It all clicks.
The late night calls, the flirtings, the unusual caring with Lillian - their chuckles in bed, my parents' coldness, Elmyra's sneers. My mind replays these scenes over and over again, like a broken record.
I sit on the edge of the bed of the apartment I rented since last night, the weight of the world keeps pressing down on my shoulders.
Just as I’m sinking deeper into the darkness of my thoughts, my phone shatters the silence. I jolt as I wipe away my tears. My hand trembles slightly as I glance at the screen. Then, my jaw clenches in anger when I see the caller ID—Lillian.
“Really? You still have the guts to call me?” I hiss.
-["Listen, Hazel, it's evident where his heart lies, and frankly, your dramatics won't change that. Just gracefully accept the truth and move on, like any sensible person would."]-
Lilian says in her sweet voice, without a hint of remorse or shame.
-[“We need to talk, Express Cafe, now.”]-
My grip on the phone tightens, my nails digging into my palm as I fight to keep my composure. I force my anger down, steeling myself for whatever lies Lillian is about to spin.
"Fool me once" I say courageously, “If you think…”
-[“Don't you want to know why and when your husband cheated on you?”]-
She's been my best friend long enough to know what will pinch me. She hangs up, the silence that follows echoing in the small apartment like a deafening roar.
Express Cafe is just a few minutes' drive away. I slip into a corner booth and wait, quickly smooth concealer around my swollen eyes, as I watch the door with bated breath.
Lilian comes in blushing like a woman in love, and ironically, her love has turned out to be mine.
An awkward silence ensues and we stare at our respective coffee cups for a while.
“Why, Lillian?” I finally ask.
"Hazel, you need to face the truth. Carter loves me, not you. He's only with you because he wants an heir, a baby. Once he gets what he wants from you, he'll leave you for me."
"Is that so?" I ask, my voice trembling slightly despite my best efforts to maintain my composure.
A very faint smile plays at the corners of Lilian’s lips that she tries so hard to hide by tilting her head down as she reaches into her bag and produces her phone. With a few taps of her finger, she turns the screen towards me, revealing a string of text messages between her and Carter.
"He's been seeing me behind your back, Hazel," Lilian says, her voice holding a tinged of a smug satisfaction. "He's been telling me everything. How he can't stand being with you, how he's only staying with you for appearance’s sake. He's using you, and you're too blind to see it."
My breath dries in my throat as I read the messages.
The Carter in the text messages is nothing like the husband I knew. I can tell by his texts that he is happy, which makes my heart ache even more.
“But what does that have to do with why you betrayed me? You were my best friend,” I say, trying not to show how much these messages hurt me.
“At first we were friends, but then I realized I could never really respect you. The way you let people walk all over you...I’m sorry but it’s just pathetic. And then I stayed close to you so I could be near Carter,” she replies.
“He never loved you, I’m always his true love. He met me first. ” she continues.
I swallow a lump in my throat and quietly take a deep breath.
“How long has this been going on?” I ask.
“Pretty much since the beginning. A few months into your marriage, maybe,” she says without remorse.
My head is reeling with the idea that Carter has been cheating on me for so long. I’m shocked that Lillian has such a mean streak. She’s never my friend to begin with.
How could I have let these kinds of people into my life, into my heart?
Just then I hear the door jingle, prompting me to look up. To my shock, Carter appears.
“You called Carter?” I ask Lillian in a horrified tone.
“You two really need to talk. You need to think about your life choices, accept the reality and it's good for all of us.” she replies snidely.
She gets up to leave and Carter takes her place in the opposite chair.
"Come home with me. We had a good time, didn't we? We can still live the life we had before. It’s not like you don’t enjoy the things we do together,” he says.
He tries to run his hand up my arm but I slap him away.
“Don’t touch me. I only enjoyed them when I thought I was the only one you were doing it with!” I whisper between my gritted teeth.
"I'm the only one who can stand you in bed, you know how boring you used to be in bed? I made you moan over and over. You know you still want me..."
He stares at me with those cold eyes. The eyes I once loved. He’s finally stopped pretending.
It’s all been an act. I see that now. Carter changes his personality to suit his needs. He manipulates people to get what he wants. He manipulated me before and he’s trying to do it again!
I say nothing, trying to keep my anger in check.
“I don’t know why you are fighting this so hard. Most women would die to be in your place. They’d be very happy to get even the tiniest scrap from me,”
He pauses, waiting for my reply. But I keep my silence.
“You agreed to my terms. I have your signature on the prenuptial agreement to prove it. So get over yourself and fulfill your duty to me. Then you can go on about your sad little life, while I rise to the top and make my family proud,” he boasts.
“Did you ever love me?” I ask.
"Love is too strong of a word.” He laughs out loud as if he has heard something ridiculous. “You have good breeding, your parents assured me like you would be an obedient wife, and all along you've done well. Why don't you keep it up? Come home now, before I run out of patience."
He’s never loved me. His tone reminds me of the new racehorse he bought last month. A new, premium racehorse, presentable, brings him victories and can be bred to produce foals again. He never sees me as a wife, or even as a person.
“Not a chance in hell,” I say proudly.
“Remember your prenup? If you don't bear me children, you will be ruined. Your family will be in debt for the rest of their lives. Don't you dare try to leave me.” His pupils dilate like that of a wild animal's, and he chokes me with his hand.
I can barely breathe, I can feel he’s serious about hurting me, this man I had loved is literally taking my breath away.
“I’m leaving you, one way or another…." With what strength I have left I try to remove his hand and finish the sentence with the last of my breath.
My peripheral vision sees that people are already whispering and looking over at us, and some even take out their phones and start taking pictures of us.
”How are you…” He growls, low and dangerous.
He notices the look in the crowd's eyes, and I'm betting he won’t dare make a scandal like domestic abuse in public if he wants to remain reputable. He stares at me with anger in his eyes.
He then lets go and I can finally breathe heavily. I cough, calling his bluff. He finally breaks the stare and leaves in a huff.
The look on his face is absolutely worth it. I may have to pay the consequences later. But for now, I feel free for the first time in my life.
I will leave Carter, no matter the cost.
CHAPTER 4: Read your contract - This should be on my tombstone.I dug out my prenup from when papa told me not to worry about anything, that they would protect me and all I had to do was sign it, and so I did. But now, I realize that every conditioning of this prenup is working against me.My parents sold me into marriage, and they’ll be furious with me for getting a divorce. They’ll be bankrupt and vulnerable to attacks without Carter’s protection. “If you want a divorce, you won’t get a penny from me. You will no longer be under my protection. Think twice, Hazel.”Those are Carter's words, which are burned in my memory.I just wanna brush off the agreement and his threat by not thinking too much about them. But then, they start to haunt me, making me understand the realness of it all. Escaping isn’t a possibility, and Carter proves that…The rain pours as I stand on the doorstep of my rented house, the water mingles with the tears I try so hard to hold back.“Your husband's men t
CHAPTER 5:Divorce is never as easy as I thought it would be.-[“I’m calling to inform you that Mr. Thorne has decided to NOT take your case. We can recommend good divorce lawyers if needed….”]- The woman’s tone is cool and reserved over the phone.Confusion clouds my thoughts, and questions race through my mind—why would he turn me away? Is he busy? Or does he find my case not worthy of his time?I quickly rush to the law firm, hoping to personally meet and talk to Marius Throne, but I’m told by his secretary that appointments with Marius Throne are currently lined up for a month from now.So, he’s busy. Even so,... I’m still hoping that he’ll have a change of heart and accept my divorce case if only he can understand my situation. It’s a good case, hard case to be exact - my prenup agreement is harsh and my husband was caught cheating red-handed. This may pique his interest.The bustling lobby seems to shrink in an instant as I, lost in my thoughts, collide with someone in a shar
Marius Thorne did not say ‘no’ to my case, but he did not say ‘yes’ either.Two days have lapsed and still, there’s no call from him. I consider the possibility that he may just be busy, but if I don’t receive a phone call until tomorrow, I’ll go back to the Counsel Commanders Law Firm myself.I try to be optimistic, but beneath that optimism lies a gnawing fear—what if Marius Thorne can't, or worse, won't help me in the end?I can't bear to contemplate the idea of being turned away, left with no recourse and nowhere to turn to again. I glance at my phone since there’s a message that blinks insistently on the screen. I get excited, assuming it’s from Marius Thorne, but my excitement dwindles greatly when the ID caller flashes Carter’s name.Should I read it? This may only lead to another argument. Yet, deep down, there's still a flicker of hope that maybe this time will be different. I sigh as I click it.-[If you want a divorce, come to Myriad Hall at seven tonight. Wear your best
MARIUS’ POV:I never expected to see such fire in Hazel’s eyes, hidden beneath that soft, desperate plea for help. She’s stronger than I give her credit for, braver than I could have imagined. Hazel’s feign composed facade is completely exposed after unleashing a fierce slap across Carter's face. Soon after, she storms out, leaving behind a stunned, silenced crowd.Carter is frozen in humiliation. He had it coming, treating her with such disrespect and deceit. Maybe this slap will finally knock some sense into him.But, after sensing that Carter won’t make any effort to seek Hazel's explanation or apology, I follow Hazel outside, finding her huddled in the corner of the porch, her body wracking while she’s retching. I approach her cautiously, my handkerchief already in hand."Hazel, you okay?" I call softly.Hazel takes a moment to compose herself before turning to face me, tears streaking down her cheeks, her hand trembling as it covers her mouth. “Thank you,” she murmurs as she ac
HAZEL’S POV:"May I know first why you want a divorce?"The lawyer’s voice breaks through my reverie, pulling me back to the present. These days I've been wondering what on earth Marius Thorne means. If he is completely unwilling to help me, why did he refer me to this law firm?I hand Mr. Salazar an envelope filled with my prenuptial agreement, marriage certificates, and other contracts I signed as Carter’s wife.“I caught my husband and his mistress - my friend, red-handed," I reply without the tiniest hint of embarrassment.Mr. Salazar’s eyes flick over the papers, his expression thoughtful. "Since Mr. Thorne personally recommended you to me, then I'll be happy to help you. "“Are you positive this is what you really want?” he asks. “Yes,” I say. I’m so tired of people questioning my decisions and underestimating me. “Good. Now I need to ask you a question, and don’t take offense. It’s important you tell us the entire truth so we can plan out our case. We don’t want any surpri
“We’re not looking for a housewife.” Their words are like daggers piercing my already fragile confidence.For days, I’ve been on a fruitless quest, knocking on the doors of countless companies, only to be met with polite refusals, sympathetic smiles and sometimes rude and inappropriate criticisms. Each rejection letter weighs heavily on my heart.I’ve never finished college nor even experienced working for any kind of job, my dreams were put on hold when I fell in love with Carter. He has promised me the world, but instead, he has left me with nothing but shattered illusions and a mountain of regrets. Speaking of Carter, some of the companies I’ve applied to know him. The interviewers whispered among themselves, their eyes darting nervously, and sometimes mockingly, in my direction, as if I’m some kind of pariah tainted by association.Now, as I face the harsh reality of my situation, I can't help but curse myself for ever believing in him.***********Express Cafe is my last shot.
Despite the inappropriate advancement of the manager, I accepted the job. I’m desperate to end the cycle of rejection and despair, to get my chance of independence and to prove that I’m more than just a housewife.Little do I know, however, that my journey will soon take a dark turn.The Express Cafe bustles with the morning rush. I’ve landed a job as a barista. As I steam milk and pull espresso shots, I find myself the target of unwanted advances from both the manager, and the owner. When no one is looking, they’d brush their c.rotch area against my b.utt, their fingers touching my exposed legs, sending a shiver of disgust through my bones.I feel trapped in another nightmare that’s not easy to escape. And it doesn't end there. The manager, sensing my subtle defiance on his advances, would take revenge by humiliating me in front of my colleagues. He would nitpick every move I’m making, correcting me with a sneer even when there’s nothing to correct.My anger simmers beneath the sur
CARTER’S POV:My wife seems like a different person now.How can I make her see reason when she’s so damn stubborn? My threats aren’t working, even bankruptcy doesn’t faze her anymore. I need to find a way to reach her heart again.A bottle of beer dangled loosely from my fingertips, my other hand absentmindedly massaging my cheek where the sting of Hazel's slap still lingers, days after the fact. The memory of her angry and pained face flashes before my eyes again.“It’s just a kiss,” I hiss.We’re married, for crying out loud! Her need to humiliate me in front of the other families was evident in every fiery word she spat. To add insult to injury, she found herself a divorce lawyer – Marius Thorne, of all people!Marius is known for his ruthlessness in the courtroom, his unyielding determination to win at any cost. I drain the last dregs of beer from the bottle and set it down on the bedside table with a hollow thud. Rising from the couch, I make my way to the bathroom.I sink int