“Do you prefer dangerous freedom over peaceful slavery?” His voice husky as ever, his steps increasing thrill and trepidation in my bones.
“I prefer everything over you…” My words sounding as if I’m poised. Yes, I choose dangerous freedom because peaceful slavery for you is quite dangerous itself.
“This isn’t fair” I muttered as he pulled me closer grabbing my waist in his huge hands, his breath fell on me like snow in winter. His voice coaxing me to give in, and I whimpered from the heath I’m about to face.
“Nobody smart plays fair.” He whispered, his lips slowly growing nearer to my face. I looked away and felt him smile near my cheeks.
I saw him, he saw me, I looked away but then I looked back, and he was still looking at me. “Angel…” He whispered and I closed my eyes.
Angel? Me? Not. Me.
Letting go of the guard I had put, wanting to live for the first and the last time, he was making me want things I didn’t want, things like love.
He doesn’t love me but, I want him to touch me with love, all my dead desires came back as he licked my neck.
His grip tightened around my waist, and his hands slowly traced down, until it was on my thighs. I clenched my fists feeling the juices forming in me, his hands touched the hem of my silver shimmery dress sitting right an inch above my mid thighs.
My breath shortened and I held back every moan that wanted its way out. Before I could retort, his hands found his way in the middle of my thighs.
For the first time I wasn’t pretending to have pleasure.
“So, shall we start?” He kissed my neck, trailing down to my collarbone, he tugged his free hand in my hair, pulling them, not letting me lose focus.
My neck arched backward; I opened my eyes quickly fearing to have flashbacks. They wanted to shut down, to dive into this deep wave of pleasure sweeping away my membranes.
He groped my boobs with his hand pinning me against the wall, still sucking on my neck. I saw him going wild unlike how contained he has always shown him.
Hungry. Ached. Desperate.
“Haah!” He broke apart trying to catch his breath but again dug his fangs inside my skin. I gasped as loud as I could, and devoured the heat he radiated. I was losing my stance, since my legs weakened and paralysis seemed like a short word, his hands quickly pulled me closer realizing I was falling.
My eyes shut down, no matter how hard I tried. “Stop…” I yelled. I couldn’t control myself, “No…” I yelled again; he didn’t stop.
“I’ll pay you!!” I exclaimed and he looked at me in shock. I don’t have that much amount of money, how am I going to pay him?
But that’s not the point, how could I lose myself like this? Why does it happen only with him?
“What?” He sounded surprised. “What nonsense…” He seemed angry; I gulped getting scared by his gaze.
The lust in his eyes vanished and a greater demon took over.
Hurt, desperate, ashamed.
Not his usual expressions.
He moved back and thumped his body on the bed, scratching his head with frustration. He let out a sigh, numerous times, calming his breath.
“Come here…” His voice was low yet commanding, and my heart was pounding like crazy. I sluggishly walked in his direction and stood before him.
He extended his arms and pulled me closer; he embraced me tightly and I flinched not expecting it. He buried his face inside my stomach and my jaw dropped in shock.
My gaze fell on his tensed shoulders as he was regaining himself with my embrace.
“Caress my head a bit, please…” His voice came out a little frantic, and didn’t seem angry at all now; he grabbed my hand putting it on his head.
I gently started stroking his hair and he sighed with comfort, “Let’s remain like this for a while…”
He pulled me even closer, my legs in between his, and he didn’t let go of me. I tried not to feel anything but my insides were shivering, I tried not to feel anything but my breathing was going erratic.
I got goosebumps all over, failing to give reasons to his actions, what am I doing? What is he doing? Why is he doing so and why am I letting him do so?
My mind went blank, more like too drained to put my thoughts down making myself numb, closing all the weird singings around me.
We stayed there, for a long time, none of us speaking, none of us thinking. Just stop… I only have a certain level of sanity, and you’re not helping me keep it.
Tears collected at the bottom of my eyelid, I don’t know what this is but it’s fucking soothing my heart, I don’t want it. I’m getting stuck inside my brain.
He finally pushed me away, running his finger through his hair, “30th, or else I’m coming for you.” He stormed out of the room in a haste.
He was not kind anymore and I mourned the loss of his warmth on my body, I hate to admit it but,
I missed Levi.
The door slammed leaving its echo to haunt me for good five minutes and I gulped my dreads down.
Maybe he realized the weirdness of the situation, upon gaining my senses back I sat down on the ground.
“What happened? What was that?” I panted loudly pulling my hair out in nervousness.
Touch what’s mine and I’ll ruin whatever is yours!
Caress my head a bit, please.
I went back home knowing I won’t be getting any clients anymore. I could change the club I work in but a man who can buy a club like ‘Paradiso’ can have ownership of others as well.
I received a mail from Grey’s school regarding the pending payment. I sighed again and lay on the bed closing the laptop.
The moment I closed my eyes, I recalled the scenes from earlier. What is happening to me?
Caress my head a bit, please.
Let’s remain like this for a while.
His words. My thoughts.
I opened the first drawer and took my sleeping pills, gulping them down my throat. It’s easier this way. To sleep. To not think.
My life officially has no motive, in just one day I’ve lost both my jobs and have loans roving on my head.
A perfect problem to sleep with, I lay on my bed cuddling with the issues I’ve got to deal with tomorrow.
My eyes opened from a knock on the door. Apparently, the pills had done their work well, I didn’t have any nightmares or even if I did, I don’t remember having them.
I opened the door, “Again?” I sighed as I found Luther at my door, he replied with a sigh louder than mine.
“Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat is it?” I yawned loudly.
“Mr. Levi is waiting for you.” I looked around thinking he was there. After what happened last night, I’d be surprised if it were true.
“Please get ready, it’s Saturday and I believe it’s Grey’s holiday too,” He explained, how does he know? Has he himself ever gone to school?
“He’s sleeping, I’ll be back before he wakes up.” I cut him off in between.
“No problem, I’ll pick him up in my arms.” It’s gonna be a long day but considering Jamie is there, it’s gonna be fine.
I left and was offered a chair while Grey was still sleeping in his arms, like a cocoon with no worries.
“Your boss’ name is Levi, why did he introduce himself as Ford?” I asked looking at Luther.
“That’s his surname…”
“Levi Ford? Sounds about right, shit!!” I smirked insulting the bastard.
“No, Levi Rutherford.” He took all my happiness away since it sounded like a cool name, much better than ‘Grace Rue’ at least.
Luther put him to bed in a certain room and got busy with his work. I was directly escorted to Levi’s office and he entered not long after.
“Sign these papers…” He threw a bunch of files in front of me without even meeting my eyes.
Uneasiness was sitting on his face just as mine and I questioned.
“What are these?” I enquired reading them, he did clear off all my debt but it doesn’t matter since I still have the same amount of loan on my head.
“You must give me 100,000 dollars before the 28th.” He seemed proud of himself.
“Is that it?” I was dumb to say this, where am I going to find this much amount of money? Pride is a fucking fucked up thing.
But when I remember the night, I shatter into a zillionth pieces. His touch, his hands, his breath… my nightmares.
“If you’ve signed, you’re free to go.” I noticed he was avoiding eye contact with me. He didn’t look at me for once ever since he entered this room.
“I’ll wire it to you, okay then, let’s never see each other again.” I stood up but soon stumbled to a halt as he started speaking.
“Did you not read it carefully or are you acting dumb?” He growled and I spun on my heel to look at him.
“Only cash is acceptable.” He pointed the document out once again. He was purposely making my life hard.
“If you fail, come to suck it as written in the document.” He stood up leaving, how pathetic. I peered down at the floor; how could I miss a huge detail like this?
I’ve even signed the document… what am I supposed to do? I gulped walking outside with fearful steps.
“He’s gonna make it worse than this, just accept it already.” I heard Jamie’s voice, “He’s always been like this. He’ll do anything to convince you, trust me.”
She pursed her lips together showing gratitude as she understands me but, no one does. They pretend like they feel what I’m going through- “I understand.” She sympathized.
“If I show you even an essence of my mind, you’ll be traumatized for life.” I had no reason to hurt her but, I couldn’t hold it in anymore.
. . .
It’s going to be the 28th soon, the money I had is now gone for my brother’s dues and I'm wholly broke.
I go to the bar but don’t get a single client, it’s all his doing. I tried applying for several jobs but couldn’t get into any.
I knew it was his doing too, he was behind everything, with many more sleepless nights and jobless days, a month passed on a whim even though I was counting the days.
He won. I lost. I don’t have a single penny on me but a huge mortgage of $100,000. I smiled looking at myself in the mirror.
How cruel life is, the more I try to hold on, the slippery it gets. I got ready wearing my clothes and dropped my brother at school leading to Levi’s house.
“I choose peaceful slavery!!” I exclaimed removing my coat and stood before him.
“Ms. Grace---” I stormed inside Levi’s office as his secretary Jamie tried to stop me. If I stop now, I won’t have the courage to say it anymore. “I choose peaceful slavery.” I dropped my coat dead on the ground and sauntered toward him. My eyes wandered around the room and saw two people sitting in front of him. I flinched moving backward. They looked at me in an eccentric way, I swallowed a large lump in my throat and saw Levi chuckling from the corner of his mouth. Why did I have to be that aggressive? Fuck me… I cussed at myself knowing how disconcerting it was. Levi stood up from his seat and picked my coat up. “Little bird, meet Mr. and Mrs. Rutherford.” He introduced them, wait… his parents? I bowed gently and felt goosebumps all over. Their reaction quickly altered from a bizarre face to a massive smile. “Ah!! Grace…” His mother rushed in my direction taking me away from him. “I was just telling them when I first met you…” Why is he telling them that? But wait… our firs
I’m the big sister, I wish I could be better at it. Levi’s men had arrived to pick us up and we left. Grey was all the way talking to Luther and he seemed happy. It’s good otherwise I would’ve blamed myself for ruining my brother’s childhood. I still won’t compromise with it even though I’m stuffed with the debt. “Boyfriend uncle!!!” My brother shrieked with happiness as soon as his eyes landed on him. Levi picked him up in his arms and his men started logging my suitcases off. I took a deep breath before walking inside my hell for an indefinite expanse of time, we directly walked toward Grey’s room. A room filled with toys and cars, my eyes looking at the sparkle Grey was shedding. I realized how selfish I was. Thinking I’m providing my brother with everything, I was doing nothing at all. There were so many things he still hasn’t seen. “Grey, go to sleep, we’ll play tomorrow.” I ordered, and surprisingly he listened to me. I mouthed a ‘thank you’ to Jamie and she smiled back. W
Grace-He closed the door making a loud sound and thumped my body on his bed. Loosening his tie, he got on top of me.I’m too sober for this, I need alcohol before my demons come back rushing in. I gulped in nervousness as he grew closer.If he asked me, that if I wanted to do this, I couldn’t have said no because that’s how much my body was craving for it.And not just that, I can’t even say ‘no’. That document was well-thought, poor people like me get played just like this in the hands of rich ones.“Strip!!” he sat down on the bed, I swallowed in nervousness and got up from the bed. I removed a layer of my clothing, then another and then another.I stood before him. I’ve never felt so naked in my career of working as a prostitute before, he grabbed my hand and took my hairband off letting all my hair fall down.He ruffled his fingers through them and hissed loudly.“Nobody knows how dangerous you are until they see you how you are now, naked, messed hair, incredibly persuasive and
Grace-I woke up running outside his room, I can’t believe it, so fucking embarrassing. Last night, I barged inside his room like I’d conquer the world.What did I do? I slept on his lap; this wasn’t the first time I got drunk but this definitely was the first time I slept after turning someone on.“Grace… stop.” Levi was following me; I know he’s making fun of me deep inside. A prostitute who isn’t even good at her job.“You can add $10,000 more if that’s what you’re worried about.” I face-palmed him with my hands.“Did you have a good sleep?” he snickered at my face, my eyes glaring to grope his neck in my hands and press that god damn button of his life.“No… but seriously, you slept well, Angel?” I started leaving when he suddenly wrapped his hands on me, my heart skipped a beat, again. He’s been doing this ever since I met him.Someone as broken as me, an angel? He placed his chin on my shoulder, breathing away the tension, passing it on to me.“I’m counting it as sex too…” I rep
Grace- ‘My love’‘My love’‘My love’ His voice stuck inside my head, “I’m n---not that w--- weak girl anymore…” I stood my ground. “You sure?” he snickered, his hands on my waist, my body shivering, my past came running through and stabbed me deep inside, his hands on my breasts. “I hate how I couldn’t be the first one to fuck you, I’m sick of being second!!” he grunted squeezing them, my eyes battled and I saw his veins pop out. “You’re n---not even last on my list!!” I shrieked biting his neck, he groaned placing his hand on the wound, I spat his blood from my mouth. He grabbed my hair throwing me towards his desk, “Five years of wait… and this is what I get?” he growled, my brain was shutting down, I was shutting it down because I didn’t want to be alive to see this happen to myself again. If only I could stop my heartbeat, did I survive through all that just to get back from where it started? No, I’m NOT that same girl anymore… I kicked him in the gut, he didn’t budge. “I
Grace- “…ace” I heard.“Grace” I heard and slowly opened my eyes. His worried eyes on me, his hands on mine, I sprung up from the bed. “Ughhh!” I groaned hitting a nerve suddenly, I found bandages on my head, “Careful.” Jamie uttered, Levi’s hands still in mine. Where were these hands when he was abusing me? I jerked them off of mine, my hands red with the scratches I made. He wasn’t saying anything, the doctor must've told me that I’ve had sexual intercourse recently, he’s planning to throw me outside with hell lot of a loan on my head. I tried to stand up however, found the IV drip on my other hand, “Careful dear…” Jamie gasped but I was still looking at him. ‘Say something’, I said to myself looking at his eyes. He looked the other way immediately, “I need to go see my brother, ask the doctor to remove it.” I grunted not wanting to bleed all over again. “Jamie… out!!!” he finally chose to speak, his secretary left quickly, the room filled with our silence. “You want to go t
Grace- I had to do something, “Levi, m---my head!!” I acted. A pathetic human like me, I tried to fool him, I fell on the ground, just to take away his attention from my phone, and I collapsed. “Grace…” he exclaimed and quickly picked me up in his arms, my eyes were closed but I was breathing, “Grace?” he called my name out, and I ignored him, “Doctor!!” he yelled. I don’t how I was surviving but felt like opening my eyes would ruin my world, I lay down like I’m not even alive, stiff like an iron rod. “What happened to her?” Jamie asked, "Hmmm..." the doctor replied. I couldn’t hear Levi’s voice, is he not here? Is he checking my phone? I opened my eyes abruptly, “Oh! You up?” the doctor exclaimed with joy, “I acted, dumbass!!” I got up running outside to see where he was. I checked his office, empty. I went into his room, empty. I even went to the training room, but he wasn’t there. Where is he? Has he gone to see Archie? Why would he do that? Maybe, because he sle
Grace- I’m still locked in that dark room, I wake up, I faint and then I wake up again, I don’t know if it’s day outside or night. I don’t know if the calendar moved or not, I kept on whimpering with fear until my nerves broke down and it all came back as it happened yesterday. Where is he? Why is he doing this to me? What have I done to him for it to turn out this crazy? What is my fault?‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ “What is my fault?” I yelled, trying to break free, let me go. I cried, and my eyes finally gave up pretending to be strong, they broke into tears. My eyelids tried to collect the water because this is what they know, this is what I taught them, ‘Hold it in’. but now they didn’t listen, because my soul was breaking. I feel like nothing could break me, but ever since I met him, even the smallest things are causing me huge ruins. “Let me… go.” I sniffled, hanging on the bed, at least turn the light on. I sobbed.