Sometimes in life we come to a crossroad, a choice. This was mine. I laid there one evening and my mind started to wander back, I never truly gave myself time to mourn the family and friends I lost. I have been running for such a long time, never standing in the moment to just embrace. To just feel, to remember and mourn the loss of my innocence or to give myself the time to process all that happened so I did. I cried, I let it all out. Every time I felt unsafe, violated, fear, anger, sadness. I just let the emotions run through me, the memories. I took time, to forgive every single person who have ever hurt me, my uncle always said that forgiveness isn’t for the person who hurt you. It's for yourself, because unforgiveness is like a cancer it feeds on you and drains you. The other person will continue on with their lives, it’s yours that doesn’t continue who comes to a complete stop. So I let my world stand still for a moment and found forgiveness that wasn’t the hard part. The hard

After a couple of weeks, our parents invited us over for dinner at the same place we always went for dinner. I dressed up, for the occasion. Keegan as always couldn’t take his eyes off of me. “You look so beautiful Kitten” I couldn’t help it. I loved him I loved the way he looked at me as if I was the only woman in the room, as if I was the only thing his entire life revolved around and he still hasn’t left. My mom told me she had to come clean and tell him everything. And he still came for me, he still looked at me as if I was the best thing in the entire world. At first, he didn’t want to make love to me so I left him no choice when I dressed up into a sexy little outfit waiting for him in bed after I left a note against the door warning him that if someone was with him, they had to turn around and go home. I loved the way how he already started undressing the moment he came into the room. He made love to me endlessly that night, I had no idea what was going on with me but I just co

We didn’t want everyone to know that we are pregnant until we had the all clear from the gynecologist, so we went to our first appointment. The Doctor placed a clear gel on my stomach as he worked the wand from left to right, she started to smile “well there’s one, and if I move it like this you would see another one.” I froze “twins” she nodded her head so I turned towards Keegan he had a breathtaking smile on his face his eyes were lit with wonder and awe as he stood there staring at the screen. The doctor then moved the wand again “do you want to hear the heartbeats?” we both nodded enthusiastically she pressed a couple of buttons and then turned the speaker on. I felt my emotions running wild as I heard both my babies’ heartbeats. “It sounds like running horses” Keegan grabbed my hand and kissed it slowly as he wet my hand with his tears. I turned towards him “tears of joy?” he nodded but couldn’t say a word. He was choked up and I could feel my own tears to well up. The doctor as

Months agoAlexa P.O.VWe left for the dance floor and I saw Kade he always had a way to look at me with that darn sly smile that had me weak in the knees and I hated the effect this man had on my body. I started dancing with different men, thriving on all the attention I received. Rocking my red backless dress and black stilettos, my red auburn hair flowing lose against my breasts as I grinded against my current dance partner. Owning my femineity and confidence. But when I turned around Kade was the man I was grinding up against, I couldn’t help but feel superior by the way his eyes were filled with lust. I moved closer, our lips mere inches apart. I liked his lip teasing him. His hands gripped my hips, as he was clearly trying to keep himself under control. But this was the part I loved, making them lose control, making them realize who was really in control. Me. I slid my hand gently down his chest making my way down to his cock. Leaning closer I could feel his breathing speed up a

Alexa P.O.VWe did it again, I swear that man did not hear a single fucking word I said. We went at it the whole damn day; I could barely walk. But of course, I snuck out, again. What the fuck did he expect, he passed out during one of our sessions. And slept like I paid him to, and he wants to know why I disappeared in the first place? This is way it takes me months to recover and I love sex seriously I do but for fuck sakes, he should give me a damn fucking break to I couldn’t even go grab a bottle of water and he was on me like a lion starving for his next meal. He just fucking ate, I made it home almost crawling. Everything hurt, every muscle inside of me was spasmatic. Contracting as if I just ran a damn marathon, no wonder the son of a bitch passed out. Maybe he had a heart attack but I was hurting way too much to even check. My phone buzzed and I just knew it was Cat asking if I told him yet so I answered. “Yes.” Even talking took way too much energy,” and did you tell him?” I