The house is chaotic, and it seems like nobody lives there. I'm always not around, only gone home to sleep, then rise again to leave.
Yes, my unit is here in Makati, where I have stayed for almost three years since I graduated in the Business Management course.We are in the industry of clothing and manufacturing. I desperately wanted to live independently and separate from my parents, so at 20, I worked hard to get away from them. At first, they were against it, but they couldn't control me either.It's challenging to stay with them, having big expectations from me, especially since I'm their only child. Wanting me to manage our business, get married on time, and give them grandchildren. Unfortunately, I can't provide it, being a lesbian and still in the closet. When I was young, there was something strange about me. I'm more okay with women than men and even end up in a fight when talking to them.I disregarded the fact until I met Billy in high school and felt love at first sight. Her beauty blew me away at the beginning of the class. She was the talk of the campus for being gorgeous. We were seatmates, then soon became close as I always helped her in some of our academics.We began to hang out most frequently. Despite being often scolded and summoned to the principal's office, knowing all Billy's nonsense, she still skips classes to go with her boyfriend.One time, I caught them in the act in the old stock room of our school. Billy moaned, grinding on top of her man, fully naked. Since then, I've struggled, dealing with my first heartache and being forced to handle it on my own, trapped in one-sided love.Of all the people, she's the only one who knows me and frees me to move when I'm with her.I still remember just the two of us in her room after doing our homework as she suddenly kissed me out of nowhere. That was my first. Then, afterward, she became aggressive when my true feelings were being unleashed by uncontrolled lust and flirting, but only for having fun. Billy is ready for everything, experimenting with things, even emotions. I can't count how many times we had sex.I'm always there to support her. Every time she's resentful, we end up omnipresent, going on road trips, out of town, skipping pressures in studying. That way, she could forget her problems. Billy grew up in the care of her grandfather. They have good business, so their lifestyle is pretty much stable.We are more than friends but not into a relationship, with no commitment like other normal couples. My world revolves around her, feeling nothing without her. Billy is idle to do anything she wants without my consent, but whenever things get worse, she'll come here in the condo, get drunk, cry all night, and then, as usual, something between us might happen.According to that kind of setup, despite being hurt, perhaps because I love her, even if she doesn't love me back the way I used to. We randomly had sex, especially when she recently separated from her boyfriend, was hurt, and wasn't okay.Sex became her escape, too, and her struggles were so unique on my part because I could be with her sometimes.[Ally Point of View]Today is shady, like Dad and I are arguing again. Since Mom died, we hadn't gotten along, and it got worse when my older brother followed.Not because he's my Dad, he can decide for me and my future. How Am I supposed to marry a person I don't even know? After my brother died, I felt like all the responsibility for the company was on my shoulders."That's my final decision, Ally," Dad says hesitantly.In a rage, I grabbed my bag and car key as I left and went to the bar, hoping to ease the pain. I was wearing my usual outfit, a fitted shirt and jeans, with my sneakers as my hair-free.[Hannah's Point of View]My condo is not huge but beautiful, and it is nice when cleaned. There is a living room, kitchen, and dining. This spot on the balcony where you can see the alluring view of Makati. I drink alone or with Billy, smoke, and even get sex on the area. It serves as her 2nd home.She barely stays in her house and mostly spends time here when being torn apart like shit.I watched vlogs in my free time and spent my day here in the house, designing a new dress style and cooking new dishes gathered from the internet rather than roaming around.I haven't had a boyfriend since birth, though many want to court. They were busted immediately, and even just planning to court was already rejected.I do find men attractive; I am just not attracted to them. I have male friends, but only a few, and they are often gay. I'm not ugly nor super pretty either, but I have appeal, am witty, have a sense of humor, and am not only beautiful, being lesbian but wearing skirts, shorts, and daring clothes, and I'm still a virgin, take note with men, not on women.I tried to reach out to Billy, but she's not answering my calls. We have planned today."Hannah, I'm so sorry, but I can't make it tonight. I promise I will make it up to you next time. An emergency came up suddenly." that's what she sent me.I knew she wouldn't come. She should have just told the truth that she was somewhere with her boyfriend rather than making an excuse.That's better than expecting her to show up. It's a good thing I haven't cooked yet, or it will spoil and be thrown in the garbage as she does to me."You should have told me earlier, Billy. How irresponsible you are. You always do this shit whenever you like. You shouldn't promise if you didn't do it either." I throw my phone on the bed as I send it to her. My cheek is reddish as turmoil up."Hannah, try to be considerate. I told you something came up," she chatted. I pouted, teary eyes as my plan got ruined, devastated."You are always like that. Better not to promise anything," I chat with an angry emoji."Whatever you say, Hannah, grow up," she chatted with cry emoji.We promised to celebrate our friendship anniversary, yet this will be the outcome, making me feel bad.Instead of sulking alone, I'd better go out and have a drink, wearing one of my designed t-shirts with crazy love on it printed paired with a maroon skirt and black doll shoes without socks. I put light makeup on my face to hide my upset while my hair was tied up, looking strong, then slumped the door as I went out.Yesterday was the most embarrassing moment of my life. I was so drunk that it would happen in my 23 years of existence, swearing to God as I promised not to let that occur again. I will no longer get groggy and drink alone just because of Billy. From this time forward, being a weak human being will eliminate my personality.It's eight pm already. I just finished my dinner, watching N*****x here in the living room. It's a common pastime aside from doing my designs. The air outside the balcony is excellent, and I feel the sadness of being alone without understanding why. I almost have everything—good work, a house, and a career, but I still long for something. I get everything I want. Eat whatever I love, and have a good life. Even though I don't have siblings, I enjoyed my youth as I grew up in my parent's care.I was about to sleep, but notifications popped up on my phone's screen. No one knew my number aside from Billy and intimate friends. I look at it instantly with curiosity, "
"Good morning, ma'am," Natalie greeted me as I entered the lobby—the receptionist who's always kind and has feelings for me. She is gorgeous, kind, and sweet. I met her once during a company outing. I still remember her wearing a swimsuit that showed her excellent body shape and beautiful and innocent face. Yet, I can't imagine myself falling despite her attention implying to me. I was so fucking blinded, loving my best friend, and could no longer see other beauties around me. ~~~ I was busy analyzing the documents for the new branch to be opened in my office. Someone's knocking on my door with an urgent. Today, I never thought it would happen, doubting it like it was just kind of a prank. My gaze turned to my secretary when she entered as I was holding papers."I'm so sorry for the disturbance, Ms. Hannah, but someone in the lobby is looking for you, compelling." it seemed serious as she stated it. Anna is my secretary who handles my schedules and sometimes does client transact
I won't disagree that Ally was pretty, but nothing changes that I don't like her that much, knowing she has something up to with my Dad. It was already ten pm, and I went to my parent's house full of questions playing in my mind. What the hell is going on? Is there something I don't know? Who is that girl, and why does she know my father? There's this kind of mixed emotions inside of me. I hope what I'm thinking is wrong. Mom won't take it anymore. I'm driving to Batangas to confront my father about what the heck is happening. Is that girl her mistress 'daughter, or maybe his slut mistress itself, something like that mumbling in my head? I don't want to think negatively, but I'm nervous. What if I'm right? What will happen to my family? He once or twice cheats on my mom, but still, they manage to fix it. After all, we're still family. That's why I'm so amazed at my mom, she loves my father so much, and He's the best Dad in the world. Even though He's not a good husband, I still lo
It's been two weeks since I stopped going to work. I'm depressed, stressed, frustrated, and all the negativity. I can't imagine marrying a stranger. We just had a one-night stand. What the hell? Still, my brain won't agree with it. Struggling but doesn't have any choice. My room was a mess like my life. I didn't bathe for three days, wearing the same clothes and disoriented. Anna has called me several times, yet it didn't bother me. # # # I'm trying to reach out to Billy, needing her the most now. As I dialed her number, "The person you have calling is unavailable." I sighed in dismay, knowing that she only cared when she had no one and was dumped by that fucking guy. Someone to comfort, care for, and pick her up whenever she could no longer handle her drunkenness. I was there as always, but now she's out of reach when I need her badly. It was midday, and I was feeling disturbed as I smelled my own. I realized nothing would change this stupid situation. I was trapped already, so
It was 9 in the evening when we reached. Blinking my eyes as I looked around, wondering where are we. I got out of the car before she attempted to open it. I can manage myself. Besides, She was right. We will get married on papers and terms, so there is nothing to act accordingly as we will not be a real couple. The fresh, soothing breeze against my skin, colliding with the waves not far away, enchanting my ear. Where did Ally take me? And I don't seem to know? "Come on, Hannah! Let's go inside. You'll catch a cold. I won't forgive myself if you get sick. ." She murmured, shivering. "Yes, I'm coming. You're domineering, don't you know that? Are you going to be like that to your mate?" I don't know why I said that, but I instantly darted out. "Oh really? So now you considered me your Wife?" broad smile, clearly liking what I said as we penetrated the beach house. # # # Moore's family owns this private beach resort here in Amanpulo, Ally's father. During my two weeks in the cond
The sun was out when I opened my eyes next to Ally, sleeping as she was still hugging me. Perhaps tired, I got up first and went for a walk to the sea, quivering as I stepped. There is no denying that she is good in bed, and nothing I did but moan with pleasure. I'm confused about what's wrong with me, but I'm still into Billy, and I can't stop thinking about her, missing her so much that I can't stop longing for her. When I returned to the bungalow, Ally was no longer there. Maybe she would have gone home first and would probably prepare delicious food. # # # "Oh, Hannah, where have you been? I've been looking for you. The food is ready." leading me to the dining room, avoiding her sight. Still fresh in my mind our intercourse last night, every detail of it. How Did that happen again, and what was worst? This time, I was perfectly conscious of everything that occurred. Every move she made all over my body was an intense, inexplicable sensation, fucking driving me crazy. "Is i
Here at Crimson Resort, Mactan Cebu, another private property of the Moore family, is the wedding venue. Is it a wedding or a choke? My God, I can't imagine it will happen right away. If only I could run away, that would be the first thing to do in my mind. Father Cristof is a priest from the UK. They especially invited him to do our wedding ceremony, and it will begin shortly. There's not enough time for us to get married in the UK because of restrictions regarding covid protocols, so our parents decided to do it here in the Philippines. Only immediate family is our guest, and no one else. It will be a simple, private wedding. I didn't know how they organized it all within a short period. No wonder they have lots of money to make things possible, even marriage here in the country. Ally is wearing Mermaid Style Wedding Dress with Pleat Cap Sleeve Illusion Back Gown. It fits her because she's a little bit tall. Match the tousled look of her braided hair. The messy waves of her hai
It is our first night together as a couple. I must bow to fate and be accustomed to it one way or another. On top of that, making things complicated won't help. I have nothing against Ally, but it won't change my love for Billy. Speaking of Billy, I hear her yelling in rage not far away. That is not possible because she has no idea unless she asks Mom. My mom was not aware of my relationship with Billy. "You whore woman. Where is Hannah? And why you're hiding her?" Billy shouted, full of anger in her voice. Shit! It's her. What is she doing here? It will gonna be a pain in the ass! I headed directly to where the noise was coming from, frowning as I spotted them almost grabbing each other. " Hey! What's going on here. Fuck shit, stop it," splitting them up to cease the commotion building up in between. "There you go, Hannah. Can you tell your best friend who I am so she can stop shouting at me? This bitch!" looking furious at Billy as she emphasizes her fury. "Break off, Ally. Ple