Chapter 25

I'm no saint. I admit that I already did many sins in my whole existence. I would never denied it, but is it a right and enough reason for me to experience this kind of misery?

I still believe that I don't deserve all this shits. I know that I am not the only one who was harassed like that. May mas malala pa dito, pero hindi naman iyon dapat ikinukumpara sa kung sino ang mas malala at mabigat na karanasan hindi ba?

Maybe this is my Karma? Masasama naman ang mga binubura ko sa mundong ito. But it will be justify what I did? Of course, not. It is a sin. Killing is a sin. No one can justifies what I did.

Kaya baka nga... Tama lang sa akin 'to. Bagay lang sa akin... Kasi, masama naman ako. Demonyo at nagkakasala, kaya't dapat lang sa akin 'to. Mabuti nga.

So... If I will abort the baby or kill myself with her—Will I go to the hell even more?

I stared nonchalantly at the white rectangular pregnancy test that was placed on the sink. Naibato ko iyon