Chapter 76

Lucy's pov;

After Daniel left, I walked for a while without knowing where I was going and ended up on a beach. It was deserted so I sat down on the sand. The waves came close to me and I could hear them hitting the shore but were blocked by water.

I felt like I didn't want to cry, or cry, or think about what had happened. I didn't feel like thinking, not really. my head was too full with all of the things that i had just done and said and thought. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to cry at all so I tried to stop myself from crying and I was unsuccessful. Instead, I let go of all the tears that had been inside of me. It was a long process. There was nothing else I could do to stop it. Eventually, all of the sadness came out in streams of tears that ran down my face and I looked into the ocean, hoping that I would see something there. but all i saw was a lot more saltwater and some rocks. no life. just sea and salt and me sitting on this beach, wishing for something better and not being