I could be saying hi and asking about life right now ,but no, I'll just get straight to the point.
Throughout all these years, I've gone through the worst of things in my life, adding that incident with you and your friends or accomplices as I'd prefer calling them. I've done all I could to erase that part of my life, I've failed, failed until I could rise upon that memory and situation, I have to say thank you to Connor for that big part.
Seeing you again after so long, brought so much back , especially the fear I had each time I'd be consumed by the nightmares, looking back now, I realize that seeing you again, might have had me fearing for my life, yet finally facing my fears and past.
I don't want you to apologise anymore, I don't need that so I have a peace of mind, expressing myself this way is a start for me to look into the future. I forgiv
18 years old.Today's my birthday and already I've been bombarded by birthday wishes from my mom and everyone else, when I mean everyone else , it includes Fiona and Candy, who's presents I've received early in the morning, including their phone numbers, email addresses and social media contacts.I swear when they got the news of me finally having a phone, it was like I won a million dollars or something, they were already making plans for updating me on the 21 century, and me being out there, though I've warned them countless times to not even dare try.I can't believe I've finally reached this age and am able to make enough decisions of my life, not that I will go clubbing and acting wild ,no, but being this age shows that I've grown and that my mom, might start viewing me more as a young woman than her baby girl.Looking ahead at the ocean and admiring it , as the sun takes its place, just the sou
Beating hard. That's what my heart is doing right now. Now I can't guarantee that it will stop anytime soon, all because today is the day, where I'll be determined whether I am ready to go home or not.After 2 months of being away from home and staying at the Everson Love for all home, I , for the first time, in a long time, I am quite not sure of how things will be this time.This is the 3rd time now that I've been at this place. The Everson Love for all home. This is a place of recovery , I speak for the depressed, the suicidal, those in need to be heard and helped. Being me, I've dealt with alot and have been helped with most, yet still here I am, for the third time.For the most part of my life, I've not known much of that emotion or feeling rather, called happiness.It's not that I'm a miserable person but what gets thrown at me or what I usually endure at most, is the very same reaso
Only 3 more days until I'm out of here and like I'd hoped, I might actually spend my summer at home this time.The first time I'd been admitted here, was during Summer and I had the same reaction as the boy from yesterday. Anger, frustration and much more was within me, believing that my mom was ditching me for a solo life and for her life to become easier. Time passed and I started to see things differently, I realised by me being away, my mom got lonely.This resulted to her searching for attention elsewhere and gosh, what poor choices she made.Talking about that boy from yesterday, like I'd thought, he was part of the newbies. He wasn't a happy guy, well who is when their parent sends them to a recovery center, identifying that you have a problem when you believe other wise.After that small moment I had with him, more like a mistake, I never saw him again, even through supper he never showed. I
My patience is wearing thin with how long he's been holding out on me, we have remained in silence for quite a while now and that makes me want him to leave soon." So , titanic huh?" Okay, definetly not what I expected but I'll take what I can get , rather then this torturous silence.All I do is frown at him but that doesn't seem to affect him the slightest." So, not a big fan of it?" He tries again." No." I say quickly." Why not?" He is stalling, of course he is." Too sad."Before he can even say anything else, I blurt out the same question in frustration." Why are you in my room?"" Needed an escape from that suffocating room." He says, making my frown to deepen." All rooms are the same, so I see no difference in you coming here." I point out.He keeps silent, movi
Puzzle pieces are splattered all in front of me and I've got 5 pieces stuck in together. This is the slowest I've gone and that sucks, since I love puzzles and of course I'm not feeling it.Tonight is game night and thank goodness we aren't doing those group games, I definetly would have sucked as a game partner.My arm outstretches on the table, to take a piece which I believe is the right one and once my fingers enclose around it, a shadow blocks my view. My eyes rise from my hand to what's in front of me, more like who is in front of me. I'm instantly struck by emereld green eyes which are looking down at me.He reaches out his hand to touch mine and out of instinct, I jerk my hand away from him, resulting to me dropping my puzzle piece.With this reaction, his brows pull closely together and that only makes me want to disappear. With no invitation whatsoever, he pulls out a chair from the opposit
Brown curly hair, black eyes and coloured skin, that's me, a girl with a tiny body from bony to inches of improvement, I'm mixed race with my mom black and my dad Caucasian.I was always a slender but never bigger, only got smaller until my bones showed, all because of me being locked up in a cage and almost, and I mean almost reaching a place of no return.Things happen and people change, well it depends on what form of change it is, whether it's good or bad, drastic or over exaggerated and if it's deadly or not. In my life, I've had good things happen in my life but only a few, most of the things had either been bad or negative. It was usually caused by the people who came into my life, took whatever they wanted and left me to put myself back together again.Things would seem okay for a while and I'd reach that moment of hope, for my life to turn out good, but fate had other plans for me when it was no more people
" You're up quite early today." Vicky comments." I'm always early." I say, busy trying to fix up my hair while staring out the window.We remain in silence for a while and after tying my hair up, I turn to face her. She's sitting on my bed, doing nothing but just staring at me." Only one more day left." She says." One more day." I agree.With the silence stretching between us, I go back to sitting on my bed and lean against the wall, now facing her. She shifts a bit so she's now facing me and all we do is keep on passing looks to each other, as if both of us are waiting for each one to say something first." I heard from a little birdie that you had company last night."Patrick.Honestly I'm not really surprised she asked this, because with Vicky, she can't help but want to know things that may concern me. By this, it is
Nothing could have prepared me for this, being on the rooftop with a guy I barely know.I mean why did he bring me here, wait, he doesn't want to murder me does he?Looking around, I notice the small green house, having been placed right at the center, along with benches, pot plants etc.Wow someone has been busy. I'm greatly in awe of the view that one is able to see from up here." Cool right?" He says while he moves about.I don't say anything but just look around before I decide to take a seat on the bench, so I can actually take this all in." Wow." I say to myself." Wow indeed." My head whips to Connor who is now taking a seat next to me." How did you -"" I have my ways." He says confidently." We shouldn't be here." I remind him." I know