lifele
"Are you ever going to talk about us?"Lyles question is answered with foreboding silence and he wished he hadn't come here in the first place, but he needed to know where he stood with his mate. Now, he wonders if this was how Crinka felt with her mate."Us? I really don't know what you are talking about. To think you would disturb my breakfast to tell me something I know nothing about"."Your silence will send me to the grave Anita, all I need is an answer""And I said no. Is it so hard for you to comprehend Lyles? Things would have been easier if you didn't have to share me with Leo. Things would have been better if I met you first but I didn't"."Leo is dead Anita. Is this what you want? To be alone all your life?. If you are so hellbent on not having my mark on your shoulder, just give me ason and I will never bother you again""What do you think I am Lyles? A baby makin machine? Please I didn't let you in to get insulted. If you have nothing better to say please leave"."Anita,
"So when are we going to let your father know that I am alive?""When you promise me that you won't try anything stupid when he learns the truth"."I don't make promises I can't keep Lyles. You should know me by now"."It's important I know Crinka. My father being alpha would surely make him stronger than you".I scowled. Don't I know it. "Fine I promise. But this doesn't mean I won't defend myself if it comes to that"."Now that we have come to an agreement, follow me".With heavy reluctance, I follow Lyles out of the recovery room. "I am at a loss at what to do with our newest omega. Any suggestions Nidea?"The need to hit him with my fist is so great that I would have done it if Lyles hadn't stopped me with his eyes. I can't break my promise no matter how tempted I am.I hate Lyles mother even now that she's the Alpha Female. From what I had known, she was the reason my mother killed herself. When Joe goes down, I'll make sure his wife goes down with him. "I don't know about you
"You begged me to find a way to break the bond. I did, but with the way that you are acting, it doesn't seem like you want out".I do, but I got in this manner. My eyes flicker from the knife Sia was offering me, to her unconscious body. I couldn't do what he w as asking me to do. Her life isn't worth my freedom."I can't kill my mate Sia.", I said finally, letting my arms drop at my sides. "There has to be another way"."This is the only way!", he yelled in frustration, grabbing my shoulders. "Kill her Crinka, it's not too hard not with the amount of people you have killed in a lifetime. Kill her and be free".It was hard. If Sarah died by my own hands, a part of me would die with her."Why does my mate have to die for the bond to be broken? Why can't yours be sacrificed for the bond?"."It was your word against mine Crinka,. Bonding with me disturbed you greatly and it didn't bother me. It's only fair that the sacrifice comes from your part. Here, take this, kill her and be free."
"So did you steal the cabin just as you stole the truck?"."You're just full of so much questions today"."I don't remember asking so much questions"."So asking about my past doesn't pose as a question?"."It was just one question Sia, what the fuck is wrong with you?"."Nothing. Stop being a nosy bitch Crinka and get out of the fucking truck".Damn. I didn't mean to rile him up, but some things just can't be helped. The cabin is small and fairly okay. The kitchen was small, and I am surprised to see a mini fridge in here. Only one couch and a table makes up the living room. There's a bed, a chest of drawers and a small wardrobe. It had a homey feeling and I have a feeling someone has lived here before. I hoped the small fridge was loaded. I couldn't shift with this collar on me and Sia doesn't trust me enough to take it off."I'd ask again. Did you steal the cabin?"."No. Anita and I built this thing a few years back. It's not the best thing out there, but we loved it and that's all