Chapter 40

I miss you,” I whisper between kisses. Then I look up at him, and my pulse quickens as I wait for him to answer.

A cocky smile spreads across his face. “Course you do. You can’t get enough of me.”

I stiffen. I come over here in the middle of the night against my better judgment, and he’s joking around like it’s nothing? Is everything a joke to him? I stand up straight and try to push him away, but he doesn’t let me. His voice gets serious as he says, “I miss you, too. You know I do. I . . . I just don’t know how to act. Everything’s so f**ked up.”

I sigh. “I wish . . .” I stop, and Leonid pushes my hair out of my eyes.

“Your hair’s wet.”

“I just had a bath,” I say, and he nods.

“What were you going to say?” he asks me. “What do you wish?”

“I wish it didn’t have to be like this. It’s so . . . complicated.” More than Leonid even knows. “We haven’t talked about Rennie once.”

He looks down at the ground. “I don’t want to talk about Rennie right now.”

I’m about to say, If not now, then whe