KylarI feel as though Ava and I are finally getting somewhere. Over the last two days she’s surprised me, in a lot of good ways. I never expected her to join me on a date, not really. Not when her walls are so high and she’s so defensive and uncertain. It should put me off. Her continued refusal to acknowledge anything between us. Instead, it makes me want to know more about her. I want to unravel the mystery that she is. She’s not a shy, passive woman. She’s put herself through college and become a Doctor. She’s a Rogue, that Grandma Maria explained had been living in the city, without our detection for years. So she’s able to resist the pull of her wolf. She’s strong. Yet, I always get the feeling that behind that strength and resilience, she’s vulnerable. The reason she pushes me away, that she spends all her time keeping people at a distance, is because she’s afraid. She’s been hurt. Everytime I think about it, I get this sick feeling in the bottom of my stomach. A desire to r

AvaAlpha Anton stood staring at Lou as though she had three heads before suddenly he turned to Marie. He bent down, eyes still fixed on Lou, who was busy scribbling onto a pad. What she was writing, I’ve got no idea, because it’s not as if we have any patients. I expected some kind of reaction from the Alpha, to the human walking freely through his territory, but it’s Lou’s reaction I find strange. Lou’s almost worse than I am, when it comes to dating. She definitely dates, but they’re short term flings. She dates then drops, with no intention to commit to anything. She’s left a trail of heartbroken junior doctors throughout the Hospital. However, I would swear that under Anton’s gaze she’s blushing like a school girl.I don’t have time to investigate, because my son’s take the opportunity to start climbing an unused stack of chairs. Helping each other up, with teamwork and problem solving skills that should be applauded. But I’m too busy trying to save their lives. The rest of the

I was called away from the village again, the day after my conversation with Ava. I’m grateful, it gave me some more time to adjust to the idea of being a Father. Even if I’m haunted by the look in her eyes, her fear at the thought I would take the children from her.I know there are some packs out there, where the children would be claimed under ownership of their sire, but Midnight Forest has moved past those primitive roots. I still don’t know what Pack Ava was originally from, but I can’t help but wonder if it was archaic in its structure and expectation. It’s a conversation I know we’ll have to have one day. How did she become a rogue, what pack was she from? Knowing Ava, and I think that I do, even if I’ve been blindsided by the twins, I can’t imagine her betraying her pack. I can’t imagine that she deserved to be rejected that way. Being away will hopefully give Ava time to accept what I told her. That I want to be part of their lives. I’m serious about it. I want to know

‘He’s going to be just fine,’ Ava steps out from the medical room, with Katie following behind her. She looks relaxed and I’m on my feet, moving towards her.‘You knew what was wrong?’ I can’t take my eyes off her. It feels like she’s worked some kind of magic.‘My predecessor did,’ she lifts up the notebook, ‘he mentioned that some venoms can prevent our healing abilities. Luca was bitten by a Spearhead Snake, either before or after his fight with the Rogue. It meant that instead of healing up, he was bleeding out internally.’I pull in an uneven breath, reaching out to balance myself with a hand against the wall, ‘he’s going to be okay?’ Everything she’s said sounds serious. I always think of myself as invulnerable, nearly immortal. Taking down Rogue’s is dangerous, but I’m bigger, stronger and faster than most other wolves, including the Alphas.I don’t tend to think of the rest of the world as dangerous, but this has shaken me to the core. ‘He’s going to be okay?’‘He’s res

I’m not sure why I agreed to dance with Luca, but perhaps I’m too easily convinced into things these days. He’s been a constant around the medical centre for the last few weeks, in Kylar absence. At first I was worried that he might have an ulterior motive, wanting to get closer to me. But after the first week, I realised that he has no romantic interest in me. In fact, he’s quite clearly in love with Kylar’s Sister, Kate. She bought her young daughters in for a standard check up appointment at the end of that first week. He had been helping out in the store room, cataloguing. I understood that he wanted something to do, whilst he recovered from the venom in his bloodstream. He was disappointed that Kylar and the others had shipped out without him. I’m impressed with the members of this pack, when they’re displaced from their usual routines. They work, they find other ways to fill their time productively rather than spending all their time and money in Eclipse. When Kate came in