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All-day... All alone...
I was walking to school followed by two confused gazes. Vian and Jay were curious and confused, but they followed me quietly giving me space. I was processing everything that happened last night. After I heard what he said, I slowly walked to my room without saying anything and went to bed.
I heard whispers of them outside my door until I fell asleep. I guess they were contemplating whether to knock on the door. I was grateful that they decided otherwise. I was neither in the mood nor in the right mind to talk. Strangely I slept very well but everything came back once I woke up in the morning.
It hurts to the extent that I can't even breathe. I want to cry but I couldn't. Something heavy in my chest making me breathe hard and blocking my tears to fall.
I know why it hurts. I can't even imagine him being with someone else. But more than that, it angered me that he didn't confide in me when it comes to his dating life. Jay was cool with it, but I can't. I am not e
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