HAZELIt's a day after my parent's funeral, and Ramon and I head back home with my little brother.I thought that after the funeral, the pain would lighten up. However, I was completely wrong. The second I entered the funeral home was the second that everything became so real to me. All of this really happened.I still cannot believe it, even when I was surrounded with everyone I love, looking at the two caskets. Their pictures above each one of them, happily smiling and holding hands.It tears me apart, because my little brother had no idea what was going on. He would look between Ramon and I with a curious expression on his face, wondering why I was crying.Even Ramon cried....in front of everyone. The fact that he had done this made it that much harder for me. My family had made such an impact on everyone's lives and now they're just gone, in the blink of an eye!I hate that I never got to say goodbye in person and I hate myself for moving on with my life. They should have moved in
HAZELI stand where he was initially standing and breathe deeply. The woods remind me of the day I was with Trevor, the day I met Ramon. It's borders are marked with his scent and patrolled by many faithful Pack members. Beyond that is a dangerous place and that's exactly where Ramon was looking. I hope that what ever he was thinking about, he doesn't decide to go towards the hidden dangers."Baby," Ramon calls from the doorway, tearing me from my train of thought. I turn to face him and hum in response. His breath taking body is exposed, only covered by a pair of boxers. The tattoo on his chest rises and falls with every deep breath he takes.He nods his head, signaling for me to come inside. Without a word, I step inside and he locks the door behind me. Quietly, he moves the curtains to hide the sun for tomorrow morning and disappears into the bathroom."Come here, I've missed cuddling with you." I say when he comes back from the bathroom. He gives me a playful smile, his lack of sl
HAZELSunlight pours into the bedroom, pulling me from my slumber. The thick smell of sex from only hours before and the smell of bacon frying in a pan fill my senses. The soft sounds of slow, classical music plays downstairs, along with Myles' laughter.I rub my eyes and glance at the alarm clock on Ramon's side of the bed. I haven't over slept, and I'm completely thankful for that. However, if it were up to me I could probably sleep in all day today. My body is sore and I could use a bit more rest. However, instead of doing what my body begs me to do, I climb out of bed and tug on Ramon's shirt from the previous night.Our wolves are reconnected in more than just a sensual way. Bringing us together like that connects our wolves, giving us a greater understanding in our minds, bodies, and hearts. I can physically feel his relief after what he had done, and I have no shame in it. After all, I did marry the man. I'm allowed to get dick whenever I feel like it. No shame.Entering the ba
HAZEL"What the hell are you doing?" Ramon asks, making me jump. I glance back down the the computer and try my best to think of what his password might be. Ramon won't tell me what's going on."What's your password?""You won't find what you're looking for on there, Hazel." He says lowly, leaning against the doorframe. I glare at him and raise me eyebrow until he gives me his password. "My little wolf." He sighs.I type in the password, and a photo of the two of us on our wedding day pops up as his background. Files line both sides of the computer, each carefully labeled and alphabetized. My eyes wander around hopelessly, because I'll never be able to know what he's not telling me without a label."Just give up. I know you better than to keep something like that on my computer." He sighs out loud. I glance over at him before falling back in the chair. Crossing my arms over my chest I pout in my husbands direction."Just tell me-" I grumble. "It can't be that bad-can it?" Thinking ove
HAZELSitting on the edge of the bed, I sip on a mug of hot tea. The aroma fills my nose while Ramon's soft snores fill my ears. The house is quiet, and since Ramon has fallen asleep I've been stuck alone; thinking.I bring the mug to my lips and then back into my lap. My mind is on a constant replay of everything that has happened to me in the past year. To us. This year seems to be a huge disappointment. Not only were we told that we won't be able to have a baby; that Ramon has been waiting so long for, but the only family we have is dead within a blink of an eye.Without a doubt, I am happy with Ramon. Up until now, I've never hated life. Since this year has began, I don't think that I've stayed genuinely happy in quite a while- and I know that Ramon knows that. I also know that deep down, he is just as unhappy. I just hope that what ever it is, is something we can work through. I love him too much and I'm terrified to even think about him letting me go.I run my fingers through my
HAZELLight shimmers it's way through the curtains, lighting the room with hues of orange and yellow. Carefully I turn to face the clock on the bedside table and sigh out loud at what it reads.6:12am.It is only a few hours ago when Ramon and I finally went to bed. The only reason we did is because he finally got tired. My body aches, but somehow I manage to reach out to touch him. Instead of touching his warm body like I expect; I touch the ice cold space where his body was when I fell asleep last night.I knit my eyebrows together in confusion and glance towards the bathroom but it's empty. He's not in there! The satisfaction I had before is replaced with disappointment. I never ask Ramon to stay with me; but shouldn't that just be a routine? Even if I am married to the man, waking up alone after a night like ours; still makes me feel like I'm only wanted for sex. No matter how much I know it isn't true- it still tends to get to me.Sitting up in the bed, I look around at my surrou
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e