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Obviously Cillian went absolutely apeshit on me when we arrived back at the war front. It was nice to see everyone for sure, but I could have done without my childhood friend barely restraining himself from ripping me to shreds.Umbridled Alpha authority oozed from every pore. I knew his claws were on the verge of extending, his fingers twitching as he interrogated everyone. Those blue eyes of his frighteningly icy, topped with his wild red hair made a hell of a sight.I got to hear Briss, Finn, and Sawyer debrief Alpha Cillian first. That left waiting outside like a naughty schoolboy. It also helped to steady my nerves before I took my sad little turn inside the headquarters of fury. The green khaki tent filled with maps, reports and letters bristled in the wind, and the power of Cillian’s roar.“WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK WERE YOU DOING!”Stood in his tent, fully aware that the material hid absolutely none of our conversation from the men a dozen trees away I didn’t even try to claim in
Three months have passed and I am not a single step closer to Phillipe. Not one iota. Three months! If the barn in Wodness Brook had been rustic, I'd swap in a heartbeat now. Home is an old servants room. It has a bathroom at least. I made sure to complain loudly about the room when guards were near, just so they thought I was still a selfish wretch. That stopped once morning sickness rendered me capable of nothing more than dry heaving. It was largely just retching but this morning there was no disguising I had been unwell. The bushy eyebrowed doctor is my only visitor. Never on his own. Always flanked by at least two guards. They either carry silver-tipped machetes or crossbows. Angry, glaring men. The scariest part is their irises flickering between multiple colours. Hybrids are unstable. They can flip and kill because the human vessel is not strong enough to handle a stronger wolf than the Goddess planned for them. Not that I trust him, but the Doctor still appears to be m
Whoever said time is a healer was a lying son of a bitch. I get through the days fine enough. I prepare defences with Finn, Tucker and Hayden. The latter is trying to convince me my own sprawling tattoo art would help me deal with losing Franz. Considering he's absolutely drowning in ink, what kind of life has he had before joining the Shadowlands Warriors? I cut down and split trees for firewood until my muscles scream. Then like a glutton for punishment, I listen to Easton talk for hours on end. Literally hours. I do everything and anything Cillian asks of me.There was a brief moment of respite when I pinned the blonde Beta Adrian to the floor by his throat. With Alpha Cillian looming in the background he spluttered and panicked for his life. “I only read your letter because it came from Maddox!”“You didn’t trust Maddox?”“NIkolai took him off duty! If Nikolai doesn’t trust him, I don’t trust him! It’s nothing personal!”“You didn’t open anything else?”“Never! No! I thought I w
“I have things to discuss with the mother of our pack’s heir.” Those words sent a chill through my body. It has taken Imogen so long to get me ready that it is almost dusk. It feels like the middle of the night as the predicted thunderstorms crash across the skies. The huge, echoing ballroom has no windows to see the lightning flashes but the thunder rumbles deep enough to make the empty bottles on the floor dance with the vibrations. “Of course. I am almost halfway through-” “Why didn’t you tell me?” He spat, uninterested in my information. He pushed the floppy, greasy white hair from his face. “How could you be so stupid as to take the future heir of this pack away from their father!” “I was upset. I didn’t think you cared for me anymore.” “Upset! This is a war! Your fucking hormones are not relevant!” /This isn’t going well/ Livi offered, /we need to flatter him, make him feel so special./ So I kept quiet. Allowed him to stew in his own thoughts all the while looking like a
The storm beat me back to Cillian. The whole camp was on edge, knowing the thunder and rain meant more than any other storm. They’ve all been briefed. The air is thick, and conversations only half-completed. Standing on guard in a soaking tent isn’t much fun but I didn’t even care. The autumn chill sees us wearing our long green shirts and black pants. The cover above leaks. The vicious wind flaps it, flinging water to the ground. The lightning flashes like whip cracks, tearing open the sky above. I’m hoping that won’t matter after a few more days. A strange kind of high consumes me. I know Freya is alive. I play images of bursting through those Rising Star double doors and finding her. I want to sweep her into my arms and see her eyes blaze with ferocious color. I imagine placing my hand on her rounded stomach and a strange fluttering consumes my belly. I need to tell her that even though I briefly knew the sensations of a matebond my heart never left her. I was always hers if she
This is not a good time to find out I am totally full of shit. I’m not the brave, daring Freya who can kill her own mate. I’m not my mother fearlessly taking on anyone who might dare cause her trouble. “Prove it,” he had growled. Prove I love him by accepting whatever degrading plan he has for my body. I’m terrified. Shaking, to the very core. I haven’t slept since returning to my room. Each hour that passes by has me pacing the floor. The awful pink silk dress was immediately discarded, the golden ornaments flung onto the table. My skin itched and burned. The image of the poor Beta being murdered, purely for hearing a vulnerability in his Alpha was just further proof that the man I considered my soulmate was long gone. What remains? Merely a husk of a man, driven by his purple-eyed wolf to commit atrocities in the name of obsession. /There is still a chance for Asgard to save us yet. To talk to Phillipe/ Livi murmurs but her words are hollow. The only way to bring down my heartbea
The whooping and back-slapping soon died down once we started working our way through into enemy territory. Thick mud slowed our progress. “We could just shift you know,” Sawyer groaned as we hauled him out of yet another quagmire. He was still tetchy about his precious white-blonde hair getting dirtied earlier. “We shift we lose the element of surprise. Stronger scent and making yourself three times bigger isn’t what we need right now,” I reply. Then raising an eyebrow, “Unless you want to rake about the castle naked?” “Might do when we’ve won,” Easton chipped in. “Might run from end to end of each of those five wings with my dick out for the hell of it.” “Hell yeah, “ Finn laughed quietly, “They’ll soon forget the Hybrids when they see your monster flopping about,” and all of us chuckled. “Better not get mine out or the locals will fetch pitchforks,” Tucker boasted, unable to help himself as his huge black plaits swished. “I think you mean binoculars Tucker,” I joined in, get
Freya has taken my breath away a fair few times. This one rocked me to my bones. My beautiful girl stands statue-like in the centre of the room with her back to me. Hidden by shadows, her chocolate curls tumble down past her shoulders, a tattered, shitty pink silk slip barely covering her. The only part of her moving were her trembling, furled hands as they gripped the hem of the slip by her hips. On the floor lies Phillipe. Not moving and getting greyer every second. Lighting the room was the dull, reddish glow of the blood moon. I scramble to my feet and fumblingly try to understand the darkly frozen scene before me. Snapping back into life Freya quickly takes off the ring and throws it down onto his lifeless body before breathing quickly, so rapid and ragged she might be falling into a panic attack.. /Softly, remember how we hurt Finn./ “Freya, I’m here.” “I know,” she whispered back, her voice breaking. “Don’t look at me,” Slowly I take another step forward but the crunching