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NADINE. “Do not mindlink Xander.” Alpha Maddox said. He just rolled off an Alpha command, and I could do nothing about it. I was not an Alpha heir. I was just a second-born child. But I had been practicing defying Alpha commands for the past year. And my victim? Alpha Zach—my nephew, who was just the same age as me. Zach was already in a terrible place, but I was not one of those who let him get away for being rude. And lately, I’ve been needing him to roll off an Alpha command at me without him noticing. I’d been defying and infuriating him on purpose.It would usually end up with my sister—his mom, Nadia, coming in between us to make him take it back, as I never back down. My nose would bleed, and my head felt like it was about to explode, but it got easier over time. Unlike the first time I tried to defy him where I fainted and was knocked out for many hours. I also had to infuriate Zach, so I had a reason to leave the pack for a long time. And it worked. Zach discharged me fr
XANDER. I drove like a fucking madman so I could come home to Nadine as soon as possible. I didn’t get any sleep or rest as Maddox decided not to take anyone with us, and he wouldn’t drive either.My hands and mind were exhausted, and all I wanted was to rest. If I got lucky, I might be able to persuade Nadine to lie down with me. I just wanted to feel her body and smell her addicting scent. My wolf and I missed her. The moment we entered the territory, I mindlinked her, but her mind was shut off. And so I tried Mindy, but hers was closed as well. I wasn’t worried. I was already here, and I was sure if anything happened, someone from the border had already notified us, but there was no news or anything. I had no idea where they were, but I assumed they were still at Mindy’s apartment. And that’s where I would head after I dropped Maddox. I stopped the vehicle on the packhouse grounds, just below the main entrance steps. I saw Carlotta’s car, which was nothing new. This female was
NADINE. I went directly to my room after I left Maddox’s office. I didn’t close my door, as I was sure Xander would be here after he dealt with his brother. I wiped my lips with my forearm as I entered the bathroom door, walking directly to the sink to wash my face. I wanted to vomit, but nothing was coming out. The man I loathed the most kissed me. I scrubbed my mouth with my coiled fist and kept telling myself I had prepared myself for this. I shouldn’t be upset. Didn’t I use Tristan and have sex with him to get more information? It should be the same. Everything was simply part of the plan. Star growled in my head and flashed me Xander’s furious expression when he entered the office. I felt guilty when I shouldn’t have.Xander was Maddox’s brother. I was hitting two birds with one stone. I should be rejoicing, but I couldn’t. “Tell me, Grandpa…” I talked to myself. “Should I just leave and forget all about this? Two days, and I was already derailed from my track.” I slammed my
NADINE. “You hurt me tonight. And my sanity is just hanging by a thread.” Xander’s voice was so low, but I could feel the agony in it. My heart shattered for him and for the female I had never met. I moved forward with fast strides, and despite his repetitious attempt to stop me, I still ended up in front of him. My arms wrapped around the man who was baring his soul to me. My hand went to the back of his head and pressed it against my stomach. His body was still shaking, and I was hoping he would find comfort in my hold. I leaned my head down and pressed a soft kiss on his head as his arms wrapped around me. “I don’t want to hurt you.” He murmured.“You didn’t hurt me,” I told him.“I punched and kicked Maddox.” He added.I closed my eyes before slowly lowering my body until I was on my knees. I cupped his face and met his eyes before I spoke. “He deserves it.”He didn’t say anything, but he just kept staring at me. “I’m sorry…” I said in a soft voice as my thumbs wiped his tea
XANDER. “It means my body only wants you…” Nadine said in a seductive voice before capturing my mouth for a searing kiss, and my body reacted in the way it always does whenever her lips touched mine. My hold around her tightened before my hand cupped her ass, lifting her off the floor as she wrapped her legs around my waist in a vice grip.There was no doubt her arousal was so potent, and she was right—I didn’t smell this earlier. Nadine kissed me hard, but I tried not to kiss her as hard. I was torn. I still felt guilty for being harsh on her, and I didn’t want to remind her how aggressive I could be. I wanted her to forget that I was a violent man. I didn’t want to cross any of her boundaries. She moaned before she pulled away from my lips, her forehead creasing as she spoke. “You’re not kissing me hard.”“I don’t want to hurt you.”“I want you to kiss me the way you were kissing me before all this.” Her eyes softened before she continued. “I want to feel that you still want me.”
XANDER.“I’m going to fill every part of you that is missing, Xander. If you let me…” Nadine had been overwhelming me with her words. I had no idea what happened, but I found myself telling her things I had never told anyone. Perhaps it was because I expected she would do the same, as until now, my knowledge of her remained limited.She was kissing me tenderly, not the aggressive ones that she had been giving me since day one. For some reason, I didn’t want her to think of me as fragile. But before I could do anything, she gently pulled away and met my eyes.“I’m so happy to be here with you,” she said.“Are you? Is it safe to assume I was already forgiven for the mess I made when you appeared at the border?” I asked.She nodded her head. “I don’t easily forgive and forget, but if I don’t forgive you, my wolf will hate me. Plus, I think I like you already.” A little smile crawled across her mouth, and a scarlet flush was creeping into her cheeks as she said the last part.I felt lik
NADINE. I closed my eyes as I relaxed my shoulders. I was just less than ten kilometers from the nearest border of the Dark Forest Pack, according to the taxi driver that was driving me there. I will see my mate soon. Two weeks ago, I met Xander at the Claiming Ball. But instead of claiming me, he decided to go ahead with the Claiming to help out his Alpha to claim a female, leaving me alone with the promise he would come back for me.I left before he could. I didn’t even know if he really went looking for me. All I knew was that he chose his Alpha over me. He was loyal to him rather than our bond. But in the end, they went home empty-handed. I knew that they were not able to take the female that his Alpha wanted to claim. I should be upset, yet here I was, finding my way to his territory. But I had my reasons. One of them was because I would go into heat tonight at the peak of the full moon. Without my mate beside me, many things could go wrong. I was also hoping that my heat w
NADINE.We arrived at the packhouse, and the first thing my eyes looked for was Mindy. But I didn’t see her or any other females around, and I was directly ushered to a room on the second floor. I knew Xander would never bring me to his room, but I was still disappointed that he didn’t. He didn’t stay with me, not even for a while. He just opened the door, and once I was inside, he left right away.I had been walking back and forth, contemplating whether I should go down and introduce myself to anyone I would meet and, at the same time, try to find out who Mindy was when I smelled Xander. And then a knock came on my door. Even if I didn’t want to, my body jerked up, and a smile curled on my lips. I couldn't deny that I was excited to see him again. “Hi!” I greeted him as soon as I opened the door. My shoulders relaxed when I saw him alone. “Can I come in?” He asked. His deep, baritone voice sent shivers down my spine. I didn’t reply, but I opened the door wider. He stepped in an