90 : "Lionheart"Lionheart90G A G EEveryone buzzed about our well-deserve break from showbiz and I'm torn between being excited for it and not. The entire band decided to have that even though the management was totally against it.I think I needed this hiatus more than anyone else in the band. I wanna think about the things that happened lately and my contract with Scanty is almost about to end. I am sure that I won't be renewing with them and I'm signing up to Jeff Azoff's. Somewhat he's my great friend and I trust him on handling me.When we ended the OTRA Tour, it was at Sheffield on October 31st year 2015. I haven't seen Tate since we broke up last June 9th and it was the most tragic. Every time we have a day off from all the touring, I always go to New York to see her and maybe talk things with her even if New York was way far from where I was staying. I always find time for her but she didn't.After we broke up, Tate had left her apartment without me knowing it. I talked to

92 : "Drunk & High"Drunk & High92T A T EThe loud music was busting up these four walls of the club, it was pretty pretty loud almost deafening to the ears. I can't even hear my own thoughts, it's crazy. Most men were into groups of four to many were all busy drinking and chattering. Most slut looking women that were around were dancing up against a man or two that they probably just met while I'm here drowning myself with troubles and pain.I groan as I take a long drink from my third glass of tequila. Third glass, believe that! And I've never been a tequila fan. I swear I was really planning on getting drunk tonight because of one thing and that's because I was so so so stupid for letting Gage slip away."Has he commented yet?" Monique asks.I shake my head and pouted."Did he even hit you up?" She asks again.I sigh heavily. "Nothing!"I've been keeping on refreshing and refreshing my Instagram account but not even a single notification that was coming from Gage popped out and i

94 : "Timing"Timing94T A T EBy six fifty-seven in the evening, someone rang my doorbell. I hurriedly walked to it and fixed myself first before opening it.There stands Eli with a huge smile on his face and a bottle of wine on his hand. "Hi. I'm three minutes early." He says.I chuckle. "Hey. It's fine. Come in." I widened the door for him and he walks inside my house."Wow. You have a lovely home Tate." He complimented."Ah, thanks. I haven't been here since... I don't know.. June?" I shrug. "I'll take that wine?"He hands it to me and accepted it with both hands. "I haven't done making the pasta though. Is pasta fine with you?" I asked."Sure. Let me help you around the kitchen."I hear his footsteps following me to the kitchen and as soon as I placed the wine inside the fridge, Eli was already standing by the kitchen counter. "I didn't know you cook." He says."My mom was... Ummm... She loved cooking and uhhh this is her favorite dish to make. You'll get to taste the side of Sp

96 : "Eli"Eli96G A G EI have never been mad and disappointed in my entire life at someone this much. I really hate all of the people that composes the Scanty! Management. Eli has always been right since the beginning of this, they're all liars. I can't believe we stayed to such people for a long time and actually trusted them that they can actually give us the real happiness. I was so wrong about them. All of them. They always make us want to lie to the fans, to our family, to the people around us and even to our own selves.They are all so selfish.I know every signed artist has rules to follow because of the contract but I just couldn't believe that I let them rule my life all this time and all these years. I've never been this happier when I signed for Jeff and finally left them. I am glad that he has my back unlike how Scanty would actually do dirty things without our knowing.When I look back at it now and the things that they did to my life and the mess that they've caused n

98 : "Small Town"Small Town98T A T E"Here's your order sweetheart." Gage placed my macchiato in front of me after grabbing it from the counter. I smiled to thank him but I was inwardly distracted.We were sitting inside Starbucks, just having an afternoon date together. It wasn't like it used to and now he'd always sit away from me. We were actually sitting right across each other now and letting all people look over our table. I watch as Gage signed some autographs and talked casually to some fans who came up to our table. I watched him do his thing and I was so amused that he's still so calm at how he treats his fans. No, he doesn't treat his fans as fans. He treats them as if he had known them for so long. "Thank you Gage." The little girls bids goodbye.When his fans had left our table, he turned to look back at me again. "What's wrong?" He asks.I shake my head sideways. "Nothing. I'm just always amused at how you treat your fans."He smirks. "Well they all have a special pl