I am a very focused man. I listen carefully, understand what I’ve heard and am always aware of my surroundings. But looking at Lisa sitting next to me, has my senses disoriented. I know she is speaking, but I am barely able to fathom the words. My only desire at this moment is to have my moving lips crash with mine. I have a pressing need to drink the words out of her mouth and stop when I have screaming my name. I have always been careful to not make her uncomfortable. She could never guess my feelings for her because I was always carefully hiding them. I think there comes in point in every person’s life when everything they keep buried in the deepest corner of their heart propels out with maximum force. I am observing her as she bites her lip. Hold on a moment? Did she just bite her lip? I feel a tension growing in my pants. Her eyes are now locked with mine and both a second both of us find ourselves without words. I look at her neck and want to kiss it. To my surprise, she brus

I open the door to my apartment in a haste and make my way to my bed, dropping, almost instantly, on the bed. I look at the ceiling and all I see is her face. This isn’t the time for all that. She has a massive battle coming up that could cost her life. She is with Marc, who if I take her word is a werewolf. There is no way I could get into a fight with him and win. I have been around her for years and nothing. He waltz into her life for a few months and now he is in her life, her bedroom and her heart. Maybe I should tell her how I feel about all this? But what happened today could so easily be the construct of my mind, I contemplate loosing her altogether."Behave, or it'll be the end of you."Marc’s word ring in my ears and I find myself both terrified and angry at the same time. Jealousy and frustration of being powerless drive me crazy and strip my clothes and step into the shower for the second time today. I slam my hand hard against the wall again. It feels like I am back to