I sat on the couch waiting for Miall to arrive, my knees bobbed up and down as I sat on my hands bored, Nyleve couldn't wait with me because she had a pack meeting to get to which Miall could be excused for because she’s there.This packhouse was weird, it was divided into two sections, Nyleve’s house and the literal packhouse. She said she wanted it that way because then she would be able to have access to everyone who would need her, she was such a mother to everyone and it was cute.“I hope I didn’t keep you waiting long?” Miall said as he walked in looking frustrated already.“No?” I asked getting up, I smoothed down my skirt and put my arms behind my back looking up at him. “Mom went to the pack meeting,” I said to him as he looked around.“Oh, the pack meeting,” he whispered, threading his fingers through his hair. “I totally forgot about that,” he said and I had no idea how to respond to that.“She said she will fill in for you,” I said slowly, this was awkward. Just because I

“Wow,” Nyleve said again for the umpteenth time, she sat on my bed blushing over the scans, it was the first time I was seeing her smile like this.“Would you like to keep that one?” I asked her and she looked at me surprised.“Really?”“Yeah, you can keep it,” I said smiling.“I’m going to frame it!” She said excitedly. “I’m sure Miall is looking at it right now,” she said looking at the scan.“He didn’t take one,” I said to her and she turned her head.“What? Why?”“I don’t know, but he did ask me to stop hanging out with Orion because he’s in love with Willow and whatnot,” I said, waving my hand as I prepared to go to bed.“He said what!?” She got up and I shrugged. “He should be spending time with you, does he not know how important it is for vhafunwa to be with each other at this period! I’m going to have to talk to him.”“Nyleve, it’s alright. I respect his decision and it just shows he’s serious about Willow, you should be more understanding, she’s going to be your daughter in

This part of my day felt sane, lately, I felt like I’ve been losing it. Things haven’t been the same since I cut off the connection between Orion and Amanah, I haven’t even been around to see her and the guilt has got me by the neck.That isn’t even the worst of it, sometimes, I wake up right outside Amanah’s room and I know that it’s Orion who takes me there, it’s as if he’s torturing me just to see what my reaction would be, he knows I can’t see her because I feel bad for what I did.He hides the memories of the things he does when he takes over, but he never fails to always play the memory of Amanah crying herself to sleep, he plays it over and over again, the moment I feel peace, I see her staring at the ceiling with her hands placed over her belly as the tears stream down her skin. If I’m ever with Willow, the picture of Amanah is plastered all over my head and I can’t think.“What are you thinking of?” My mom asked and I looked at her and smiled, I am so grateful she’s here with

I wasn’t angry with Miall anymore, in fact, I liked the fact that he came to spend the rest of the day with me, even though in the beginning he acted like an ass but it was nice being around him.I finished bathing and getting dressed, walking into my room, I found Miall sitting on the bed looking at the scan, I climbed behind him and peeked over his shoulder. “What gender do you think it is?” I asked him and he looked at me and shrugged. Is this what people mean when they say someone took their breath away? Staring at Miall like this felt illegal, his scent wafted through my nostrils and I had already fallen into a trap laid by his eyes. Why do they look so soft today? His canines cutely showed as he smiled, he genuinely looked happy and it made me feel like I was falling for him, why does it feel okay for me to want him even though I know he could never be with me. Perhaps I'm just too close to him.“I don’t know, whatever they are I want them despite what the pack says about it,”

I walked down the stairs after getting dressed, what Miall had just done in that room was still fresh in my mind, what was it with that look? Just thinking about it gives me goosebumps.“Did she kiss you again?” Malakhi asked and I wondered how he found out about what happened, did Miall tell him? Of course, who else would have! I’m quite sure Nyleve didn’t see anything happen nor was she suspicious.“No I didn’t, and stop eating my guest’s fruits!” I scolded as I headed to the door, why am I so calm about this?“Guest?” Miall asked as he got up and walked towards me with his arms crossed against his chest, damn.“Yes, my tutor,” I smiled as I opened the door and there he stood.“Morning, I’m Michael Sage,” he said with an irresistible smile.It felt like time stopped as I stared at him, his eyes looked almost similar to Anin’s but his were a bit of an electric blue while Anin’s were an ice blue. His round glasses sat perfectly on his face, the bridge of his nose being the perfect fit