Chapter forty eight

I look up at the mention of my name and find Herman kneeling in front of me. The crease on his forehead told me he was worried even before I looked into his eyes and saw a pained expression in them. Is he feeling the way I'm feeling?

The thought tags at my heart strings and a sob escapes my lips, like a cough. "Hey," he came closer and pulled me into him.

"Herman I can't," I sob into the crook of his neck and let all I want to say come out.

"What is the problem?" That simple question sent my mouth into the release of a bunch of frenzied words that somehow didn't make any sense. "Did you take alcohol?" He asked after I was done blabbering nonsense and he looked down at me after pulling away.

"Forget about the alcohol...why don't you want to fuck me? Is it because of Shantels that you don't even want to touch me?" His brows furrowed.

"Thea, that's what I want to do in this whole world and it's not because of anyone."

"Then why hav