"Hey," Shalom says looking back at me. I stare at her not sure what I just heard. Everything in my being wants to demand that she tell me who she was talking with and what the whole conversation was about. I know I heard that guy say my daughter was meant to be his. He woke up a very dark part of me no one want to see.
"Hey," I say walking into the room. I sit at the far end of the sofa. I place my hand on Renee's belly as she breathes in and out slowly.
"How was your day?" She asks after a moment of silence, I can feel her staring at me. I know she's wondering what's going on in my head. The truth is I feel extremely possessive of my family. I don't like the thought of another man imagining himself in my position. I will never let anyone be in my position. This is forever. But at the same time I don't know how to have this conversation with her without letting loose this posesiveness I feel.
"It was good. I was able to knock off early for the
"I have a request," Kane says after our intense conversation about exes. I know he hasn't said anything bad but I know he has emotions about what Thomas said. I can tell he heard the whole conversation and to be honest I would be pissed if someone said those things about my daughter."Yes?" I ask and he kisses Renee's forehead. I look at him and smile at his daughter."I want to take you on a date tomorrow night," He says and I smile. I didn't expect him to say that. I thought he was going to tell me to stop talking to exes. I was sure he was going to start a serious fight. "Please wear a nice dress and shoes and do the makeup thing by eight." He says and I smile nodding. "Okay," I say shyly. "Do I get to know where we're going?" I ask getting excited. This is going to be our first date since having the baby. I am looking forward to having an adult-only night out."Nope." He says plainly and I laugh."I have to know w
"Thank you for dinner" Shalom says sitting across the table from me. "It was amazing." I smile and nod, "You haven't said much tonight. Are we good?" She says leaning in closer. "I've been having thoughts," I say and she raises her brows at me in question. I smile and she smiles back but she doesn't say anything. "I've had thoughts about us," I add and she sits back looking unsure. "About us?" She asks her voice getting lower."Yes," I say and she nods."Is this about Thomas calling me?"She says sighing I shake my head no."It meant nothing, I don't have any feelings toward him." She says ignoring me. "I have no desire to have him in my life. I hate that he said that about our baby." She says rambling on. I reach into my pocket and take out a ring box and she stops talking the instant that box hits the table. "Oh my..." She says her voice getting high. "I imagined this would go differently. I have a whole thing planned so I can ask you more romantically but I'm so nervous." I say an
A few hours ealier. My mother walks into our bedroom and she sits on the settee at the window. I'm getting ready for my date with Kane. I'm doing my makeup at my beauty corner."Hey mommy" I say looking at her in the mirror. "Hey mommy." She says back at me and I smile. She looks so happy in this moment. Her skin is glowing and her eyes have a little sparkle behind them. She is a far cry from the sick and frail woman I remember. I'm happy she's here to see her granddaughter. There was a time I was sure this would never happen. "Thank you for watching the kids for us tonight." I say and she smiles. I don't know if I would have been comfortable to leave tonight if she wasn't watching my kids. I know Junior and Renee are in good hands with her. We have a nanny coming through to do the haevy lifting so that she doesn't have to but I know she has everything in hand. "You don't have to thank me for taking care of my grand babies." She says waving me away. "I've been telling you to go o
"Hi Noni." Mathew says walking into the living room towards Noni who is holding my daughter. He leans down with arms open to take her from Noni and I hold my breath waiting to see how this will go down. These two haven't seen each other since high school and let's just say the last they saw each other it wasn't pretty. Their breakup was painful to watch.I know Nonin had regrets about the way things went between the two of them."What do you think you're doing?" Noni says looking up at him. Mathew smiles looking at her. I guess I should be glad he's smiling and not argueing with her. I don't want my child to be caught in a back an forth between these two."I'm saying hi, to my beautiful niece." He says taking her. Noni resists for a split second but she gives in and Mathew takes her."Well, hurry up and get her back to me. we're not done with our girl time." She says making a face at him. He chuckles not really listening to w
"Did she fight you?" I ask Kane when he comes back from putting the baby down for the night. Having him on nights like this is always a blessing. He takes care of his daughter so beautifully, He gets into bed and wraps his arms around me. I sigh molding my body into his. I breathe in his sent and smile. I love how this man smells. "No. I'm a professional," He says so proud of himself. He's not lying though. Hecan put her to sleep so quickly I just let him do most nights, "How was spending the day with Noni?" He asks burrying his face into my boobs. He loves doing that, especially since my they got bigger. "It was intersting." I say thinking of my conversation with her. I feel like she wanted to say more but she stopped herself. I tried to encourage her to talk about what she felt but she didn't open up to me. "Oh?" He says already sounding sleepy. How does he expect me to fall asleep in this position? He might be comfpratble but I'm not. "Yes. I think she's going through some
"Hi, Shalom!" A very familiar voice says behind me and I turn around and blink a few times trying to clear my vision. I can't not be seeing what I'm seeing. Thomas?I knew leaving the house was a very bad idea, But Mom and Kane were sure it was important that I get out of the house. Breathe in the fresh air and take a break from taking care of the baby. But now here I am staring at my ex in a robe, about to get a massage, with a group of people I don't know. Again my brilliant fiance thought it would be good for me to get a massage. So he booked it and dropped me off here. He Well, I do know one person. My ex!"Hi, Thomas," I say and he smiles. I smile too because it feels weird to just stare and not respond. "It's so good to see you." He says taking a few steps closer to me. He leans in for a hug and I look at him awkwardly not sure if I want to do that. It feels a little awkward. "I didn't think I would see after our last conversation." He says embracing me. "I know what are
"Is that your baby?" He says picking my phone up so he can have a closer look."Yes." I say and he smiles looking at her."She's gorgeous." He says looking at me and then at the picture."Thank you. I had help." I say and he swipes left landing on Kane's picture."I see."He says swiping back to the previous picture. "Is it weird that I don't like him?" He asks and scoffs as soon as the words come out of his mouth."I think you know the answer to that question," I say hating this whole day already. Who's bright idea was it for me to come here in the first place? Oh yeah. My baby daddy."The thing is..." He says and I sigh. I don't know if I want to hear this. I came here to relax, get a few knots out of my body and then go home. I didn't come here for the godown memory lane with my ex package. The worst thing is I'm too nice to tell him to F off. I can't do that to him even though he deserves it."I know he's a gr
Thomas is sitting on the chair next to mine as we get foot massages. I close my eyes and lean back. I refuse to let this day go to waste. I choose to enjoy."So are you happy with him?" Thomas says choosing to take away from joy. "Yes." I say and he sighs making me look at him. "What does that mean?" I ask too shocked to ignore him. "I was hoping you don't like him so much." He says staring at me. "A guy can dream right?" He asks and I sigh."No, you can't" I say and he frowns. "Look, I messed up and...." He says and I raise .my hand to stop him'"I don't want to talk about this with you. There's no point in us rehashing old things." I say speaking softly so the lady doing my feet. doesn't feel uncomfortable. I can't do much about her overhearing but I can make sure she doesn't feel uncomfortable. "Shalom I just want closure." He says and it takes so much for me not to laugh out loud. Closure? Where was closure when he left me brokenhearted? It didn't matter then did it? Now that