Hold onto my sanity

"Sweetie?" Aunt Rachel rushed forward and gently grabbed my shoulders as she stared at me worriedly. "Hey, Sweetie, are you alright?"

I couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak. All I could do was sit there and stare straight ahead blankly, tears slowly running down my face as I tried to catch my breath.

"Sweetie?"

The name slipped past my lips like a whisper as my body continued to shiver uncontrollably. I wanted so badly to cry out in agony, but nothing came out of my mouth.

No words or cries escaped me. Instead I continued to stare forward blankly, my hands clutching desperately at my chest. I felt my aunt shake me slightly as she whispered words of reassurance to me.

I looked at her sadly, watching as her face contorted in anger as she held back her tears. I couldn't remember the last time I saw her crying.

She always seemed so composed. Now she was shaking violently and her hands were firmly pressed against her eyes to try and stop herself from crying.

I wanted to comfort her, but I