I should not be too forward
" Is it going to hurt "oh God I could do this all day
" No... I'm just gonna, um , like finger you once sorta "
finger? I'm cool with it I sit on a chair and slowly part my leg. I've never been fingered allmy life but t here right now the person that i have always crushed on is going to finger me. Oh i raise the towel all up to my belly and spread my legs as wide as I can.
Remi go down on his knees as if commanded not sharing his eyes of my sex sex I arch myself closer so he can see my wetness. To see how wet I am for him.
" Remi "
" Elle, are you sure you really really -- no. If your pregnant will deal with it you could be lying-- "
" How dare you call me a liar! Do you think I was lying? "
" I'm not-- "
" So you don't trust me question mark? Remi- " I said back up and start to fake cry " how dare you? "
" I'm sorry "
" how could I know? it may have been milk and maybe it was one of the guys you've beaten up when we were younger and decided to play a prank on you because he knows I'll always get back to you. "
Damn. I'm such a good liar. Remi try to cajole me but I shove him away.
" I'm sorry "
" Kiss me, then I'll forgive you "
" How about I hug you or... I give you my credit card huh? ".
" Fine, I'll take your credit card "
I stand up to my feet, quickly ipek is chicks before running up the stairs. I make my way to the room fast I put on my best spaghetti and a bomb shot and run out. Only to meet #bestfriend number two and the sea beside Remy laughing, talking and talking. I roll my eyes as I sit beside Remi on the left side. I even wonder if Aria has a crush on Remy even if she does she is so good at hiding it
" Sup babe "
" I'm fine." I pick up a slice of pizza and start to eat up
" Where were you last night?? "
" Remi has told you hasn't he? "
" No. I called your phone yesterday I wanted to gist you as usual, usual that I know you do not by any means by one at midnight. But then a guy picked it up and talked to me. You got drunk "
" Yes "
" You two had sex? "
Oh oh
" What are you two like? Huh? My mother and father? Uh? "
I ask angry they always do this all the freaking time and it annoys me I'm twenty for Christs sake I'm old enough to take care of my self
" Baby you are the youngest around here so it's our responsibility "
she points to herself and Remi " To watch over you so yeah we are like your mother and father number two "
" Ugh I hate you guys " .I mutter
" So did you two have sex? "
" No! Aria no! I'm not stupid , why would I let a stranger to...to have sex with me "
" Better "
" I'm going shopping after we are done eating. "
I say after a while of considering. Aria can be too motherly sometimes and it's so annoying. It has always been annoying
"Let me guess with Remi's card. okay I've been running out of new fits these days. so there's this trending denim I saw up on sale last Friday and I think we should get it, still up until people can't afford it "
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Now that I think of it Aria Is just a couple of months older than I am. So she has no damn right over me . Hmm why didn't I think of this earlier. I'm sure she's feeling herself right now behind those wheels .
We enter the street Remi lives on. We've spent a lot today and when I say a lot i mean a whole freaking lot. We visited like ten shops, restaurants, like fun we of em eating dessert only. Remi barely cares. He hardly spends money on himself but when he does. Geez that dude is a fashion freak. You're just gonna be speechless all through and nothing, I mean nothing ever misfit him. It's either he looked very good or he looks very very very very good or he makes you drool you can't just help but gape.
I'm sure a lot of workers in his dad's company he's going to be working for very soon will gape and fall for him hard. Throw themselves at him like toys. Remi's like a god, gold is like a godder and Remi I like a goddest. They are like trioltri and Remi is the only one who womanizes.
As much as I hate to admit it I'm jealous. C'mon you can't blame me. I haven't had a boyfriend all my life talkless of getting fucked because someone would not let me and with Remi as a very hot hot best friend why wouldn't I?. All my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends. I'm the only one left
Remi wouldn't even let me. He scares them right of with that one death look of his. Or he just calls me baby, wrap his arms around my waist or squeeze my buttocks or whisper something dirty and seductive in my ear. No I wouldn't even call it whisper he makes sure the other dude infront of me hears loud and clear.
Aria pull up slowly in front of Remi's gigantic mansion. Do not be decieved , Aria is one crazy driver once she's high. Forget it you'll prefer dying, literally that instant.
I get out of the car with the credit card in my palm. We nearly hit a million today. We didn't spend much seriously , I just transferred some amount into Aria's account and mine. I step on the footmat and push myself forward for the recognition.
Remi's father made the security like that for his family, me neither and Aria. Since Remi's the last born in the family so he must protect him at all cost. The door open, I step in, the sitting room's quiet and empty. Hmm he's probably sleeping
I climb up the stairs to his room and open it.
" Hey, sleepy head-- "
I stopped in my tracks. a beautiful blonde lay naked on the bed, on his bed. The dog to the bedroom open and you step out. His hair dripping and a towel around his waist look startled.
" Who are you?? "
" Ask your momma! And here is your fucjfuc card Remi. " I throw it at him with a shout actually and make for the door.
Before I can even make for the door a wet cold hand catches mean by the waste the water from its lines on my face and that turns me on. Not now stupid hormones and angry.
" You can't just throw my f****** card at me "
At that I try to pry myself off him.
" You are a sick sick bastard! Let me go now! " I yell.
" Why are you angry? "
" Nothing " I realise now that I have no right. He's not cheating on me or anything. I'm just a stupid friend who has a crush on him.
" You can't just barge in like that "
" I'm sorry, please let me go "
I say trying to push back the stupid tears in my eyes. Oh God why me!
" Baby " that blonde girl call from up the stairs
" I just never knew you were into blondes. Where'd you find her? In a strip club? "
" Go back upstairs, I'll be with you in a sec "
The girl nods and leave. I just can't control myself. I feel stupid when I'm around him. why does it have to be my friend questionmark why does he ask me every time you get a chance. It here for for my eyes before I can stop it.
" Why are you crying baby? " . He makes to touch me but I slap his hand away.
" Your baby is up there waiting for you .Remi you told me to fucking open my legs for you today and now you fucking a blonde? " I yell at him .
" Go home Elle-- "
" Hell, damn I will!! ".
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I drive straight to the nearest bar karma I got down a cup or two of water you know what that? I have every right to do whatever you want it's not the boss of me. I'm not going to let him order me around and make me abstain from guys any longer. I can have sex too. Can you imagine a whole me question mark and I'm doing it tonight no matter what!.
" Hey " someone shouts behind my ear over the loud music.
I nearly fall out of my seat but once again the same strong hand prevent me from doing just that .It's the guy from last night! I didn't even remember to catch his name
" Are you okay " he asks hands still clutching my waist.
" No "
Heat creeps in through the flimsy thing I'm wearing down to my core . I shudder and grab his arms to steady myself.
" Maybe I should take your u home?? "
" Nah, I'm fine dance with me "
Now now we are mentally karma literally winding each each other I let out a smile and hold on tighter I can feel the bulge in his jeans. Hmm I think I'm coming already .
I'm not drunk but I think I'm enjoying this, no I'm enjoying it really good. his forehead rest on mine, his a hotbreath fan my face slowly an.action that could drive any woman crazy. I lose my senses and push myself closer he kisses my head shake and nibble on my ear.
" You're so beautiful. " He says " c'mon let's go "
I let him drag me out, to the fresh breeze but I'm in no mood for it. He pushes me against a car and kiss me. I am mentally throw my hands around his neck and kiss him back he brushes his thumb over my breast and I shudder
We let go to gasp for air but he dosedoe stop carressing my breasts. I'm not wearing any bra. I hate bras they're annoying and painful, makes me feel uncomfortable. I let out a crooked smile as he starts to massage it slowly. I moan" You're enjoying this ain't you? "" Of course, but let's get out of here. "" You're right "He says and kisses my cheek but then suddenly his head hit mine forcefully. I wince. A manly figure, more builded grabs him by the shirt and throw him away like he weighs nothing." Stay away " he warnsRemi? I start to run to the guy I still do not know his name but Remi grabs me by the waist. I struggle, and try to pry his hands off of me but he wouldn't budge. I scream." Let me go! How could you--- "" You're coming with me! "" How could you throw him away like that? What if he's dead?... "I try to coax him out but it
♥♥♥♦♥♥♥♥♦♥♥♥♥♦♥♥♥♥ Just when I'm about to leave the house the door open revealing a disheveled Remi . his eyes stressed out like he's been working all day . but damn that suit and tie fit him like a second skin. before I could speak he grabbed me, presses me against the wall and kiss the hell out of me . I cling on to him tight and moan as he kissed me down to my neck and bit me there . we pry off each other's clothes and before I know it I'm naked before him. he lifts me up, lays me on the couch , wasting no time he hovers me, kisses my face. his knee nudges my leg apart and i give in without a conscious decision.♥♥♠ 3 ♦♦♣ hours later ♦♦♥ &
A Week Later ' just fucking' that word has been planted in my head since last week and the more it expands the more I feel like I'm gonna die. I don't wanna believe it anyway but when I get angry and something pops on my head whether good or bad it remains printed in it for a long time. arggggghhh. I know this is a lie, Remi loves me, doesn't he okay maybe this loneliness is having an effect on me . it's been hours since Remi's gone to work like 7 hours ago and I've been and still jobless . I do not feel like watching that damn tv or feel like stuffing my face with food . An idea just pop into my head I ring up Dave and he comes in almost immediately. I tell him to take me to Remi . really like Canada is really really beautiful , a little cold but then I love cold things until I
I had dry-cleaned Lizzy yesterday clothes so I just wrapped her in a blanket when she fell asleep again after waking me up for food. so I just mashed the pizza left from dinner and fed it to her. now we are on our way to Remi's office to get Lizzy's stuff. food, toys, everything. I never said anything about keeping the baby but since I am always bored at home alone what else am I supposed to do we alight from the car straight into Remi's office . Remi has Dave watch over Lizzy for a while, while we enter the company. turns out Dave loves children and Lizzy likes him too. she was all smiles when Dave carried her outside, baring her gums at him. I love that kid. and I have realized that I have no right whatsoever to be angry at Remi because he is a man and besides we are not even dating so I need to respect his decisions but the issue of trust now I have trust issues. so I am never trusting anybody in my life a
Lizzy and Johnson have been watching TV since morning. watching cartoon and she has been quiet and peaceful since only blabbing and giggling when she gets excited. why did I not think of that before at the house, maybe then I wouldn't have to spend all day house cleaning but then Lizzy isn't a fan of music so what else was I supposed to do. who even hates music... okay maybe my mood swings sometimes. I don't know why but lately my mood swings have just been getting out of hand but not with Lizzy. Everytime I see her that foolishness of anger just dissolves to the ground . Aunt Mary has been out for like an hour or so while Remi's gone to his meeting. only GOD knows if he's gone to another of his baby Mama's. sish I need to take a break from all this shit. I climb off the dinning stool and make my way to the parlour. cartoon i
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" it's so annoying " I whine" Elle she's just a baby "" yeah an annoying baby "" Elle! "" it's just that I take care of that girl 24/7 and I deserve to be called mama "" look she's eventually going to call you mama "" I'm going to keep quiet now " I said after a while. we're outside her door" least I forget the boys decided to join us "" so they invited themselves uh ? "" yep it's so gonna be fun. we're gonna play truth or dare. dirty "" I like it "I can't blame her for not informing me earlier I've been boring her on why Lizzy wouldn't call me mama. and to be frank she's a very good listener. Aria wouldn't even let me finish. she'll just tell me to let it go just like that. straight . I'm never leaving this place. we entered the house and there are all the boys and a girl in the kitchen eating snacks 
" no water " Natalie says also laughing.everyone was also laughing. Cody's face is red even burning from afar " please let him i think he's going to pass out anytime from now " I plead on his behalf" fine ". Natalie say and I go to the kitchen to help him" here " I sau grabbing a loaf of bread from the counter giving it to him " I heard bread helps neutralizes the em... stuff "he eats up half way not stopping at all. I smile. I fill in water into a cup and give it to him. he gulps it down before letting himself calm down" thanks "" you might also want to brush your teeth in case it still burns that also helps too "" I'm okay thank you "when we walk back to the sitting room Matt beats Cody on his back" take heart bro "its my turn woooo. I pick up a card after much hesitation. my heart skips a bea