CHAPTER 41 Stultus AnimiStultus AnimiTranslation: stupid feelingsOrigin: Latin41The glowing sun was slowly rising up in the dull morning sky as the sunbeams were casting down on the window pane. The light was growing more and more vivid making the sky more and more radiant as the glowing sphere climbed higher and higher into the sky. But as beautiful as the morning starts before my eyes, I knew today was going to be horrible.I was still inside Nick's car. I was still with him. After what I told him last night, neither of us spoke to each other anymore. I didn't try to say anything because I think I already embarrassed myself too much in front of him. I didn't even catch any sleep because I couldn't sleep at all. I couldn't sleep knowing that he didn't say anything to what I said. I'm still inside his car and he's still sitting down right next to me. We acted like neither of us existed.The car was parked right before the cliff where I could see the entire city below. My head was

CHAPTER 43 CarapherneliaCaraphernelia- a broken-heart disease that occurs whenever someone leaves you, but leaves all of their things behind43"Tell me to leave." He says.I didn't answer."Push me away. Treat me like a complete shit like how I treated you before." he says.I didn't answer again.He looks at me and my eyes couldn't look away. Oh Nick I can't do that. Even if you hurt me, I can't hurt you like that cos I love you and I'm too scared of pushing you away cos I know you won't come back."Make me leave Savannah." He added.I shake my head, my words are not coming out from my lips and I don't know why."If you'll tell me to go then I'll go. I'll leave you." He continues as I feel his breath on my neck. But I shake my head once again.His arms were wrapping around my entire body. He's hugging me close to him that I can't seem to move away cos I love our position. My arms were on my sides. I'm not hugging him back. I don't want to feel anything attached to us anymore cos I

CHAPTER 45 NazlanmakNazlanmak- pretending reluctance or indifference when you are actually willing or eager; saying no and meaning yesOrigin: Turkish45"What are you doing here?" I closed the door behind me.He stands from my bed."And how'd you get in?" I arched an eyebrow."I always have a spare key in this room."I looked away from him cos the more I look at him, I always remember what he said to Alec. It's getting harder for me and him being here is making me so confused."Why are you here Nick?" I demanded but I'm still not looking at him."You heard everything?" He asks."A while ago?" he added.I couldn't answer him. My tears are filling up my eyes again. I blink rapidly so I could stop my tears from falling. These are always gonna be tears of hurt caused by Nick. Tears of shame cos of my shameful decisions that I made. I feel shitty about myself cos Nick made me feel shitty.Nick starts walking towards me and reaches for my hand. I'm still not looking at him. His huge soft

CHAPTER 47 KalopsiaKalopsia- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really areOrigin: Greek47SAVANNAH'S POVI was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon."Savannah. Good to see you here."I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick."Can I share a table?" He asked.I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."I nod.Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?""Fine. Thanks." I answered.He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I con

CHAPTER 49 LítostLítost- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"Origin: Czech49I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?My phone rings again.Nick calling...I answer it.He exhales. "Where did you go?"I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster."Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.I exhale. "Why do y