A few days have passed after that tragic day. Tania was dead and she never left the infinite cold and darkness of the crystal lake. You could say that she was free from this world just as she wished for, hidden in the deep, far away from everything she hated in this life..
Nobody said anything about her, you could say that in just a few days her memory was completely erased. Not even a ceremony. Tania received nothing from her own pack as she left this world.
The only soul that was crying for her was Sarah. In her room she was just sitting curled up like a little girl and she was crying for her mother. But she didn’t shed tears , her soul was crying for several days. She couldn’t forget her words, but more than that what was hunting her memories was that last look her mother gave her.
Was this place so close to hell that she chose to die like that?
Sarah just lives again and again that moments and more and more questions arise in her head.
"I trust you, mom!" she said and right then Tania started to drag her in the crystal lake.
"Mom?" she asked her panicking "What are you doing?" and she tried to stop her but she was not a match for Tania.
"Trust your, mother please. This will make us free. They will never be able to hurt us again."
"Mom, no... please" she remembers saying.
"List to me Sarah" her mother says stopping for one moment “They will never let you go! They will use you again and again, because you are just like me. You must die today. You and me together. Let's be free and escape from all of this!" and she pulled her in deep waters.
"Mom, I can't swim!" Sarah cried but Tania put her with her head under the water and sank with her, but in the last minute seeing the desperation from Sarah's eyes she push her to the surface, while she let herself to be driven to the deep. The last thing she remembers is her mother look, her calm face while she was sinking, and her last words" I finally am free."
She doesn't remembers anything from that point, just waking up in a hospital room with a lot of IVs in her arms while the doctors where taking her blood. Nothing else.
Nobody said" I am sorry for your lost!". Nobody asked her if she needs anything.
In the last few days she has relived that day again and again. Asking herself a lot of thing.
In her mother's last minutes of life she never felt so close to her. And this is what is making her cry even more, because she found the way to her mother's heart just to lose her forever. Even for a few seconds, because that was all she got, but she knows that her mother cared about her.
And as she was mourning her deceased mother someone knocked at the door.
She composed herself thinking that is one of his father omegas, who delivered meals every day.
And trying to make her voice sound normal, so that she would not alarm the omega she just said, fearing that Omega thought she was on a hunger strike. She just doesn't want to make her father come here and force her to eat.
“Can you leave the food at the door, please. I promise that I will eat it later.” and she turned with her back to the door, taking a deep breath and waiting for the person behind the door to leave, but someone pushed the door and came in, making her jump from her seat.
“Hey,” Patrick said, poking his head out the door “May I come in?”
“Of course you can!” Sarah said, smiling sadly at him, while she is pulling her sleeves over her fists subconsciously . She covers her pin and needle marks with her clothes, because she doesn’t want Patrick to worry about her. Nobody needs to know that she is donating blood for her sister.
“I heard what happened” and he just came near her and took her in a embrace. “I am so sorry for your loss, princess!” Patrick said, caressing her back while he held her.
Sarah didn’t say anything, she just stood there in his embrace and for the first time she felt that tears reached the surface, moistening her eyes with water.
Patrick feels her shivering a little in his arms and lifts her chin , looking in her moister eye. And his heart flinched seeing her so pale and sad.
He took his finger and wiped away the tears that started to flow over her delicate face. Incessant tears, which were kept hidden until now, because Sarah couldn't find a way to make them come out. She cried in her heart and stressed for days, but now is the first time she is able to cry for real for what happened.
“Everything will be alright, princess,” he whispered to her. “Life goes on. I know that what happened was absurd and spontaneous, but you have to move on.”
“I have no reason to move on, Patrick,” she said, drowning herself in her own tears.
“I know that is hard, but you must find a way to move on” and he just stays there and looks at her pitiful look.
“She cared about me , Patrick,” Sarah said.
“Of course she did, she was your mother.” he starts but he stops because she cries even harder hearing him.
“She never showed me that she loves me,” Sarah said. “She always avoided me and made me feel unwanted but in the end she was sincere on the edge between life and death and she let her true emotions out.”
Sarah looked into Patrick's eyes and said.
“Just before she died she looked me in the eye” and she wiped her nose. ”She looked me in my eyes and that look went deep down to my soul. For the first time in my life I just looked at her and understood her. Her struggles, her pain, her strange way to love me.”
And Sarah stays silent for a few seconds looking down.
“Everything was there, Patrick, Right before my eyes and all I could think was that I found everything just to lose her forever.”
And this time breaks down crying so hard that she scares Patrick.
“Everything will be alright!” Patrick repeats and this time he holds her at his chest, supporting her because he is afraid that she will faint from so much crying.
“It won't,” Sarah said.
“She was the only person that ever cared about me. No one will love me in the future. Don’t you get it? I am just the bastard of this family, of this pack!”
“Shit!” Patrick said to his wolf. “What am I going to do with her, Bart?” and he feels his heart in pain seeing her like this.
She is just an eighteen years old girl who has had a lot of drama in her life, who should be happy and run and have fun with other girls her age, but she just stays here and cries. And the worst thing is that she has all the reasons in the universe to do it. She does not sound like a whiny brat and acts like this for the circus, she is just too depressed.
“Just hold her, Patrick!” Bart, his wolf said. “Just be there for her!”
He touched her face and wiped her tears and lifted her chin a little, just to be able to look into her brown eyes, that melted his heart.
He just stayed there, and watched her and when he felt that she calmed a little he whispered:
“Someone will love you” and he just felt heartbroken .
Sarah lifts her gaze and from his embrace she looked into his eyes and she had the expression of a little girl who didn't know what was happening to her. But Patrick didn't know either...They just stood there and they looked at each other but she still can't forget her mother.
She closed her eyes and again the image of her mother being take to the deeps appeared as a flashback and she can't wonder herself:
""Is that going to be you?"
They stood embraced for minutes, just looking in each other's eyes, without being able to utter a single word. It was like time stopped for them.And right then the door opened making them startle and both of them made a step back.“What’s going on here?” Mark Thompson, Sarah's brother asked looking at their troubled looks, but he turns his gaze from them and signals to a doctor to come into Sarah's room.“Is she disturbing you?” Mark asked Patrick, throwing an ugly look to Sarah.“No, we were just talking and I saw her sad. That's all, she didn’t do anything inappropriate.” and he looks at Sarah and gives her a soft and polite smile, totally different from that he gave her when they were alone.“I talked with my father” Mark said “ And he agreed to..” but hearing him Patrick stops him without a second thought and just signals him to keep his mouth closed.“You will tell me about this when we will be in the conference room with the other, now is not the place and the time to talk abou
“Where the fuck is he?” Pete Thompson , the alpha of the Blood Moon Pack and Sarah’s father, asked looking at his watch. “He is doing this on purpose, I'm sure !”“Calm down , father,” Mark said, seeing him so agitated and thinking that he's going to explode a blood vein soon. “He said that he will come. Let him be! If he is a fucking royal ass it doesn’t mean that I should stay straight waiting for him.”“Are you sick on your head, Mark?” Pete Thompson asked him a little bit furious. “This is a big chance for us. Your sister will be the next queen and we will become even more powerful than anything you've ever seen. So don’t tell me to calm down.” and he would want to say a lot of things to Mark, to put his minds back in his head, but right then the door opens and Patrick comes in.“Your Royal Highness, I am glad that you made it!” and he bows a little, shocking Mark.“What fuck?” he said in his mind looking at his father acting.“I had some business but I here now” Patrick said look
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She stood there for hours, in her chair , with her eyes closed and holding her mother's necklace. Calm and cold as if this was not happening.This is the way Patrick found her when he came back to her room.“Hey!” he whispered .”Why are you staying here alone when outside the sun is so warm?”Sarah opened her eyes and smiled at him, but not as she was doing on a normal day. She forced herself to look like she would not die today.Why make Patrick sad ? Just as that Bible verse said “ Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. (Matthew 6:25-34)”It’s enough that she feels like shit, he doesn’t deserve to feel as well.“You didn’t leave back to your pack yet?” she asked him and stood on her feet.“No, I will go there tomorrow, but today I wanted to stay a little bit more with you.” Patrick said.“ Would you accompany me to the forest this afternoon?” and he looked at her smiling, making her think at the doctor’s words. The chain food. He is the top and he is beyond happy, while she is
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“Goddess!” Sarah screamed in her heart as soon as she closed the door behind Patrick.“Hey, they don’t deserve our tears!” Gal said.“Everyone left us, Gal! We don't have anyone in this world to care about us, but at least we have each other.” and Sarah put the book on her desk , because the truth is she never intended to read, it was just a reason to make Patrick leave.“We are so alone in this big world that it’s scary, Gal.” and tears start to run again on her face, but those are not tears of fear, tears of pain. Are somehow, in all this madness, tears of relief.Someone once said that betrayal can be a gift.“Everyone laid to us. All this time all they wanted was to save Amber, no matter what. My life is not important. Mom was right, Gal. Mom was so right.”“You have me, Sarah.” Gal whispered “To the end, I will be by your side”“But the end is so close, Gal. And I didn’t have time to be happy in this world, to have our first shift, our first run, to find my mate.”“Is better this
“Just sit here and drink this cure!” the doctor said without looking at Sarah. And how would he have been able to look in her eyes when he knew too well what he was giving her to drink?“Cure?” Sarah asked laughing bitterly “Oh my goddess” she whispered and lifting her gaze she saw Mark and the doctor’s assistant watching her with concern.“Let’s do this, give me that so-called cure you said about” and Sarah holds out her arms and takes the “cure” from the doctor.“Drink it to the bottom,” Her father said. “Don’t let not even a single drop inside that recipient or the cure will not work” he said commandingly, while Amber, her sister was just smiling.“Can’t we start it?” she said “I am tired of waiting. I want to be healthy and meet my future husband, she said, accentuating the last words to stab Sarah in her heart, because she knew too well that Sarah and Patrick had a good relationship.Sarah just looked around.“What the hell , Gal? Isn’t it here not even a single person to care ab