“Don’t be ridiculous, Eric. Even if I am to be staring at a fish, will it be in this pool?” He asked and his question made some kind of sense, though.“I was just looking at my reflection, wondering what if humans could look at the reflection of their own hearts. I just wondered if at all I will be able to even look at the reflection of mine. Maybe my heart is so dark that if I am to look at it's reflection, I will never be able to recognize it.” He said and I just looked at him, admiring how he was guilty about some things concerning him.  I looked down at my own reflection and all I could see was my pretty face and nothing else. Rein came closer and then whispered in my ears. “Do you see it?” He asked and I shook my head.“It’s just a Rein Jackson thing.” I tell him and then look away, into the sky and feel his hand on mine, as I could feel his fingers walk down

 Erica's body was pressed against Rein's sensually. She wanted him, now even more than ever. If they don’t do it this night, then they will never have the chance to because she will be humiliated when the time comes.She was pregnant. Her mind reminded back to the time when she was at the pool. For some days, she had been feeling nauseous and uneasy. So she did a test which confirmed that she was actually pregnant. A few days pregnant! She knew who was responsible for it because the last time she and Rein ever got intimate was quite a long time ago.With their marriage being postponed, she was devastated that he was giving her very little attention so she went to the bar and hooked up with someone unexpected. Her ex boyfriend. She didn’t plan on meeting him and especially not here when she knew fully well that Rein could watch her movements anytime he wanted.She was practically scared but scared of being caught by her

 I couldn’t believe I selfishly complained to her when she had issues, which maybe were worst than my chaotic and stupid love life.When she turned around to look at me, I was happy. I didn’t want her to see me as someone that was not one they could depend on. She had helped me out, many times in the past. And maybe this one time, I could be of help to her. I wanted to be strong…. Plus, it will be a way of helping me to get rid of my stupid feelings for Rein.That each time I can’t control whenever I see him. At times I wonder, how do straight people ever turn out gay?“You had something to say, remember?” I tell Leila and she smiles before relaxing herself. Seeing that she won’t try to walk away, I loosen my grasp on her hand with a little and faint smile and we continue walking together. At first, it’s like she doesn’t want to tell me anything but then she starts to talk.

 “She and I used to date each other. She was my girlfriend.” I was shocked when Lei said that to me. The shock was so much that I couldn’t handle.Erica and Leila were a couple? Meaning she was lesbian, before?“Yes! We used to be a couple before. By then Erica and I acted so crazily on love. In fact, she was the one who disvirgined me.”I was the more shocked hearing that Erica had taken Lei's virginity. It never once occurred to me that Erica was gay until today. Could it be that because of what she and Lei shared together, she is acting that way towards me now because she has a feeling that I and Rei can become a couple?Wow, it sounded absurd but refreshing in the ears. Because somehow, I knew that even if no one could believe in our love, Erica was a die hard believer who however was against it. That however is the first step, isn’t it.  ***FLAS

  •|ERIC|•   It was time for Layla's birthday. A lot had happened ever since Lei and her sister moved in with us… for example, Erica had been avoiding us and then Rein had been undeniably too close to me. I will always spend the time with him, wait for him while he comes back home from work, and play games with him, like good old buddies would do. My mind wasn’t stable at all. It was hard been around him, and try so hard to control myself around him. How could I explain it? How was I going to keep it all buried inside me?   What’s more, Lei always teased me about it. “The way you are eyeing him. Maybe we should just set up a romantic date for the both of you and you can tell him about the feelings….. Then you can tell me how you both go about doing it… you know what I mean.” She will tease me and my face will flush red of embarrassment. She’s so wrong but so right in every sense possible. I wanted it, a moment with h