39. Amore Mio

SEBASTIAN......

I strode across the hallway with my thoughts running wild. My jaw was clenched and my fists were balled on my sides because of how hard I was trying to control myself.

Fuck!

I almost kissed her.

What the hell was I thinking about? I knew that if I kissed her, I wouldn't be able to stop this growing feeling inside me. These feelings, which I could only feel for her ever since I felt numb. Our kiss would only be poisonous for me and I don't think that there will be any cure for it. It will only lead me to destruction.

I would get lost and I don't want to get lost again. Even though being lost in her warmth sounds so fucking good to me. I couldn't. I couldn't be the same person anymore.

The fear was eating me out alive, and I felt like destroying everything around me. When she asked me to tie the string to the backside of her dress I felt like tearing it apart. I didn't let her pick the red lipstick because I didn't want another man, wanting to kiss her sexy lips.

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