My brain stopped interpreting things. I can't believe what my ears heard. "I broke up with Claire." He said and let out a sigh. "You broke up with her?" I asked just to get a double confirmation. "Yes. I mean, it's not like she and I were in any relationship or something. Even it's a fling I stopped it." He said while shrugging his shoulders. "Why?" I asked in a quiet tone. I tried hard to control the smile my lips were about to unleash. I was happy that he let go of his fling and single again but at some part, I still feel sad that he's single again and there's no way he will be with me. Adam moved aside and sat beside me. I got up from bed and sat on it. "I just gave a thought to what you said." He replied. "Will you spill it?. I'm not getting anything from your half words." I said with a bit impatient tone. You don't know how happy one becomes when the person you have one side love from gets s

The next morning, I woke up and went downstairs. I met mum at the dining table. "Morning, Martin." Mum greeted with her usual warm smile. "Morning, mum." I greeted back and sat at one of the chairs at the dining table. "I made your favorite breakfast," Mum said with a big smile. "Thanks, mum. You do spoil me too much." I said as I started eating. "Of course, a mum would spoil her child, in a good way," Mum said with a smile and I let out a small chuckle in reply. "Did you get a call from Adam, yesterday?" Mum asked after a few minutes of silence. "Yeah." I nodded my head in reply. "And that he won't come home for a week?" Mum added. "Come on, mum. It's just a week. He promised to come back on his birthday." I said trying to comfort her. "He also promised to come back as soon as he gets graduated," Mum added and hung her head down. "Mum, I want to see hi

"What are you starving for?" I asked as anger started on me. "You really want to know?. Why didn't any of you tried to contact me?" He asked with a bit loud tone. "We did. Why didn't you inform us where you are going." I said in the same tone as he is. "That's an excuse. I didn't know the plan was changed until we got there." He yelled back. "You know what, that's an excuse too. No one thought that would have happened and when it happened it was already late. Don't shout at us everyone is suffering as much as you are." I replied as the anger raised in me. He's speaking without thinking and making lame excuses what was I supposed to do?. I was in as much pain as he is. "You should have waited for me." He shouted on my face. "You really thought, Master, didn't try?. We waited for two days until the people we sent searched for you. The only way to wait for longer was to let mum wait in the morgue. It took you four

The whole drive went with both of us talking absolutely nothing. The person whose mouth never used to shut up is now staring at the road from the glassed window in silence while constantly reminding himself that he's guilty of everything that has happened. I pulled the car when we reached the graveyard. It reminds me of the funeral....again, which funeral? both. Both the woman who loved me died as I saw them helplessly doing nothing. I was a freak, I have always been, Adam thinks he's the one at fault but I know that it's me. I was there when both my mums left their last breaths and what did I do?, nothing, I stood there watching both of them like a freaking show and done nothing. I can never forgive myself, I hate myself for doing nothing. No one blames me for anything, even Master or dad, but everyone knows that if I had taken care of them with full consciousness then at least one of them would have lived. I'm a total idiot, I should be the one buried here,

"How many times should I say, so you will stop blaming yourself?." I asked while gripping his shoulders tightly."Never. It has always been my fault. I should have come home when mum asked. Then she would have been here." He continued blaming himself."ADAM, STOP BLAMING YOURSELF," I shouted on his face."I lost someone I love and I know how it feels. You would never know. So, shut the hell up." He shouted back.I let out a small scoff and let his hands go. All the strength I have been holding till now just broke into pieces. His voice echoed in my ears and that broke my heart more. I took a few steps back when my legs started losing their strength. I looked at Adam and his face was showing regret. He regrets immediately what he said, but it's too late."Mar-" Before he could say anything I stopped him by showing my hand."I don't know how it feels to lose somebody? right. I don't, maybe I would never." I said w