10L I N D YJolene Jolene Jolene Who is she?I have never heard of that name.Jolene?Who is she?Jolene was a name I have never ever heard before coming from Milo or anyone else in his circle. She was a name with a dead end and I do not know how to actually feel about that. I can tell from the look in their eyes that there was something else that they were hiding which coming from this woman named Jolene. Jolene. I repeat her name in the back of my head.Jolene, I repeated again.But my head is blank.I try to recall if the lads had mentioned about that name before, but I am sure that they have never had mentioned any woman's name that is Jolene.Jolene.A name that rings no bell.Who in hell is she anyway?And furthermore, why is it the only time that I hear her name?Who is she to Milo?What were they?Her name is already bugging me and the thought about what she was and who she actually was to Milo is making me feel so anxious just thinking about it,God, who in actual freaki

12MILOGwyneth stares at me angrily and scowls in frustration and I understand what she was trying to make us understand but I only want to think of the good things now. Lindy would think that Gwyneth was disappointed that I got her pregnant and probably worries about the fact that we lied to her but I know Gwyneth is thinking of another thing. Gwyneth is thinking about Jolene and I can not stop thinking about her too now that this is all happening again.The entire night went by fast and we were not able to have a movie night. Lindy had fallen asleep in the bedroom after crying about how she felt like she betrayed Gwyneth’s trust. Lindy’s been fragile and I do not really like seeing her cry after what I have done to her before. I did not want her to go through that kind of pain again, the kind of pain that I am always the reason behind it.I did not want it.Gwyneth is staying in the room on the floor right above us and had not talked to me after she found out about the pregnancy. I

14L I N D YWhen we reached Connecticut, it was already seven-thirty on a Monday morning and I have a class at eight so I still have a few minutes left before it would start. Milo hurriedly drove me to school after eating breakfast together and I have tried my best to ignore the bothering thought about Jolene even though she had kept bothering me since I knew about her.Every single time I pause or do nothing or do something, I keep thinking about her. She has now infiltrated my thoughts and I cannot seem to stop wondering who she might be. I know I should ask about her to Milo just to clear my thoughts about her and my worries that keeps surging and flooding inside me and my head. Milo having nightmares must be about Jolene or maybe it is someone related to her, but if it is about her, then who is she to Milo?Jesus Christ, who in hell is Jolene?I have to ask Milo.I stared intently at him as he was driving which causes him to look back at me, "Something wrong baby?" He questions m

16L I N D YJake pauses from eating and just stares at me, “You know I kind of regretted why I never really had the guts to be friends with you.”I was taken aback by his words because they seemed as if it was something I would want to hear when I would be in high school. I have always had a huge crush on Jake but I guess hearing those words now no longer mattered to me because I have Milo and we are going to have a child soon. Although Jake’s words are flattering, it still makes me happy to hear that he wanted to be friends with me.“I am way out of your league. Your friends were so cool. All so cool.” I answered while laughing under my throat and staring at my hands.“Maybe.” He chuckles. “Maybe they were the cool ones and I was not.""What?""I did not feel like I fit in though. I did not feel like I was cool or something so I did not try to be cool in any way.”“What do you mean?” I asked. "You are cool."He stares at me and shakes his head, “Nah, I was just an average student. B

18Finally the foods were served one by one and everything on the table looked so mouthwatering. We started eating right away and I was taking bigger bites than Milo that made him kind of laugh as we continued to eat and talk about how his meeting went and why it took him too long to pick me up. He constantly would wipe my cheek with the table napkin and laugh adorably at me.“I’m really hungry.” I said.“Didn’t you eat earlier?”I was then reminded that I wasn’t able to eat during lunch and I only had the snack bars that Jake gave me. It wasn’t so bad but the kind of hunger hours passed since I ate it was undeniably striking. I wanted to skip class just to eat but we had an exam.“I ate a light meal.” I answered.“Light meal? Christ Lindy, you should remember that you’re no longer eating for yourself.”“I know. I’m sorry. I promise I would eat more next time.”“Please take care of yourself.” He tells me dearly.“I will.” I smiled reassuringly.He smiles back. “You should eat a lot. H