Wait, I have to sort things out! If I know who I am and I know how the story will go, I can save myself and live out my remaining years! I can't just give up. I am not that type of girl!
Right. I just have to stay alive. It’s not an impossible task, right?
I mean, I literally wrote this book! I wrote this fictional world that I live in. So what if I reincarnated into a side character who’s meant to die on the first five chapters at her 18th birthday?
I can do this. Right?
Suddenly, a familiar figure bumps into me causing me to fall on the ground. I protested, “Hey! How could you just bump into someone—“ But as I looked up, I saw him. The signature platinum blonde hair, perfect blue eyes, and very princely stance. It was the male protagonist—
My thoughts were cut off as one of his knights drew his sword and pointed it at my neck. I felt a sharp sting as the blade is slowly piercing through my skin.
The knight with brown hair looked at me, disgusted, and said, “How dare you come near the great Emperor Cadmus Hunter?”
Another knight chimed in and mocked me, “It’s the cursed girl. Despite her family’s high status in the society, she’s merely a Lady. That red hair is unsightly! We might as well cut it.”
I did not plan to die earlier than my predestined death but god, this is annoying. So, I misdirected the blade with my arms risking a small cut on my cheeks and had him drop it to the ground. I glared and said, “I am Lady Erin of House Lockheart and you are nothing but a knight, drawing your blade towards me is treacherous.”
The knight lost it and he was on the verge of transformation but Cadmus finally stepped in and said, “Leave her be. She’s not worth it, Bart.”
“She disrespected you!”
“And she should know best not to do it again.” I could feel Cadmus’ piercing glare but I simply bowed out of respect and left. I wanted to throw a fit so badly but I knew best than to get my anger the best of me.
This may be a fictional world that I created but it is the world I live in and right now, I have a death to escape.
Ah, I am to blame. I wrote him exactly as he’s acting right now. Cold and all like a rightful Alpha and king of Lunaria Kingdom. He was only kind to the main female protagonist, of course, she was his weakness.
Charlotte finally found me, she was catching her breath as she hit me lightly in the back, “How could you run off like that? You had me worried sick!”
“Charlotte, was I really friends with Emperor Cadmus?” I asked such an obvious question. It was painful to even ask.
There was a pause but she eventually replied, “You were, my lady.”
“What happened?”
“The coronation did, my lady.” Charlotte explained, “I was hoping you’d learn it a little later, at least after your birthday but as you know, the young emperor was sent to the capitol and word has it that he learned of your… true nature.”
“The curse.” I chuckled dryly knowing well enough that was my life now. The piercing glares, mocks and insults, and lowly treatment were all part of my life now, “That’s right. I wrote it that he would hate all those who were half breeds, humans, or in the unlikely case, a cursed one like me.”
Still, it pained me to lose a friend. My only friend aside Charlotte abandoned me for a truth that I had no control over. Everyone hated me or pitied me. None which I preferred.
Losing that friendship with Cadmus was a major detail at the beginning of the novel but how come I’m forgetting it? How come I keep forgetting? I should have known that. He stopped writing back and ignored me even when we would meet ever so rarely.
It wasn’t like I was the real Erin but I felt that sharp sting in my heart. The curse, of course, that inflicted me was that of the blood moon. My hair as red as blood and when the moon shall turn that very same color, I shall bring misfortune to my fellow kind.
My kind, that is, the werewolves where I am the lowest of the low in status that I was even lower than mankind that we are living peacefully among for I am a threat when the prophecy of the blood moon came. It is known that I would bring misfortune to the land. The last cursed werewolf was said to be the reason behind the death of majority of the she-wolves and was burned alive for a crime that she had no control over.
Simply living and breathing was a cursed wolf’s crime. A cursed wolf like me was outcast not only because of the prophecy but also because of how we are unable to transform into werewolves. I am basically mortal.
The ceremony of the full moon would only highlight a fact that I’ve known my whole life: I did not belong in this world. Not only was I not a werewolf, I was also cursed.
I really should have thought about it before publishing such depressing story because now, I am the one suffering because of it. What’s new?
“Ah, Lady Erin.” Grandmaster Aeron saw me in distress and chuckled, “What have you been doing, child? Don’t you know that everyone is preparing for the young emperor’s arrival?”
“I know.” I groaned, “As a matter of fact, I just saw him.”
“And?”
“And I almost lost my head for merely bumping into him.” I exhaled sharply.
“Well, that is to be expected.” He said to me without hesitation as he continued, “Erin, you know exactly where you stand in the kingdom and so does everyone else.”
“So I just have to stand idly by and accept it?”
“As you did in the past years to stay alive, yes.” Grandmaster Aeron cleared his throat. That was brutally honest as if I didn’t already know that.
I clenched my jaw. I couldn’t accept such fate. I died once and had this second chance, I would not stand idly by and wait death to come for me again. I refuse to! I will stay alive and reclaim my life.
Screw the curse and the status! I wrote this whole world so I can sure as hell write my own destiny as well.
Instead of arguing back, I forced a smile and said, “I appreciate your advice but I don’t have to follow it. I shall take my leave now, grandmaster, I shall see you at the celebration tonight in welcoming the young emperor’s safe return.”
Because why? Why must I accept such conditions? If I have to, I'd leave far away and start anew, regardless of how, I refuse to live my life dictated by what I should and should not do and to do that, I must stay alive.
Just as I was returning back to my room with Charlotte alongside me, Emperor Cadmus, once again reappears with a content smile on his face and arms crossed. Charlotte immediately bowed down before him and tugged my clothes to signal that I do the same.
Cadmus scoffed, “That’s the second time you didn’t bow before your emperor, do you have a death wish?”
Ah, crap. I was just getting used to all the greetings and such. I immediately bowed down as well and said, “Apologies, emperor.”
“You’re already unsightly, you should at least make up for it with manners or intelligence, unfortunately, you are not blessed with either. Such a pity.” Cadmus looked at me without any expression at all.
"Hey, isn't that a bit rude even for an emperor?"
Charlotte grabbed my arms and nudged, "My lady, that is no way to talk to the emperor. That is too disrespectful."
"Respect begets respect, is it not?" I raised an eyebrow as if I was testing Cadmus' patience but he simply looked at me coldly and said, "It isn't rude to say the truth."
And just before he left, he said with a slight smirk obviously annoying me, “If you are to attend the celebration later, I pray to the moon that you won’t cause any trouble but so far, you have caused nothing but trouble.”
So rude! Did I really write that character? I must have been so stupid to write such an arrogant, smug, and annoying character like him! I could swear that he was smirking when he said that! I took a deep breath. I am but a side character trying to stay alive, I should not meddle with protagonists and antagonists or it could be messy.
"My lady, that was dangerous and reckless, even for you!" Charlotte reminded, "Who knows what could happen if you keep pissing him off!"
"He was totally enjoying mocking me." I rolled my eyes, "He is way too annoying."
"I bet he could say the same to you."
"'Course he would."
"Still, he is the emperor and the ball tonight is to celebrate the upcoming full moon and the emperor's safe return to the kingdom." Charlotte said
Wait. That’s right. The ball is tonight! Tonight, Cadmus and the main female protagonist shall meet by the castle’s garden! The female protagonist is a she wolf who is not yet aware of her true nature as the only she-wolf who is able to transform. She’s Luna Woolf.
I remember now. Right after tonight, my 18th birthday shall be a few weeks after and I would die by then. My death shall be the reason why the protagonists would meet again.
At my funeral, Luna would come out of pity since no one else would come and Cadmus would too, feeling a little guilt that I died.
My death was a major event to lead the two of them forward so I have to find another way to make them meet without me having to die! Maybe then, I could change my fate!
Right now, I need to find the her and make sure they meet accordingly. My eyes light up as I was given hope to see through this! I can live as long as I stay out of their way and have the story progress without me having to die!
I quickly headed to my room and dressed appropriately for the ball. I wore a delicate turquoise dress with see through puff sleeves that suited my red hair perfectly. My hair is tied up by Charlotte in braids.“Lovely.” Charlotte smiled and said, “I can’t believe you’re turning 18 soon.”Right, that would also mean I’m nearing death so I was not as excited as I should be. I shook my head and reminded myself that I could change my fate. I have to. No matter what, I will take back my fate and continue to live. Be it as the cursed princess, I will still continue to live.I glanced at my graceful appearance at the mirror with my unsightly red hair and green eyes, then averted my gaze at Charlotte, as much as I try to be hopeful, if all fails, this might as well be the last time I get to smile and laugh with Charlotte, so I said, “Charlotte, you have been my only friend and that, I am forever thankful.”“I am more grateful, my lady, if it wasn’t for you, I would have been beheaded a long t
I felt the pain all at once. Erin’s pain and my own. I could feel my head spinning and my heart throbbing painfully. Why is it that fate was always cruel to me? I tried to be strong. I tried so hard! So why do I always have to keep suffering?Even in my original life as the author of this whole world, I felt the world against me and just when things were starting to look up for me, I died so suddenly. Now, even in this world, I reincarnated to still be in pain!I stood up and pushed them all away. I grabbed the sword from one of the knights and pointed it at them. I finally broke down and cried out, “Why? Why should I just die so helplessly? Why can’t I live? What’s so wrong with wanting to live?”“You’re a cursed child.” Eunice snickered, “As long as you live, we are bound to misfortune when the blood moon comes. You are destined to die, sister. Accept it.”The blood from my mouth drips to the ground and I saw my red hair cut so horribly. Tears fell down my cheeks but I scoffed, “Wel
Each morning since that chaotic night, I woke up with one thought in my mind: I was still stuck in this world. I came to the conclusion that all of this wasn't a dream and that this was, indeed, my life now. Everything was as is. I still had the same green eyes and red hair. I still have these memories of the book and the plot and my death in my original life but they are slowly fading away each day. I tried to write them down but almost too magically, it just disappears the next day. Plus, now, there was only three more days until my birthday and well, my death. I have to search of other ways to make Cadmus and Luna meet before then. Time, for me, was literally running out. Just as I got ready and was about to leave, I opened the door and saw Cadmus standing outside as if he was about to knock. Cadmus looked regal as his blue eyes stares directly into mine. There is a pause then he cleared his throat before saying, "Good morning Lady Erin, unsightly as ever," he cleared his thro
So with that, I immediately left the palace and headed downtown with my plain dress and shoal to blend in among the people and hide my standout red hair. I searched everywhere for Luna's flower shop and after a while, I saw it. I saw her gently tending her flowers. Her delicate cream dress fits her perfectly. That pastel pink hair and aqua blue eyes definitely stands out in a good way. In a way that mine doesn't. Our eyes met and she smiled at me, "Are you searching for flowers, my Lady?" I cleared my throat. I was completely flustered, "I, uh, was wondering if you could recommend me some?" "Sure! I'd love to." Luna smiled as she asked, "For what occassion are the flowers for?" "Just... a love interest perhaps." "Is it a one-sided love?" I flinched as I heard that. I immediately denied, "No, I, uh, I... It's not for me." "Oh, I see." "Just..." I looked around the flower shop and one stood out the most for me because for some reason, it reminded me of him. It reminded me of Cad
"Why? What is it? Lady Erin?" Tristan reached out his hand to me but I still felt scared. That vision definitely meant something. It felt all too real. He continued, "Lady Erin?"But I was frozen on the ground. I wanted to just vanish. The thought of dying in their hands sickened me. Those cold stares. I couldn't believe it. How could someone as gentle as Tristan stare at me like that? It was... impossible but then again, was it really?I heard Cadmus' voice among the crowd. It was faint and soft, almost hesitant. There was a hint of worry in those eyes. He muttered, "Erin?" He found his way back to us along with the flower I gave him.That was the second time he uttered my name. Such sorrow and gentleness with hint of deep regret. He really does remind me of a hyacinth indeed.Then again, Erin Lockheart died in the novel, perhaps, she was still meant to die and I still haven't changed anything yet? With my unclear mind, I ran away from Tristan. I took advantage of my small and petite
Erin Lockheart's POV For a while, I felt so lost that I thought I had to choose between this life but abandoning everything else or staying but eventually dying that I forgot that it was within my power to change my fate. Having only two options was an illusion, it's not always choosing one and losing the other. I'm a writer so I believe I could write my own fate. Be it a miracle or heaven, I got a second chance at life and I wouldn't waste it on running away. I don't plan on dying either so I will see this through. I wouldn't lie. I wanted to run away. It seems like the easy way out. There would be no complications and I could start a new life instead. Somewhere far away from my death but I realized I've grown fond of them. I've spent time with the people around me and they weren't just important to me because I have Erin's memories, if anything, Erin's memories were all happy memories, it was odd until I realized that most of those memories weren't real. The character, Erin, fak
Erin Lockheart's POVRight. Before worrying about something that would happen in two months from now, I have to deal with family matters first. I dressed decently for my family. I wore a navy blue gown with a corset that accentuated my waist laced with silvery and mirror-like silk for its layers. My hair was neatly combed and was decorated with silver hair pins.Charlotte sighed heavily and said, "Are you sure you'll be okay? The last time, your sister almost-""I'll be fine. It's just family matters as usual." I smiled trying to assure her. Honestly, I had no idea what could happen but after Cadmus' threats, I doubt that they would directly hurt me like the last time. I continued, "How do I look?""Prim and proper.""Great." I sighed heavily too and said, "Wish me luck."I, then, headed to greet my parents and my sister. They were all very displeased to see me, as usual, I greeted them with respect, dignity, and a curtsy, "Mother, Father, and sister, it's so great to have you here. W
Erin Lockheart's POV What was that about? I looked at Cadmus who was buttoning up his shirt and asked, "Who... was that?" He seemed extremely furious, his tone was aggitated when he answered, "That was Kai Griffin, you have no idea how dangerous that man is. He could have killed you. Kai is the Raewavell Kingdom's lone wolf. He's their emperor." Cadmus was clearly frustrated, "How could he managed to slip past the guards? Stay here." But almost too recklessly, I grabbed his hand and said, "I'm fine, Cadmus, I'm not hurt." "But you could have died, Erin." Cadmus said sharply, "You can't keep bringing people down with you. You're not a kid anymore so stop acting stupid." "I'm not stupid." "Then stop acting like one!" Cadmus continued, "If you had finished your reading like you were supposed to as a royalty, you would have known who he was and what he was capable of. If you weren't born a cursed-" He stopped as he realized what he was about to say. He saw the tears on my eyes falli