The door got banged open, and I jumped two feet from the bed, Jake stumbled inside. “Jake? Where the fuck have you been? I’ve been worried sick about you.” The first sentence after I surprisingly exclaimed his name was pure relief, the second was harsh. I got up, but when I started to walk across the room, I noticed something was off. His balance was hell and his eyes blurry. A reek of alcohol hit my nose. “Are you… drunk?” I gasped in shock, but before he could answer I had to stabilize him, otherwise he would have gone down on his face. “Yeah, I think so.” He chuckled with a stupid smile on his face. I got him guided to the bed. He was swaying a lot, and I had trouble keeping him upright. Jesus Christ! I didn’t think he was even capable of getting himself undressed, so I started to take off his jacket. “Come here, Val.” He grabbed my waist and pulled me backward down to sit on his lap as I had turned around to hang up his jacket. I dropped it on the

One part of me really longed to fuck her again, but the other part was too tired and too drained. I still had a hangover, but it was definitely better than earlier. The clawing demons had begun waking up inside of me again. They had been momentarily numbed by the alcohol and the major hangover. She was in the shower. I really needed her, just her presence and closeness. Should I ask if I could join her? No, I don’t have to, couples showered together. I took off all my clothes and opened the door to the bathroom. I pulled the shower curtain aside, she was standing beside the running water with shampoo in her hair. I stepped in under the running water like it was something I did every day. With her. Her eyes had widened and stared, and she had frozen for a second when I had pulled the shower curtain aside, now she closed them again and continued. Well, she didn’t kick me out, so it must be okay with her, though she looked… reticent? Reserved? I felt lik

“Jake? Jake! Take a look at this.” Val suddenly burst out and wavered me over to her with frantic arms. I was slightly perplexed but did as she said. She had a document open on the screen. I leaned in over her shoulder to read. I got more and more shocked and confused the more I read. Where the fuck did this come from? When I read the note from my dad at the bottom of the document, it was like a knife stabbed my heart and got twisted around. “Where did you find this?” I demanded, but even my voice was affected by the shock. “It-it was in a locked folder. I finally cracked the password.” She explained. It made less and less sense. A locked folder? “Seriously?” I asked her, and she just nodded. I felt something replace the shock. It started pounding in my veins. Started in my heart, that still felt stabbed and twisted, and slowly spread throughout my whole body. “This is… gold!” She exclaimed. No, this is a betrayal. Why would he keep th

I think she was asleep. I couldn’t help but think that her being distant was connected with the fact that I had called her my girlfriend, I was pretty positive actually. I just don’t understand why. We were a couple whether she liked it or not. At least in my opinion. Why did everything have to be this complicated with her? Why couldn’t this just be easy and uncomplicated? Like before dad died. What’s wrong with being a couple? Doesn’t she want me as her boyfriend? Is this just sex to her? No, it can’t be. She said she needed me. She had said it often. I don’t know for how long I thought about this subject, but suddenly we were already here. “We’re here.” I poked her shoulder. I was actually a little pissed at her because she was so frustrating. Redheads… I walked in front of her to the reception. Don’t let it in control… I took a deep breath to calm down. It helped. When the receptionist asked if we wanted a king or two queens, I looked at her. “Val?” I let the choi

In the corner of my eye, I caught her movement, a sweet smell hit my nose. I looked up at her and saw she was rubbing something into her neck. “What’s that?” I asked.“Aloe vera lotion.” She only said.Aloe vera lotion? What did that do? Why?“You know, it’s known for its healing properties.” She told me when I kept staring at her like she had heard my question.Healing? The bite marks. They hurt of course. I felt a demon coming forward, waved provocatively in front of me. It was bathed in guilt. I looked down at the screen again, away from her green eyes. Why did I feel guilty? I knew they hurt when I inflicted them on her, but of course, they would hurt until they healed. When I bit her, marked her, I felt some kind of… release. It felt good, and I loved doing it to her. But I hadn’t thought of the consequences. How long did it take a bruise like that to heal? A week? Ten days? And the one on