As I pick my outfit for the day, a wave of nausea crashes over me and I suddenly catch hold back the whole meal he had cooked for me. The hanger with the pretty skirt I had picked falls on the floor as I dash for the bathroom, past the man who was buttoning up his shirt. I crouch over the toilet bowl and I understand this is how my life is going to be from now on.Not pretty. Definitely smelly and unkind, but there was not much I could do. I had to wait it out, didn’t I? I hear Killian’s hurried footsteps behind me, but I lean in and close the door before he can barge in and see me like that. All sweaty, throwing up into the expensive toilet bowl he had bought for this place.A few strands of hair stick to my face and I feel even worse when I think that I need to get up and get moving. Everything felt like a chore right now. A boring, tedious chore that made me feel queasy. Was this some sort of bad karma? What did I do to deserve this? Eventually, I get up and flush the toilet, clos
A few days pass and with each day, I think I can handle the nausea better. The supplements and medicines are really helping but I'm also sure that part of it it's due to the lack of anxiety and anger that I experience everytime he was near. And he was near a lot. There were no business calls. There were no meetings. He was jus I here, all the time. And I was growing fond of seeing him.To my surprise he didn't ask for anything off of me. He didn't ask for sex. He didn't ask to get psychical... He was just here, always alert and ready to help me if I needed something. It was a bit incapacitating since it felt as if he didn't trust me with anything, but it was also sweet because I could see him take responsability and that made me think he was going to be a good father.I still had not made my mind about keeping the child or not, but I knew it was going to settle soon. I just had a feeling of what my decision would be, but I was a little afraid to speak it out just now, because somehow,
The front door of the house slams closed and with it, all my courage dies. Tears swell in my eyes and I am chocking in my sobs. I had told him! I had told him that going to the pack doctor was a mistake! I had told him we should have waited a little more until breaking the news to everyone? No one believed me! No one believed that my only partner has been him -Fucking omega genes and their fucking fertility rate! Why?! Why did it have to come down like this?! Why did I have to be in the middle of such a shitty thing? Why were people so mean and shitty here... How did I end up in this mess?! WHAT DID I MARRY INTO ?!Killian is tense too and he hesitates to come to me. And I feel alone and abandoned right now, because I could really use some comfort. His fist hits against the wooden entrance door and he let's put a low growl."Should have known she's here to pour her venom into our cup -" he growls out and I can feel that growl into the marrow of my bones. He was being angry.He was di
He looks doubtful, and right now I am not sure if he doubts me or himself. With slightly narrowed eyes and with flared nostrils, he watches me and I once again feel like nothing but a puny woman that has little power in front of what feels like a force of nature.His pupils have blown out and I can’t help but think that there was something in the food… but the way what seems like anger turns into maybe one of the most surprised and sincere, genuine smiles I have ever seen, tells me I have gotten it all wrong. Lips peel back and he shows me his fangs and a soft shiver, a rush of what feels like magic, pulses alive under my skin.“You’re telling me I am going to be a father -” he whispers, half choked by his own emotions. How does a man like him even have emotions? He looks and feels like a damn mountain. Did mountains have feelings? Was there anything else beside work and schemes and plots happening inside of that thick skull? I have never seen such sincere happiness before. In no one
I’m a bit of a mess. I think I have always been. It takes a while to get the hang out of myself, but eventually, the day turns out to actually be plenty of fun. As promised, I get ice cream and Pizza and we do have a short visit with a new medic. Anamaria. I think. I think that’s her name… I’m not sure. But she seemed to be a gentle and sweet person and I felt a bit of relief. Of course, she made sure to schedule a set of blood tests and other things and sent me home with another bunch of vitamins and important prenatal pamphlets that I made sure to stuff into Killian’s arms. I might still be in denial, but I had plenty of time to get some documentation while Killian would be away. And I’m sure that even wolfless and punny as I was, the motherly instincts are there somewhere and they would kick in at the right time. Or at least, that’s what I’m telling myself.As we get home, (funny how I am already calling this place a home), I walk right upstairs, to get ready for bed. The sun had
My feet stop right at the edge of the dock and my heart is hammering its way out of my chest as I stare at the water. It’s too dark to see anything underneath the reflection of the moon and the stars and all the waves. With my heart frenzied, with my mind in shambless, I kneel on the dock and bend forward to see a little better, trying to get a glimpse of the white haired idiot -From underneath the water, Killian emerges with a smirk on his face. His hands grab on the dock and he pushes himself up, to a closer level to my face, and his wet nose brushes against mine. Oh! The urge to slap him right now is so big, I’m not even sure how I control myself right now. One thing is certain. A wave of relief crashes over me and I let out a loud sobby sigh as I fall on my ass and cover my face with both my hands when I understand how big of a fool I was. He KNEW what he was doing! He knew how to swim and this was not the first time he was doing it! Then why did I get so anxious all of a sudde
“You fucking lunatic!” I scream through my sobs, fighting to get away from him, but as soon as he loosens his grip on me I panic even more, because I’m still in the water with no idea how to swim to the shore.“Madelaine!” Killian insists and he grabs my waist a little tighter, to give me some support. “I have got you, Madelaine! My feet are touching the damn bottom!” He insists and stomps his legs a little to prove it to me that he is well anchored into the sand while he holds me.With tears in my eyes, I stare at him with skepticism. There was no way he - no! Frustration fills me up and I suddenly want to claw his eyes out. He had me fooled! He had me thinking I was going to die! The damn fear I felt compares to nothing I have ever experienced and I want nothing more but to pay him back right now -“I hate you!” I spit at him and his expression harshens. My heart sinks, but I said what I said and I could not take it back. With a steady grip on me, the man lifts me up and sets me on
As I wake up, a certain soreness settles inside of my body once more. What last night seemed to have been sheer pleasure, has now turned into soreness and slight swelling. The sensation was not annoying, it was just a reminder of how hard to satiate he was. Talking about him… where was Killian? I toss and turn, but the bed is empty and a little cold. It means he had left the bed a while ago while I was still asleep. A strange emptiness takes hold of my stomach, making it turn and fill up with nothing but nausea. I push myself up and look around the room. He was not inside -“Killian?” I call out and a hint of panic surges through me.For a brief moment, I can only imagine that everything I had experienced for the past month has been nothing but a fever dream. Nausea rises to unbearable limits and I rush out of bed, to the bathroom. After a quick meeting with the toilet and after refreshing myself, I walk out a little drowsy, but with a peaceful mind at least. It was not a fever drea