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Uncharted Territory
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This chapter contains acts of physical and verbal violence that can be triggering to readers. This chapter also deals with some addiction issues, as well as some drug usage. Please note this is in no way shape or form meant to promote the usage of drugs. Drugs and alcohol are dangerous substances that alter brain chemicals and can lead to death. Please read with caution.
Almost three months had passed since I had moved in with Jax. I still have not made any headway with Isabella if anything things had taken a turn for the worst. My middle son Shawn and Isabella are constantly butting heads. Shawn is a bit of a wild child, but for the most part well behaved. He has a hyperactive personality, and sometimes he has difficulty concentrating. Isabella tends to provoke him until he acts rashly. This newest
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