TEN

“Alexa…..”.

I was back in that glass room again, and like always, it took me a moment to pull my thoughts together. I realized I had fallen asleep on the couch and Calan was saying my name. A John Steinbeck from The East of Eden Letters quote came to mind as I cracked my eyes open tiredly…..

‘But I do feel strange-almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. it’s a mystery. Always startled to find I’ve survived’.

I stared up into his eyes, those greys that seemed to turn silver every now and then, that seemed to glow from time to time; I could never get used to their intensity, I could never get used to him being so close, to his face hovering over mine.

“Let’s get you back to bed”. He said.

For a moment I did nothing, just stared up at him tiredly; all the while my heartbeats slowed to a painful pace as my heart and throat begun constricting painfully.

“Why didn’t you come sooner?”. I asked him once more. My voice was barely a whisper.

I just so desperately wanted to kn