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He is leaving right now. I'm still sitting here in my room. My tears had dried. But I dare not to see him before he goes or I'm afraid I will fall apart. He is going away breaking my heart to be with my sister. My whole body had gone numb thinking about it. I know the minute he board flight to Hawai it will be over. What ever unfinished business we had between us will end. What I want to do was hold him so tight and never let go.

The question is why? But I'm afraid of the answer. I know that the first time I ever saw Dane I felt something deep in my chest come alive. It didn't matter to me that I was in a relationship. I didn't care that he was with my sister. I don't know what it was? I didn't even know him then. It was as if he was mine. We barely spoke but I crushed on him. In the lonely nights, my fingers seeked pleasure with his face on mind. Dane was the name that slipped from me when I cried out my release.

Is this madness called love? If yes I will never be cured. The last ti