Holding my breath to see what Immi does.
Cody It’s been a week and I feel like I am losing my mind, my heart is hanging down by my feet. Every fibre of my body and mind misses Immi. Her sweet lips, her legs wrapped around me, her smile, the way she soothes me and makes me feel like I am a whole man. A better man. I feel as if my entire life is crumbling. AGAIN. The house around me feels empty, desolate. “You need to get out of this funk, Bro. It’s not good for you and what about packing your shit up for Dallas?” Atlas had asked yesterday when he came over to check on me. “I’m on it.” I told him. Only of course I’m not on anything. I have been moping around all week, barely changing out of my sweats or my old college T-shirt. Showering has been an effort and all I have done is eat total crap, which left me feeling guilty since Immi was the one brought in originally to sort my nutrition and diet out and now, I’ve been feeding myself with takeaway pizza and ice cream, purely so I don’t have to leave the house. The paps haven
Imogen“I hope you’re not moping around, Immi.” Autumn says sternly over the phone. This has been another one of those longest weeks in history. The restaurant has thankfully been busy every night, many of the local folk have come in to support me, my mom is rushed off her feet with baking all the deserts, and she is loving it. Even Kitten seems to have grown. He’s been missing Cody just as much as I have.The other morning, I caught him sitting by the front door, his tiny face tilted upward, it broke my heart. I cuddle him into my lap as Autumn talks.“I’ve been busy with the restaurant, at night I am so exhausted, I literally just fall asleep with Kitten. If moping had time, I’d be there with it but right now the restaurant is consuming me. I guess it’s on the map, I just hope it doesn’t trail off in a week or two, you know once the novelty has worn off.” I sigh. Kitten purrs against my chest, I bend down and kiss his tiny button nose.“Good. Listen, Cody flies to Dallas next week d
CodyAnother two weeks have passed, it is moving day, and my heart literally feels like it is having palpitations, I can’t catch my breath and I know I am having massive anxiety. Not having seen Imogen I have sent her another message.Darlin’ I have to fly in three hours, can I come by the restaurant to see you. I’ll be gone for four weeks; we have a friendly game in Vegas in a week’s time followed by another friendly in Jackson. Then I can come back for Thanksgiving for a few days. I miss you darlin’ like no tomorrow, my heart can’t take it.Do I send it or delete it? If Immi wanted to see me, she’d have told me by now. My sister, Holly has told me that she saw Immi last week at the restaurant when she and her husband went out for dinner and that even though Immi was smiling and greeting customers and mingling, she had a strained, almost forced smile on her face. According to Holly, Imogen looked like she had lost some weight.“Sir, we’re ready for the last boxes can you sign here pl
Chapter 86ImogenI bend forward and place my hands on my thighs, wow I feel kind of out of sorts this morning and not my usual self. Ordinarily, I can fun 5K without even batting an eyelid. Having competed in many half marathons and even a few marathons over the years, a 5K is nothing to me. Only this morning it is getting me. I feel tired, exhausted, you know that all encompassing feel where you just want to lay down and fall asleep. My body aches and my calves feel tight.Maybe it is all the stress and worry, who knows. Instead of running the last trail before I hit Main Street and to the restaurant, I decide to take it easy and walk. First, I do some deep breathing exercises.“You okay?” A male runner stops by me on the trail. I nod.“Yeah, think it’s an off day.”“Okay well if you’re sure you don’t need anything.”“No, thank you anyway. I’m all good. I appreciate you checking on me.”“Of course, no problem.” He jogs off, I’ve seen him a few times now, he’s tall and lanky definite
Cody It feels so final being on the way to the airport. Atlas sits next to me his right leg bouncing up and down. “What’s with the leg, Man?” “Nerves.” “Nerves? What you nervous about, it’s just another team?” “Who knows, but I am. I’ll try to stop it. I bet the airport will be packed out. Why our manager had to let the world know we’d be flying out today is beyond me.” “Exactly.” I feel drained let alone broken hearted, I really hoped that I would see Imogen before I had to leave. It wasn’t to be, I left the flowers on her front door knowing she loves red roses, although tulips are her favorite, only the florist didn’t have any in and if I’d thought of it before, easily I could have found someone who did. I sigh. “She’ll come round, just give her time. No doubt she feels shitty too. By the way her new sous chef started last week. He’s pretty good and has a Michelin star.” Atlas sounds impressed. It’s only cooking right? Why am I feeling intimidated and jealous of a chef. This i
Cody The air stewardess taking care of first class keeps giving me the eye, for sure she knows who I am or at least I am guessing she does. Anyways, apparently anything I want I am to ask her. Only, I don’t want anything, least ways not from her, not like that. Let me tell you how my heart is soaring right now just knowing that Immi came to the airport to see me off. I cannot believe it, I mean honestly it was the best parting gift I could ever possibly imagine. “She’s got it for you.” Atlas grins as he spreads his legs wide. I prefer to lay back and recline my chair. “Tough, I’m spoken for.” “Good to hear it otherwise I’d have to knock you in the face again.” He grins. Secretly, I know he’s pleased it is me dating his kid sister and not some other guy who he doesn’t really know. The time that Immi did date someone in High School, let me tell you, Atlas was a real jerk big brother. He’d drive to her the cinema and the bowling alley and hang around outside waiting for her. If Immi
Cody A black sedan car was waiting for us at the airport, Atlas and I bundled ourselves into it and took in the sights as we were driven from Dallas airport. The landscape is different to what I am used to as we pull out of the terminal and onto the main road. It’s flat at this juncture, I am used to mountain peaks capped from late fall with a dusting of snow, a sight that always catches my breath. “We will be at the destination in thirty minutes.” The driver whose name we now know is Ed, he has worked as a driver for fifteen years having retired from the police force early due to injury and not wanting to go into P.I. work. He also explained to Atlas and I that he prefers the more sociable and less dangerous hours to spend with his grandkids who are three and five respectively. He likes being home for dinner when he can be and loves that he gets to be onboard with the hockey team he has followed for most all of his life. “We will try not to inconvenience you too much, Ed.” Atlas s
ImogenAm I excited to see Cody later on a call? You bet I am. It feels all new and exciting again and I am relieved that I gave myself a good talking to and decided last minute to go see him off at the airport. I couldn’t imagine life without him, I couldn’t imagine never seeing his face again, his chiselled jaw with just enough scruff to make him so damn hot and sexy, or to hear his voice call me darlin’. He has become my life again, it was hard the first time round, and Autumn is right, when she told me on a call that I shouldn’t let Luna come between us.Yes, of course, what Luna did was wrong turning up on opening night like that and causing a scene but Cody has assured me that his people are on it. I just hope that they do not turn it against her because the baby will always need its mother.“I’ve got this if you want to leave early.” Luka tells me with a knowing smile on his face. “I’m pleased you decided to give him another go, Imogen.”“Thanks, Luka. I may take you up on that