"It hurts like hell" Gal said.
"You are a wolf Gal, is not so bad. It just looks ugly, that's all!" Sarah said and pull over her sleeve trying to hide all the marks she got after she donate blood for her sister again.
"It hurts and you know it, Sarah, there is not even a single place on our arms where you can put a finger and that place not to be bruised." Gal howled but his time Sarah just stood still.
"I am tired" she whispered to her wolf, looking at the doctor that leaves the room holding the bag with blood in his hand. She just stood there, seeing how everyone ignores her after hey took her blood and when she was finally alone she opened a little box from her desk and took out a simple chocolate muffin. She placed a little candle on it and smiled sadly.
"Another birthday alone".
"You've got me" Gal whispered. "You've got me, Sarah!"
"I know, but is my birthday and nobody knows it. After all those years, nobody cares."
She stood there , looking blank at the muffin.
"Let's make a wish, Sarah!" Gal says and she tries to be more vivid for Sarah 'sake.
“Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me!” Gal sings while Sarah is holding a muffin in her hands. She closes her eyes again and makes a wish.
Is not an instant wish, but a wish she thought about for the last two years at least. Today she is eighteen and soon there will be a full moon and everything she dreams of will come true. She will find him. She will find the one who will love her forever and help her to have that happy life she always hoped to have.
So she just opens her eyes and looks at the little candlelight, like a glimpse on the top of her muffin, she takes a deep breath and blows the candle out, smiling.
“We will be happy, Gal!” she said to her wolf, because that was her only wish for her birthday.
“We will, Sarah!” Gal, her wolf said. “We will find our mate and we will leave from here.”
"You know what ,Gal? Let's find her. Let's try again to speak with her. Maybe today, just today she will be more kind with us. After all she gave birth to me, not every day I turn eighteen." she says but she is interrupted by one of the omegas who sees her while she exist her room.
“Do you know where she is?” Sarah asked the omega with a sad smile.
"Who shall it be?" the omega asked trying to pass her.
"Ms. Tania..." and this time Sarah almost whispered, calling the forbidden word in her head " my mother".
Her mother was never eager to see her. And now seriously? Why she would be when Sarah was like a slap on her ego. She was the result of an atrocity. She was the bastard child of this proud and beautiful woman, a fantastic healer, who almost lost her desire to live after having Sarah.
Do you know how is it to look every day at something that hurts you? This is the way Tania Thompson felt seeing her daughter. Sarah was a part of her life that she never wished to have it, , she was forced to have the child.
"She's on that lake again." the omega said and seeing that Sarah was on her way just, she pushed her a little so that she can walk from there.
"Let her alone," the omega said while she went from there "You know that she hates seeing you."
"I want to see her, Gal" and Sarah started to run, holding her muffin and praying that she will not be punished again after that.
The Blood Moon Pack was one of the biggest and strongest in the world. Some said that there is no other alpha more stronger than her father is, only the Alpha King outpaces him in strength and wealth. Yes you've got it right. Her biological father is the alpha. He raped his own sister-in-law. This territory is any werewolf’s dream. The dense forests are everywhere and in the middle of the pack an splendid crystal lake is placed.
That’s her mother's favorite place in this pack, it makes her calm, to clear her memory of all the sadness.
"There she is...Shit! Sarah do you really want to ruin our day?" and seeing Tania's face, Gal is scared even if she understand Sarah.
“She is our mother, Gal. She didn’t want us but a mother is a mother. Maybe she will let me stay with her today.” she said.
“See, she looks calm today” and Sarah’s heart softened a little seeing her beautiful mother sitting on the shore of the lake. She looked at her hand and at her arms. She was full of needle marks and she carefully pulled her sleeves over those bruised parts of her body so as to hide the marks. She didn't want to irritate her mother, she was a healer and a healer is always sensitive to the suffering of other people.
“Ms. Tania!” she whispered and in an instant Tania turned her head and saw her coming.
“Go away !” Tania said in panic and pushed her daughter. “Why are you here?”
Sarah just looked at the poor woman, with her broken heart ,and then looked at the muffin she had in her hands and said in a very sweet voice.
“... is my birthday, please just stay a little with me. Just today! You are the closest person to me, and you are the only one that knows it is my birthday!”
“No, go away!” Tania becomes a little bit agitated triggered by her daughter's presence, remembering the darkest day of her life. "Just get the hell out of here and leave me alone!"
“Please Ms. Tania, I am already here. Look! I also brought a cake, please share it with me!” and even if Sarah was used to this continuous back and forth marathon of emotions so many times in the past, today she has got it in her mind that she will have this little moment with her mother.
She caught Tania's arms and placed the muffin in front of her :
“Let’s share this!” she said, smiling at her mom. “ Today is my eighteenth birthday and I am alone. Please let’s share it!”
And she stretches her hand to Tania and it gives her the muffin but just before being able to say something Sarah’s bruised arms catch Tania’s eyes and some pin and needle marks appear from under the sleeve.
“What the hell is that?” and Tania’s heart almost stops and she tries to grab Sarah’s arm, but Sarah just covers her arms, pulling her sleeves over her fists.
“It’s nothing!” she said almost stuttering: "It’s really nothing, Ms. Tania!"
But Tania knows exactly what kind of mark is that and she caught her arms using her force and rolled up her sleeve.
It is said that blood is thicker than water and who said that was right. Maybe Sarah was the product of a rape, and maybe her presence was unwanted every time she appeared in Tania’s face, but Tania never hated her daughter. She knew that the child was innocent. She hated the memory she was related with. She hated that damned drunken alpha who destroyed her life, but she never hated Sarah, she just couldn't stand her presence.
She hoped that the child would find happiness in this world. She even wanted to tell her something nice today, but her beautiful face that was in reality her biological father's face made her lock herself away with her memories.
“Who is taking your blood?” Tania growled seeing the marks on her arm, and she lifts the author sleeve just to find more marks”
“Alpha Thompson, let it go please, it's nothing!” Sarah said, trying to be calm.
Tania just looked at Sarah and she closed her eyes.
"This is too much..."she whispered and looking in Sarah eyes and with trembling hands she grabbed Sarah's arms in her hands. She looked at her so calm and for the first time in her life Sarah saw a glimpse of care. The compassion .
"Sarah..."Tania said looking directly into her daughter eyes.
"You have to trust your mother, let's be free together."
"Mother?" Gal asked in shock. "Did she said mother?" and her heart is beating so hard. "I she accepting us as her daughter?
Sarah looked at her and tears moisture her eyes. She waited for this moment her whole life.'
Tania looked at her and she also had tears in her eyes.
"Do you trust me, Sarah? Do you trust your mother?"
And Sarah just nodded her head and her heart was bleeding under the attack of her own emotions.
"I trust you..."
And she closed her eyes to find the strength to say it.
"Mom!"
A few days have passed after that tragic day. Tania was dead and she never left the infinite cold and darkness of the crystal lake. You could say that she was free from this world just as she wished for, hidden in the deep, far away from everything she hated in this life..Nobody said anything about her, you could say that in just a few days her memory was completely erased. Not even a ceremony. Tania received nothing from her own pack as she left this world.The only soul that was crying for her was Sarah. In her room she was just sitting curled up like a little girl and she was crying for her mother. But she didn’t shed tears , her soul was crying for several days. She couldn’t forget her words, but more than that what was hunting her memories was that last look her mother gave her.Was this place so close to hell that she chose to die like that?Sarah just lives again and again that moments and more and more questions arise in her head."I trust you, mom!" she said and right then T
They stood embraced for minutes, just looking in each other's eyes, without being able to utter a single word. It was like time stopped for them.And right then the door opened making them startle and both of them made a step back.“What’s going on here?” Mark Thompson, Sarah's brother asked looking at their troubled looks, but he turns his gaze from them and signals to a doctor to come into Sarah's room.“Is she disturbing you?” Mark asked Patrick, throwing an ugly look to Sarah.“No, we were just talking and I saw her sad. That's all, she didn’t do anything inappropriate.” and he looks at Sarah and gives her a soft and polite smile, totally different from that he gave her when they were alone.“I talked with my father” Mark said “ And he agreed to..” but hearing him Patrick stops him without a second thought and just signals him to keep his mouth closed.“You will tell me about this when we will be in the conference room with the other, now is not the place and the time to talk abou
“Where the fuck is he?” Pete Thompson , the alpha of the Blood Moon Pack and Sarah’s father, asked looking at his watch. “He is doing this on purpose, I'm sure !”“Calm down , father,” Mark said, seeing him so agitated and thinking that he's going to explode a blood vein soon. “He said that he will come. Let him be! If he is a fucking royal ass it doesn’t mean that I should stay straight waiting for him.”“Are you sick on your head, Mark?” Pete Thompson asked him a little bit furious. “This is a big chance for us. Your sister will be the next queen and we will become even more powerful than anything you've ever seen. So don’t tell me to calm down.” and he would want to say a lot of things to Mark, to put his minds back in his head, but right then the door opens and Patrick comes in.“Your Royal Highness, I am glad that you made it!” and he bows a little, shocking Mark.“What fuck?” he said in his mind looking at his father acting.“I had some business but I here now” Patrick said look
Two days later in the morning Sarah just stood alone in her room. She was thinking about everything the doctor said to her. Today she will be finally free and she is happy to finally reach the end of this Calvary.But her thoughts are interrupted when someone knocks on the door and she opens the door just to see her brother there holding a tray with a lot of food. She just looked at him with her mouth open and seeing him alone she couldn’t help it and she stuck her head out of the door looking for something.“You are alone?’ she asked him looking at him strangely. He seems different today. .“Yes? Can’t you see it?” he asks her and puts the breakfast on her desk. “I brought you some food. You need to eat for tonight's ceremony so you would have enough strength to resist. You can’t faint in the middle of the ceremony.”Mark was never alone in her room, so this is strange. He is the one who comes with the doctors, but he is a tough guy. He never acted like a brother, rather more like a
She stood there for hours, in her chair , with her eyes closed and holding her mother's necklace. Calm and cold as if this was not happening.This is the way Patrick found her when he came back to her room.“Hey!” he whispered .”Why are you staying here alone when outside the sun is so warm?”Sarah opened her eyes and smiled at him, but not as she was doing on a normal day. She forced herself to look like she would not die today.Why make Patrick sad ? Just as that Bible verse said “ Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. (Matthew 6:25-34)”It’s enough that she feels like shit, he doesn’t deserve to feel as well.“You didn’t leave back to your pack yet?” she asked him and stood on her feet.“No, I will go there tomorrow, but today I wanted to stay a little bit more with you.” Patrick said.“ Would you accompany me to the forest this afternoon?” and he looked at her smiling, making her think at the doctor’s words. The chain food. He is the top and he is beyond happy, while she is
“I thought that he didn’t know about my horrible life, but he knew all this time,” she said to Gal. “He knew how miserable my life was and he just stood and watched me as I struggled to survive!”“I can’t stand it anymore!” she yelled in her mind “I..I just need to get out of here!”She remembered everything and all those thoughts that were running through her mind in the last few minutes now were revealed through the light of a new plot. Plot which was not new at all but it was there from the beginning.They fooled her.Her father, her siblings, the pack doctor, Patrick…everything was a fucking lie! And she was thinking of asking Patrick for help!“Shit!” She just stood there and caught the bridge of her nose trying to focus and think about what she should do.“Run or die!” gal stated “ Those are our options!”“I thought that he loves us , Gal. After mom died he was there, he took my hand in his hand and told me that everything will be fine! Someone will love you! Those were his own
“Sarah!” Patrick called her but she just walked away from the lake, from Ian, from everything, without looking back.“Sarah, don’t be like that!”” He said, seeing her that she is just ignoring him and keeps walking without saying anything and this is something he just realized that it’s kind of upsetting.“Why did you act so rough with her, Ian?” Bart asked but Ian just stopped and let her go. In the end she was returning to her father's packhouse and this was what counts. Without her the blood exchange ceremony couldn't start, isn't it?He watched her moving away, he watched her delicate figure, her long brown hair fluttering in the breeze, until she was only a small point in the horizon and a lot of thoughts started to run in his mind. She never acted like this, he has been seeing her almost everyday since this blood change ceremony started.It is true that she was more and more pale every day but with him she was always smiling, even today, in the morning she was laughing and askin
“Goddess!” Sarah screamed in her heart as soon as she closed the door behind Patrick.“Hey, they don’t deserve our tears!” Gal said.“Everyone left us, Gal! We don't have anyone in this world to care about us, but at least we have each other.” and Sarah put the book on her desk , because the truth is she never intended to read, it was just a reason to make Patrick leave.“We are so alone in this big world that it’s scary, Gal.” and tears start to run again on her face, but those are not tears of fear, tears of pain. Are somehow, in all this madness, tears of relief.Someone once said that betrayal can be a gift.“Everyone laid to us. All this time all they wanted was to save Amber, no matter what. My life is not important. Mom was right, Gal. Mom was so right.”“You have me, Sarah.” Gal whispered “To the end, I will be by your side”“But the end is so close, Gal. And I didn’t have time to be happy in this world, to have our first shift, our first run, to find my mate.”“Is better this