Ryan's POVThe rage that fills me up even after apologizing to her is unexplainable. I can't explain the tightness in my chest and the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.I can't even control my anger anymore as I grit my teeth while sitting down in front of the bar counter downstairs and drinking the combination of wine and whiskey in my glass cup.I wish this never happened. I wish I never told her how I felt, then maybe this wouldn't be happening.She is still in love with him. He is her boyfriend. Or rather he was her boyfriend before I came along.Perhaps, if she didn't get to know about the betrothal, she would have accepted his apology and accepted him back.I guess it's not so easy to get rid of her first love. I guess she misses how he used to kiss her."Shit!" I voice out, slamming my fist on the counter and groaning in pain.I never saw this coming. I didn't mean to be attracted but it just happened. I thought it wasn't a bad thing to be attracted to her since she is
Valerie's POVNetflixing for over two hours with a bowl of tasteless popcorn, I sigh deeply and take the phone and the cone of popcorn away.I am bored despite the movie. I have lost interest in almost everything and nothing seems to kill the boredom.Not even the popcorn.Maybe it's because it is tasteless.I am beginning to feel sick out of boredom. At first, I thought it was because I was in my room so I came over to Ryan's room so I could at least feel his presence but that only worked for a while because I am now dead bored.I need a walk.When I was unmarried and in a relationship with Fred, I barely felt bored but whenever I felt bored, the solution was easy.Fred. Or parties.I miss my old life. Not the relationship lifestyle but the enjoyable moments I had without having a cause to worry about anything.Now, I am not just worried about Ryan and me as well as our relationship but also worried about my Parents.Ryan is too cold for my liking. He is making me wish I never agreed
Ryan's POVI ache so desperately for the remaining months so she can go and I can be back to my normal self.This is what she wants. If she wanted to be gone, then maybe she will be out of my mind as well.I hate this pathetic feeling in me. With my hand entwined with hers, we run all the way home. As soon as we are inside the massive gate, I let go of her hand and begin to walk faster so I can get away from her and away from the longing I feel.When I step inside, I hurry towards the staircase. I need to get rid of these clothes and have a hot shower before going to bed.I get to my door, open it and enter before proceeding to remove my clothes. I am halfway done when the door opens again and Valerie comes in.I hear her locking the door from behind and I turn back. "What are you doing here?""I want to sleep", she answers indifferently and begins to take off her wet clothes too with her gaze still fixed on mine.When she is done taking off the jacket and her top, leaving her in jus
Valerie's POVMany thoughts are running through my head while he sits calmly beside me, driving the car. I still haven't been able to comprehend his confessions. I still haven't been able to accept that my Mother is right this time.I haven't come to terms with what he said. Being nervous around men has never been my thing but for weeks, I have been extremely nervous around him and I try as much to avoid him.I know he wants answers but I have nothing to say to him. I just wished he never confessed his feelings to me and I am still as clueless as ever. I doubt if I can ever become comfortable with him again."Are you ok?" He demands with a voice thick in concern.I spare him a glance. He is watching me with a worried expression while driving expertly with his left hand. I don't think I have ever seen him drive himself."Yes", I nod and gulp down loudly before looking away.He must think I am nervous about the information I got this night which involves my father and his but that isn'
Ryan's POVValerie seems like one hell of an adventurous woman. The laughter that leaves her mouth gets me reeling in laughter too, not because I found the whole running funny but because her laughter is contagious.When we sober up, I stretch my hand at her where she is squatting to help her up. She stands up with my help and we walk quietly to the car with hands entangled.I open the door for her, and she flashes me a cute smile and gets in. Suddenly, the tension is back.As high as ever.I close the door when she is seated inside the car and turn to the other side to get in too.It is a failed attempt already so we need to re-strategize and come back next time. Dad is hiding something in there that I need to get my hands on.Sometimes, I just feel like I barely know him. Each time, his behavior seems to be different, especially whenever we argue.I kick the car engine to a start and it roars to life. Reversing back, I make my way down the path we took coming here.There is silence
Valerie's POV Everything inside of me is in disarray and I can't even think properly with him beside me and his hand holding onto mine firmly like I was going to be out of sight the next minute. Well, that's what I plan to do. I'm going off. The moment John enters the gate and halts in the driveway, I open the door, releasing my hand from his hand, and off I go, walking briskly towards the front door. "Valerie?!" He calls and I begin to hear the sound of his approaching feet. I increase my pace and when I am inside, I rush towards the staircase, taking two at a time. "Valerie?!" His voice booms from nowhere, louder than before, and I wonder how he managed to come this close within minutes. I do not stop. I am too embarrassed to look him in the face and tell him anything. I can't even think of anything to say. I don't even know what I want. The last time I checked, I was done with men but with his confession, I am so fucking confused that I no longer know what I want. I twist t
Valerie's POV Dressed in dark jeans and a white shirt, his hair looks messy and perfect, making me stare at him from my peripheral view as I slide in beside him in the car.The car roars to life immediately while we sit quietly without a word till we get to the location, my gaze shifting from the car door to Ryan who has a smile on his face.When he told me we were going out, I wanted to protest but he won't hear any of that. I didn't expect he would bring me here either.Why bring me to a party of all places? I thought he was going to take me out on a date again as he has done before."A party, Ryan?" I ask in complete disbelief with my mouth dropped open.He nods and steps down from the car. Before I can process what is happening, he opens the car door for me to get out.I step down, excitement filling me up at the thought of partying tonight. After Ryan and I got married, the first time we came to party was because I forced him here.I practically dragged him here and the day didn
Ryan's POV The scowl I have on leaves my face the moment she stares up to meet my gaze. She looks so drunk and cute and I can't help but let my anger dissolve.She is good at getting me mad. Then the next minute, my anger will be gone."Who the hell was that?!" I question her. She laughs and shakes her head."I have no slightest idea", she doesn't look like she cares about who he is but I do. What if I wasn't here? What if I didn't come to the party with her, what would have happened?I know how much she loves parties and I wonder about all the crazy things she must have done before we got married.I know she had a boyfriend and obviously, she goes to parties with him but I can't help but worry about the sort of intimacy between them even after knowing that they never had sex.She twirls around with her back to me as she puts my hands around her waist up to her stomach. Suddenly, I feel hard.Shit!Is she purposely grinding her body to mine?Like someone who has no care in the world