8 years ago…
Nikolai was busy analyzing a case for a moot court competition.
… will argue that the city breached its duty of care by…
And now, he has to go back to reading the first part. Seems like legible, but hard-to-understand letters.
This won't do. He can spend the whole night reading the case details and arguments but if he doesn't keep his shit together, this will be the mark of his downfall. All those words he said to his parents, to prove that studying Law for him would be put to waste. All because he loved a girl.
It was getting counterproductive. The mild headache was a cry for a distraction and that was when he decided to go to the nearest bar. After all, he has mastered the art of drinking just the right amount of alcohol to be dizzy and not suffer through a damned hang-over the next day.
After a few glasses, he could see doubles of everything. He found solace in an empty park and sat on the swing.
“Nikolai.”
That was probably too much drink. Even with his imagination, he couldn’t get what he wanted. A small part of him was hoping that he’d get drunk enough to see Stella. Instead, he’s seeing Belle.
“Nikolai, you're drunk. C’mon. You should go home. Why are you even here alone?”
“I'm not drunk. I'm also not okay. But it’s nothing for you to worry about, Isobelle.”
“Yeah, you definitely look not okay, Nick. Come on. Let’s go.”
“Why are you even doing here?”
“I came because you called me, Nick.” She showed Nikolai the multiple call attempts he made.
“Ah, that's not me. I mean, it shouldn't be you. I was supposed to call someone else.”
Belle looked down and placed her phone back in her bag. “I don't care. She's not here. I'm the one standing here in front of you.”
“I'm in love with someone else, Isobelle.”
“I know. I'm not forcing you to fall out of love. I know that is impossible.”
“It's impossible.” Nikolai was waiting to graduate from law school and become a lawyer. He'll work hard so everyone will know his name. Then, he’ll propose to Stella. Nikolai was sure that she was the one for her. All she had to do was patiently wait for a future they'd share together.
All she had to do was trust him and wait for him, but she couldn’t. He couldn’t even understand why she had to choose someone else. Nothing makes sense at all.
“It's impossible,” Belle repeated. “This is also the reason why you can't force me to fall out of love with you.
“Isobelle, you shouldn’t be here with me. You’re my best friend's brother for crying out loud.”
She is off-limits. Nikolai knows that more than anyone.
Preston cared for her sister so much and he’d be willing to move heavens and earth to those who’ll hurt Belle. He has no intention to be that man who will make his best friend lose his shit.
“I don’t see anything wrong with talking. My brother wouldn’t kill you for simply talking to me.”
There was a playful smile on Belle’s lips. He knows she has a crush on him. She may have never said that out loud, but her words and actions are pointing in that direction. From the get-go, he didn’t want to give her any motive that would make Belle think there was a chance for them.
Nikolai sighed in resignation. “Why do you even like me? You’re a great woman, Isobelle. You can have any man you want, just not me.”
Belle was caught off-guard with the question. Her feet were on the ground and her swing stopped moving.
“Because you’re you. I hope you can get inside this little head of mine so you’ll know how hard I try not to like you, Nikolai. No one in their right mind would choose to love someone who's in love with someone else. You see, that’s what I’ve been trying to point out. I didn’t voluntarily choose you. My eyes landed on you and then you have to smile that charming smile. It didn’t help that you were so kind to me. I hated that your voice would constantly play in my head. I like you. I really do. I wish these feelings were irreversible.”
Belle’s eyes sparkled after her confession. He later realized that those were actual tears when she started to wipe her eyes. He looked away, figuring she wouldn’t want to be seen crying. He got something from his pocket and reached out to Belle.
How ironic that the person who understood him the most was the person who loved him and who he couldn’t love back.
“Now that you said what you feel, forget about me. I'll take the anger and blame. Curse me all you can. Then, move on and find a man who deserves you, Isobelle. You're Preston's sister and you mean a lot to me too. I would like to see you be happy and not stuck in love with someone like me and-”
Before Nikolai could even finish his speech about falling out of love, Belle's face was right in front of him. His eyes were wide open and he saw her brown eyes slowly close before kissing him. She didn't move and their lips stayed still.
He was drowning in Belle's scent and her soft sweet lips. Her lips parted, inviting him to kiss her a little deeper.
Nikolai knew what he had to do. His hand was on her shoulders intending to push her away. Before he could do it, Belle pulled away.
“Don't do this.” He pleaded. Looking at Belle's knees on the ground while he remained seated on the swing. “Did you not hear any of the words I just said?”
She gave her a sweet smile. His eyes were now on the lips that he just tasted.
“I did and I'm willing to ignore them all. Try forgetting her until you don't have to try anymore. Use me, Nick. Choose me.”
Present…
Years later, Nikolai is alone at the park where Belle once begged him to choose her.
Am I hallucinating?
From afar, he was looking at Belle, seated at the same spot years ago. Ah, no. It's not Belle. It's Hyacinth.
What could she be doing there? Nikolai wanted to approach him and ask her where she had been all this time. She was no longer at the hotel and she took a leave from work.
He's worried sick and he wanted to ask him. Instead, he stayed where he was and tried to be content from where he was standing. Looking at Hyacinth from afar.
“Nikolai? Is that you?”
He couldn’t believe who he was seeing.
“Stella.”
The day he came to Houston…Nikolai still refuses to accept that Belle’s gone. There were a million possibilities that were forming in his head.Waking up was a challenge when the first thing he had to do every morning was to face his son alone. There may be a million possibilities, but the reality was too hard to accept. Coming home with his son and putting the search on hold was the hardest decision he had ever made.“Nikolai.”Stella’s face was the last thing he was expecting when he arrived. He handed his sleeping son to his new nanny. “Please let him rest. Let me know if he cries.”Stella scrutinized the clueless child until Liam was out of sight.“We need to talk-”“I’m tired, Stella.” He interrupted. He didn’t want to argue or even have a discussion at the moment. His body has reached its limits in terms of physical and emotional exhaustion. Nikolai’s body feels like and looks like a walking zombie with his crumpled clothes.“Alright. I understand. I just want to see you and
Katherine Isobelle is Preston’s sister. They lost both of their parents because of an accident when they were young.Katherine Isobelle was a photographer. She used to work in New Zealand.Katherine Isobelle was married and she has a son. She signed the divorce papers but according to Preston, they are still married, because the divorce didn't push through.She has Belle’s DNA and that means they are the same person. Even after knowing all these facts, Hyacinth still couldn’t fully process everything that happened. A lot doesn't make sense. If it would, no one but her could make sense of it all but until she gets her memory back, it would be impossible. This was the reason why she spent time away from everyone including Preston, who is the only person who knows the truth. He gave him these files about Belle that she needed to know and she has spent an ample amount of time studying herself like a person from History class.There was a scream at the park that surprised her. She though
“Hyacinth, I knew you would be back!”Should it be anger, jealousy, regret, or sadness? Hyacinth wasn’t sure what to feel first when she saw Jack after a long time. Perhaps it is a bit of everything. After what happened, she was sure that what they have is over. It probably ended long before she had an idea of him having an affair.“Why are you here in the office when we can talk at home? Honey, please. I can explain and I promise to be better. I made a horrible mistake, but I will still choose you, Hya. You’re the one I love.”“Really?”“Really. We’re married. Married people don’t throw away years of being together because of one foolish mistake. I guess, in our case, it would be two mistakes.”Is he with Jack because of desperation and confusion? The bigger picture is clearer for her now. Everything he said was stupid, if not fake. She let herself get fooled and got deceived by those lies.“I was about to file for a divorce.”Jack was shocked but recovered soon enough. “About to? Th
“Thank you for coming here, Belle.” Preston greeted her and opened the door of his home wider. It's Belle’s first time visiting Preston in a more relaxed setting.She figured it is time to proactively try and learn more about Katherine Isobelle because no matter how hard she tried, the memories aren't coming back. Time is a luxury she didn’t want to waste.Belle. She has to learn how to live as Belle.“I should be the one thanking you for accepting my invitation. Sorry for ruining any of your day off plans if you had any, Preston.”A quick glimpse of annoyance was on his face, and then it was gone. Preston laughed at his own actions, “I forgot for a moment there that you lost your memory. I thought you were teasing me or something.”Belle laughed. She has no idea what it feels like having a brother. Maybe before, but all of these feels new to her. Knowing that being herself reminded Preston of who she was before was a validation in a way that she has not lost her whole identity.“Why?
“Hi, kids!”“Miss Hya!” They collectively screamed.There was immediate chaos. The kind of chaos that Belle missed. There were a lot of chit-chats, but there were also a lot of smiles. Among the whole class, it was hard not to stare a little longer at the spot where Liam was seated.My son.Standing frozen, Belle was fighting the urge to run into Liam and apologize for leaving and causing him pain, for being absent to his past birthdays, for not recognizing him the first time they met. There was so much to apologize and so much time has passed.“Did you miss me?”“Yes, Teacher Hya.” The kids answered in unison.After finding out who she is even when her past memories have not come back yet, it was weird to hear the name Hyacinth. She loved being Hyacinth. In fact, her life was a dream. She had a loving husband, a precious son, and this work. Every day, she would find herself thanking the heavens for the life she had, because it felt like a gift. Something that wasn’t hers but was temp
Belle smiled at the few staff who recognized her. She tried not to grab anyone’s attention. Okay, maybe a little. She may have kept her silence, but she has been possessed with her flair for the dramatic. She wore the perfect black dress, hugging her curves perfectly, and dark red lipstick like a typical movie villain. She contemplated adding sunglasses but thought nah, that would be too much.She knew coming here at the law firm would be a hot issue in the making. People love to gossip as what can be observed with every eye trying to follow her every move subtly. She hasn’t left the area, but they are already whispering. For the first time after a long time, she didn’t care. It was nice to feel liberated even in this last stage of her short-lived marriage. It was a marriage that made whispering feel like screaming.Ah, there they are. She thought, spotting the conference room with glass windows. Perfect. She opened the glass door with a wide grin, showing her perfect set of white te
“Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Laurent.” Belle wasn’t nervous… or at least, this is what she kept telling herself while earlier, she was looking at the mirror, combing her hair. Even after changing her mind for what felt like the hundredth time, she is still unsure if she chose the right dress. Heck, she was even nervous thinking about what type of makeup look she would be wearing today. There was no need for her to please the parents. Her actions, however, say otherwise. It was hard to show a sweet smile, but she managed just fine. On the inside, there was an uneasy feeling, an internal chaos she wouldn’t like to admit was happening. Their presence made her almost forget that Nikolai was in the same room. It was surprising to see Oliver Laurent smile. Nikolai has consistently described him as a strict father growing up, giving her the image of a grumpy old man. Adeline’s fake smile was easy to spot, on the other hand. It was a contrast to the intense stare Belle couldn’t help but no
This was a mistake, a huge one.In her head is a long list of all the actions she was starting to regret. On top of that list was meeting Nikolai. Nothing should be added. Enough stupid actions. Belle no longer cared if she packed her things messily in her suitcase; some were even scattered on the floor, but she was ready to squeeze everything into her luggage. The need to go home and forget what happened today was stronger than having well-arranged luggage.It has only been days, and she missed her child terribly already. They were never separated for this long, and she couldn't believe she left for something that turned out to be not worth it. Clearly, that would be Nikolai.She could have kept silent. Shut her mouth and just signed those damn divorce papers without slapping it on his face. It would hurt, and she'd spend some nights crying but at least, she could still have that peace she could never have now.After making sure nothing important was left behind, Belle clumsily close