Elena’s pov;You shouldn’t hate yourself but the world instead.It’s very important to do what’s best for you, whether people approve of it or not. This is your life.But what if that self-love is turned into hatred? That is when the person starts to act all depressed.Just like me. The irony, you see. The will to fight and live gets snatched away from your hands in seconds.Growing up, I saw several parents with their children in the park, playing and joking around. They adore their little ones. And I? I used to sit in a secluded area, trembling, to hide from the monster that lived within the house of evil.Inhale and exhale. The tears that spilled out of my eyes had no effect on him. They say that crying is a way your eyes speak when your mouth cant explain how broken your heart is.But was he able to see the battered heart? No.He was ruthless. Like a beast. His own daughter had died at the hands of his drunk girlfriend infront of him, the trauma took a huge turn when I came into

Elena’s pov;Ever had the feeling when you wanna burst your anger out just because your officially fed up? oh well that is exactly what I’m feeling right now.After that encounter with Maddie this morning, I ran back to my room with surfing anger, the only thing that could calm me down was singing.So I had rushed to the gym, the only place which was mostly empty after breakfast.Sitting in the middle of the weird looking machines, I sighed for the thirteenth time, loving the feeling of her words that had sparked another wave of hatred in my gut.Was I happy for holding hatred in such a younger age? the answer was a simple, yes. Cause why not?People should get what they deserve.Humming the tune that I wrote a few days ago, I got in the rhythmic music that played in my mind.“Take a deep breath, Make both sides of your chest numb, until it hurts a bit, breathe more.There is nothing left inside of you, until you feel.It’s okay even if you’re out of breath,No one blames you.” Heav

Elena's pov; Fall and leave everything behind as if nothing happened. Some people adapt to their surroundings but some don't. Those who don't always pay the harsh price. They never forgive but instead they live with those harsh memories and torture themselves with those thoughts until nothing is left. "Red or blue?" "Ew, no to both!" "You're just jealous I can wear this but you can't." Ella snickered, looking at Elias. I sighed leaning back on the red couch as the brothers counterattacked Ella with their lazy comebacks. Earlier the day, Ella suddenly threw her opinion of going to the beach and the family agreed to it without any issue. And I? as always want to stay back. But these people can't let me. Ryder replied, "why would Elias want to wear that? he ain't even a goddamn female." She huffed and crossed her arms over her puffy chest, "Whatever." Her gaze shifted on the pilled up clothes. "Elena, are you really not coming with us?" I shook my head. "No." "But why? We c

Elena's pov;The summer breeze flew with pressure, leaving a tingly sensation on my bare neck."Sunscreen?" Ella asked. Her own hands filled up with an ample amount of cream which she vigorously applied on her naked arms and legs.I shook my head and got up, muttering. "I'll be back. Just going for a quick stroll." Without hearing Ryder's reply, I went further away from the happy family.To me, it felt like a huge sin when I sat with them. They looked peaceful with each other and to be honest, I didn't won't another argument to rise because of me.My trails of thoughts died down as I neared the ocean.A small smile grazed my face. The wind harshly collided with my body, making me feel the emotions I longed for, since young.The lapping majestic aqua waves came crashing onto my naked feet, wetting my dress in the process.My whole soul was hypnotized by the powerful emerging tides. It was beautiful, alluring and calming at the same time.Gripping my dress, I lifted it up till my mid fo

Elena's pov;The lunch was boring.The family had chatted with each other whilst I stayed quiet through the whole time, just hoping for the time to pass by. Stephan momentarily gazed at me for few times but I ignored the usual.Now, finally I was in my assigned room, alone. Away from everyone. The younger ones were busy playing something in the game room of the hotel however the older ones were already gone to their rooms, to rest. Elias did ask me, but I'd clearly denied.I leaned against the metal.The cool air slapped my face but I honestly didn't care. It was refreshing and calming as ever. Something about being alone with your thoughts brought a sense of superiority because I knew I would fight them off like a soldier in a war. But on the other hand, the memories painted me in the color red. The type of red which couldn't be washed away no matter how much you tried to get rid of it.Life is just venomous. One second it gives you happiness and excitement while the other second it