Relieved , I was feeling relieved ? A chill of terror rose in my heart crawling all the way up to my spine and freezing my head .
This wasn't me , what in the world was I even doing here ?
This person who was kissing Jacob as if he was more important than her dying breath wasn't me .
It couldn't be me .
How can I be something - someone so defective ? My actions were nothing but immoral .
Stop . I need to stop before I could no longer .
I raised my hand and clutched Jacob's bicep and tugged on it , in a fruitless attempt to make him stop .
He doesn't .
When I tried to push him away pressing my hand on his chest he doesn't budge . Instead when he sensed my rejection he pressed his body against mine even more ,his slick torso flattened my bre**ts pressing them down and his grip on my hair tightened as he tugged me even c
"That will be enough " barked Mr . Knight " Leave Renee alone , its not her fault "I winced when Jacob charged at his father with a menacing growl , his father not so caring words had snapped whatever composure Jacob was hanging on to , he sneered at his father " Wow , so you finally found your balls to look me in the eye and own up to your shit ? But you know what daddy dearest ? You are nineteen years late!" he shoved his father pointing his finger at him " It will be enough when I say its enough !" Then he turned to Renee who was helping Mr .Knight to straighten up and gave her one of his crooked maniacal smile as he hooked his finger at her " Come here sweetheart , don't be scared of me . I assure you that whatever my father gave you , I can also give you that . Don't worry , come here to me , I promise I won't bite unless you want me to "Renee blanched as she cowered behind Mr. Knight and honest
Taylor's fingers pressed down on the ivory keys as " You get down, real low down , you listen to Coltrane, derail your own train" fill up the church . The melodic tune of If it makes you Happy by Sheryl Crow was her favourite and as a matter of fact it was one of my all time favourite as well .Despite the controversy that surrounded it .To others it was simply a glaring reminder of their faults , their addiction and whatnot but to me it was simply a small reminder that we pay for our own choices , choices that might hurt you despite how good they make you feel .Just like mine were hurting me , I sighed and closed my eyes when Taylor moved on to the profound lyrics 'If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad?' and let the music flow through me like current .Ignoring the philosophical question the one that had me break down and relive my mistakes , I sang along my cousin who
" You can discuss it with me " said my uncle his eyes twinkling with a humorous gleam " Maybe I can help you out with -"I didn't quiet catch on his words because for reasons unknown as I stared past because past the stall that was selling some fresh dishes with tomatoes , I spotted the last person I thought I will ever expect to see at the Church - Jacob Knight .Alright , fine technically speaking he was outside the church and that's where the entire fundraising rummage sale thing was going on and there weren't much people who were seriously considering about purchasing from us but I still certainly didn't expect Jacob him to be among those people . My words faltered and my forehead creased with a frown when I saw him leaning against his Lexus as his gaze locked with mine ." I'm considering that your problems have lot to do with that guy ?" said my uncle as he followed my gaze and his
Sharing a ride with your supposed to be ( still in denial ) boyfriend could really prove a bit taxing . From the moment I planted my a*s on the passenger's seat , I swear I asked Jacob a total of what I counted as fifty times about where he was taking me but being the annoying little tease he was , he kept ignoring my questions ."Don't tell me you are taking me to the outskirts where you will murder me and bury my body somewhere six feet down ?" I asked after my fiftieth failure" aww princess , you figured it out so soon " giving me a puppy dog pout , Jacob took a sharp left " you ruined my surprise , I was going to send you to your maker the easy way "" You are the one who just ruined my entire plan " joking along I rolled my eyes " I wanted to die in all dramatic way just like in Shakespeare drama , your little surprise just ruined my life' s greatest moment , pe
He shook his head and looked straight ahead " you don't know the real truth "" then tell me " I said looking down at his leaned head .Jacob pushed off my shoulder then looked me right in the eye " I hated her " he confessed his voice harsh and cold " I hated her the moment Dante brought her back , I knew what happened to our family wasn't her fault but I still turned all my anger and hatred upon her when she was just a baby . I ignored her for a better part of her life and never actually made an effort to see what was happening to her "" It wasn't your fault -"" you are not understanding what I'm trying to tell you "" then make me understand " cupping his face , I give him a hard look " you can trust me Jacob , I will never hurt you . You just told me that you want our relationship to work that you want to reconcile with me , then let me
And then there was magic . No I wasn't lying when I said that because the second Jacob stepped in the lounge, Instantly every single women in the room perked up.From my peripheral view I could see a young teen around the age of fourteen staring at him nonstop , even forgetting to blink or to breathe. Her mouth wide open as she kept staring at him . A few tables down , a woman subtly shifted while another one vainly adjusted her clothes and hair , she even went as far as popping up few buttons of her blouse. And to my horror , a middle aged woman who was dressed in black attorney suit plastered a flirtatious smile on her face .Jacob however didn't even look at their direction , which got him some major points from me . Walking up to me he gave me a wide grin as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and just like always - the electric current instantly snapped into its place like it did whenever he touched me ." hey th
Jacob smiled looking quite amused at Chris's indignation but when I tugged his wrist he graciously abandoned his pursuit of happiness upon the sacrificial ceremony of my brother's happiness and followed me out of the diner entrance to the parking lot ." what are you gazing at so intently ?" I asked feeling his burning gaze at my back" That little sway of your a*s " without so much as batting his eye , he answered my question " Its unintentionally proactive and I -"" Don't be such a prude " blushing furiously I glanced around I would be real down on my luck if someone especially my co workers heard the star quarterback of the town telling me how 'proactive' my a*s was " And just for the record my a*s ain't swaying proactively QB , I'm walking - simply walking . Will you get your head out of the gutter , please ? "" But
" Good evening , Miss Hamilton " as soon as Jacob pushed the entrance door wide open , a butler as if summoned by the magical runes on the door popped right up . Yeah , no kidding - he was dressed like one of those butlers whom you will usually find in a high class aristocratic family .I was so surprised at his sudden appearance that I didn't even asked how he knew my name but then again maybe he knew the name of every women that slept with Jacob just in case he had to send hitman after them . What,? aristocratic families were messy - and I had watched enough dramas and had a rather good idea about how these aristocrats dealt with baby momma drama ." Good evening " I greeted him back dryly , Jacob had left me alone in the entrance hall and gone up to the second floor to get Annabeth , I knew that something must have happened at home so I didn't stop him but holy hell that was the scariest ride I ever had in my life the